Noona

This is noona's second farewell letter for you, Jonghyun-ah. This will be noona goodbye words to you.

It’s still hard and painful to accept that there won't be another music from you, and no more bright smile to be seen from you through glass screen.

You were the same age as noona's younger sister, in the beginning she was the one introducing Shinee to me. How excited she was about it- ironically she grew out from kpop music, yet noona grew more attached to kpop especially to your music. Instead buying new bags or shoes, noona prefered to buy Shinee's albums. I was maybe the very few that happy when the dating news came out because at least there was someone you loved by your side. Yet heartbroken because so many cursed on you for loving someone. Till' this day I never understand why fans are never supporting idols to be happy with the person s/he loves.

For me personally, I love you Kim Jonghyun for your voice, for your music and for your bright smiles and warm heart. For me your voice and music helped me through the darkest times in my life. When everything so tough and rough- your songs made it easier to get through.

When I heard about your depression, i worried- hoping that you have someone to hold you. At least as your fans I hope you'll get better- this noona truly stupid never understand what depression entails.

You mention in one of the show that no one seem to want to know the real you, how you were tired of people misjudging you. It broke my heart so much because no matter how much I wanted to know the real you, at the end of the day I'm just another fan, another face in the crowd that had no right to know the real Kim Jonghyun.

Noona won't say or pretend that she understand your reason to take your life, but noona will accept it as the decision you believe to be the best for you so you won't hurt anymore. I know that not all that glitter is gold- and it had rough and tough journey for you.

Kim Jonghyun, please rest your weary soul in peace; and thank you for these past 9 years- being your fans had been truly a joy and i’m truly grateful for your voice and music as those were one of the greatest gift to the world...you were a gift to this world.

Goodbye Kim Jonghyun.

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Redofthedawn #1 Aug 7, 2023 07:53:21

I'm aware that it isn't December but I just thought of this post. December will never be easy for a lot of us. I'm more aware of my depression around that time. I just became an adult and the realization that a lot can change has finally hit me. I'm not sure how to feel. People within my family have died or are dying and it seems like the only thing I'm allowed to do is move on. I'm no longer given the luxury of grieving the way I had with Jonghyun. There are so many fond memories that I can go back to with Jjong but for them I only have memories. So much has happened these past few years and while I'm not completely okay I can say there's plenty of room where I've healed.

As year 6 approaches I want my fellow Shawols to know that healing is hardly a linear task. It's okay to not be ready but where you are there's always going to be SHINee.

And Dear Author thank you for keeping this space for all of us.

luv_kero ^{2442 streak} #2 Dec 18, 2022 09:15:11

Thank you for keeping this space for us for so many years <3 This milestone hit me a lot harder than expected, but seeing this brought so much comfort. Miss you to the moon and back, Jonghyun <3

Viola_Ella #3 Dec 18, 2022 03:56:50

Chapter 818: When I saw in newfeed I just realised today is the day. He is a sweet,kind and precious soul. I miss him.

Evelyn_64 #4 Dec 18, 2022 00:55:41

It’s been five years today and just a few days ago I turned 27, the age Jonghyun-ah was when we had to say goodbye to him. I have long since had to “become an adult” and learn what growing up means; yet every year I come back to this little space, and read some of the messages that people wrote for him, and think back to the letter I wrote at 22 and never shared with anyone. I think back to a memory of me looking at the full moon and talking to him for hours, telling him I missed him terribly. We still miss you, friend. I still remember you fondly. I still remember me at 17 dancing to Replay in my room. I’ll always cherish those memories of our Spring.

Author, I hope you have been doing well. Thank you so much for keeping this space running for so long, it brings comfort to some more than you’ll ever know.

OdetteSwan ^{928 streak} #5 Dec 18, 2022 00:11:36

I'm so glad you won the bid. I will start collecting karma points again.
Good work.

OdetteSwan ^{928 streak} #6 Dec 18, 2021 15:31:45

Chapter 818: I just really paid attention to SHINee this August. Yet, when Jonghyun passed away four years ago, I felt sad that another beautiful and caring person chose to leave this place. In fact, I didn't want to listen to any SHINee songs then.
Now, watching SHINee's MVs, I feel like I have accepted what happened and hope that he is really happy now.

Redofthedawn #7 Dec 18, 2021 15:23:33

Time keeps moving on and I wonder why I can't just go back and fix things to when it was so peaceful. So much has happened in the last four years and it feels as though there's only SHINee left to comfort me. Jonghyun for so long I've written my letters to you and I couldn't this year because I couldn't find the strength or will to when I was feeling down. I haven't cried this much since I was a baby. I promised last year that I would tread the new year with caution and that didn't work out so great. There's more I wanna say but I just wish you knew how much I love you. Thank you for being born and sharing your light with the world. Sincerely I love you. 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 ❤️

lovelyfeisty #8 Dec 18, 2021 05:29:15

It’s been 4 years now and so it’s hard to believe that you left us, but I still do remember you as SHINee’s Blingbling Angel and as the brightest star that shines in the sky.

I used to feel so lonely after knowing that you left us, that I was listening to Lonely everyday for about a year, but now I just remind myself that you’re still with us, as the bright shining star watching over us from the night sky. ❤️
I will always love you.

wonpokemon #9 Dec 17, 2021 22:21:02

i was InMemoryOfJonghyun!
just thought i'll let you know so you don't add this username again~ =]
anyways, good luck with the add and for all those who come here and are thinking of Jjong and of others and themselves.

aseulmonsta #10 Jul 21, 2021 15:41:11

❤️