(W) Whisper Kind Words
A Farewell
Jonghyun death triggered my memories to come back again. I was in high school when i tried to take my life just to punish the others because they imposed me how i must behave. I was lucky i had so many peoples to help me. But Jonghyun was too lonely. He had no one to take him in their arms, to whisper him kind words, to relief his pain.
I know how is to feel unworthy, to think all i did is a mistake, but there are always people to say i did good , that is normal to fail and next time i will do better. He was so lonely. Single in his apartment, trying to understand when he become this way.
That contract with his company banished him to have someone to love, to stand beside him.
I will tell you, only friends are not enough to make you feel appreciated. After they are gone at the end of the day, you will remember all the mistakes you think you did that day. I have my family to talk and they say me it's ok. He was lonely, with his music, but the endless work accentuated his numbness. After ten years of being in the light on the scene is painful to feel you are forgotten. You realise you have nothing. Only the four walls of your room. If you watch "4 things show" you'll see how sad he was and how he struggled every day.
Today i failed again, i feel the shame and i though i want to cry. My family said it's ok and i must smile because i tried hard and no person is perfect. He was lonely. And the help he was supposed to received was another big rock in his soul.
Now... he is gone, but others idols are remaining. They are also lonely. No amount of screaming fans helps them. The contact with the fans last for only a few hours, the smiles are only for stage, for pleasing other peoples. At the end of the day remains only pressure and the possibility to be scolded for a tiny detail.
Let's not be hard with them! Let's not say harsh words! Let's not bash them when they find the other half! Let's not stalk them! They need just love, because, beyond their's cool, perfect, image they are humans.
While i wrote this my soul was healed. My cat came to me and started to purr. The sun started to shine. For me is a beautiful winter day.
And for Jonghyun is the day when he starts his eternity. Rest in peace, angel, and heal the souls!
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