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A FarewellJonghyun.
I´m having such a hard time to take all of this in, even though I´ve cried for two days and probably will tomorrow as well.
This wasn´t the way is was supposed to end.
Even though I knew that maybe Shinee wouldn´t continue for much longer.... But an ending like THIS?
And you would die eventually, like everyone else. But a death LIKE THIS?
It´s just... wrong.
I´m angry. Furious, actually. And sad. I´m grieving. Grieving the loss of a fellow human. A man with dreams, emotions, tears, humor, smiles, and pain.
Why did you do it?
Why did it have to go so far?
Why weren´t we able to help you?
Why weren´t you able to help yourself?
Why weren´t you able to find something, ANYTHING, to live for?
Why did your passion and love so cruely turn against you?
Did you regret it the last few seconds of your life? Or did you finally find peace?
Either way.
I´m sorry. We´re sorry.
(I just pray GOD, let us become better at helping each other).
I only find comfort in that we´re grieving together. And that God Himself is crying with us for you and your soul.
That beautiful, precious soul.
Thank you for all the songs, the dances, the laughter you brought. Thank you for that you tried.
Thank you for being awesome.
Shawols, let´s stick together through this and tell me if you need help. Don´t let this doubt your own life or the value of it. You matter. As Jonghyuns did.
Kibum, Jinki, Taemin, Minho. Jonghyun´s family. The family of SM.
I´m sorry for your loss. Hope you´ll be able to get through this time of despair together.
And author, thank you for providing a space for us to grieve together. Thank you for helping so many shawols. You´re a star.
R.I.P Jonghyun
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