(W) Whisper Kind Words

A Farewell


Jonghyun death triggered my memories to come back again. I was in high school when i tried to take my life just to punish the others because they imposed me how i must behave. I was lucky i had so many peoples to help me. But Jonghyun was too lonely. He had no one to take him in their arms, to whisper him kind words, to relief his pain.
I know how is to feel unworthy, to think all i did is a mistake, but there are always people to say i did good , that is normal to fail and next time i will do better. He was so lonely. Single in his apartment, trying to understand when he become this way.
That contract with his company banished him to have someone to love, to stand beside him.
I will tell you, only friends are not enough to make you feel appreciated. After they are gone at the end of the day, you will remember all the mistakes you think you did that day. I have my family to talk and they say me it's ok. He was lonely, with his music, but the endless work accentuated his numbness. After ten years of being in the light on the scene is painful to feel you are forgotten. You realise you have nothing. Only the four walls of your room. If you watch "4 things show" you'll see how sad he was and how he struggled every day.
Today i failed again, i feel the shame and i though i want to cry. My family said it's ok and i must smile because i tried hard and no person is perfect. He was lonely. And the help he was supposed to received was another big rock in his soul.
Now... he is gone, but others idols are remaining. They are also lonely. No amount of screaming fans helps them. The contact with the fans last for only a few hours, the smiles are only for stage, for pleasing other peoples. At the end of the day remains only pressure and the possibility to be scolded for a tiny detail.
Let's not be hard with them! Let's not say harsh words! Let's not bash them when they find the other half! Let's not stalk them! They need just love, because, beyond their's cool, perfect, image they are humans.
While i wrote this my soul was healed. My cat came to me and started to purr. The sun started to shine. For me is a beautiful winter day.
And for Jonghyun is the day when he starts his eternity. Rest in peace, angel, and heal the souls!

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Redofthedawn
#1
I'm aware that it isn't December but I just thought of this post. December will never be easy for a lot of us. I'm more aware of my depression around that time. I just became an adult and the realization that a lot can change has finally hit me. I'm not sure how to feel. People within my family have died or are dying and it seems like the only thing I'm allowed to do is move on. I'm no longer given the luxury of grieving the way I had with Jonghyun. There are so many fond memories that I can go back to with Jjong but for them I only have memories. So much has happened these past few years and while I'm not completely okay I can say there's plenty of room where I've healed.

As year 6 approaches I want my fellow Shawols to know that healing is hardly a linear task. It's okay to not be ready but where you are there's always going to be SHINee.

And Dear Author thank you for keeping this space for all of us.
luv_kero
2416 streak #2
Thank you for keeping this space for us for so many years <3 This milestone hit me a lot harder than expected, but seeing this brought so much comfort. Miss you to the moon and back, Jonghyun <3
Viola_Ella #3
Chapter 818: When I saw in newfeed I just realised today is the day. He is a sweet,kind and precious soul. I miss him.
Evelyn_64
#4
It’s been five years today and just a few days ago I turned 27, the age Jonghyun-ah was when we had to say goodbye to him. I have long since had to “become an adult” and learn what growing up means; yet every year I come back to this little space, and read some of the messages that people wrote for him, and think back to the letter I wrote at 22 and never shared with anyone. I think back to a memory of me looking at the full moon and talking to him for hours, telling him I missed him terribly. We still miss you, friend. I still remember you fondly. I still remember me at 17 dancing to Replay in my room. I’ll always cherish those memories of our Spring.



Author, I hope you have been doing well. Thank you so much for keeping this space running for so long, it brings comfort to some more than you’ll ever know.
OdetteSwan
910 streak #5
I'm so glad you won the bid. I will start collecting karma points again.
Good work.
OdetteSwan
910 streak #6
Chapter 818: I just really paid attention to SHINee this August. Yet, when Jonghyun passed away four years ago, I felt sad that another beautiful and caring person chose to leave this place. In fact, I didn't want to listen to any SHINee songs then.
Now, watching SHINee's MVs, I feel like I have accepted what happened and hope that he is really happy now.
Redofthedawn
#7
Time keeps moving on and I wonder why I can't just go back and fix things to when it was so peaceful. So much has happened in the last four years and it feels as though there's only SHINee left to comfort me. Jonghyun for so long I've written my letters to you and I couldn't this year because I couldn't find the strength or will to when I was feeling down. I haven't cried this much since I was a baby. I promised last year that I would tread the new year with caution and that didn't work out so great. There's more I wanna say but I just wish you knew how much I love you. Thank you for being born and sharing your light with the world. Sincerely I love you. 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 ❤️
lovelyfeisty
#8
It’s been 4 years now and so it’s hard to believe that you left us, but I still do remember you as SHINee’s Blingbling Angel and as the brightest star that shines in the sky.

I used to feel so lonely after knowing that you left us, that I was listening to Lonely everyday for about a year, but now I just remind myself that you’re still with us, as the bright shining star watching over us from the night sky. ❤️
I will always love you.
wonpokemon
#9
i was InMemoryOfJonghyun!
just thought i'll let you know so you don't add this username again~ =]
anyways, good luck with the add and for all those who come here and are thinking of Jjong and of others and themselves.
aseulmonsta
#10
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