I Want To Shine For Both Of Us
A FarewellWhen I first heard the news about your death, I couldn't believe it. I spent the next few hours in complete agony, desperately hoping that this is a false statement and you're alive. But you are dead and I can't turn back time no matter how much I want to. When I look back at all the joy you gave me by listening to your music, watching you, I really wish I could've met you in person. I myself have a long history with depression and anxiety. You made me forget about all the hardships I had and you gave me light when everything else was dark. At first I felt like I kind of died too, which I know is extremely dramatic but because I related so much I thought: "If he can't live, how can I?". But with the day passing and listening to all of your songs and reading others messages, my mindset changed again. You didn't find light in the darkness so I want to shine for both us.
Your sudden death also made me realize how fragile life is, how much it can affect the people around you. After hearing the news, I texted all my friends that I loved them. I don't want to know how your family and friends feel without getting a chance to say their farewell. I'm sorry that we couldn't save you. I'm sorry that only you were able to give us light.
I will never forget you. Rest in peace.
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