Gloom And Pain
A Farewell
Annyeong, Jonghyun!
First of all, I’m sorry I haven't met you earlier. I'm sorry I didn't became a fan earlier. Knowing me being a fan, I'm supportive in any way I can the whole time being awake 24/7. If only I was that kind of a fan with how I was with my most loved group, I should have know about your depression. Maybe, just maybe, maybe I was that one person that you only needed to stop you. Maybe if things weren't too late. It was too late.
You are really a lost. A lost loved one by your family, friends and most especially by your fans who took inspiration by you. I know you inspired a lot of people. You made a lot of people learned how to smile, laugh, sing, write, realize, learn, reflect and most especially, play the kazoo? Hahaha Thank you for that. You have done well. You did well! You are loved. You are appreciated. Jjang!!!
It must be hard right? Living in this world majored with gloom and pain. I know what you felt. I know how it felt. As part of that world, I apologized for you who had felt that pain.
But now the pain was gone right? It must be nice to stop crying in the deaf room. It must be nice not to wake up with swollen eyes, aching head and heavy shoulders. It must be nice not to wake up with a shattered heart which was only temporarily fixed with a band-aid everytime. It must be nice, I'm glad, I'm envious .
I'm praying that you are really painless right now, that you are in paradise. As a Christian, I pray that God will forgive you being a sinner. But don't worry, you are not the only one, everyone is. And don't worry, I'm sure God will forgive you, He is a merciful God. And Jesus, The Holy Spirit, the Angels and Saints, and the people in paradise are your back-up.
Lastly, I know you don't want to in worry anymore but can you pray for people like me who are also in pain right now? Can you say to God to give comfort, love and happiness to people who needed it the most? Jonghyun-oppa, I don't want to die. I want to live. Just like you, I just want the pain to end. I have been fighting for too long now. I don't know how long it will take. But I'm trying, that's the most important thing to do atleast right? Even though, I'm all alone, I'm so hard. Please pray for me and everyone who feel the same as I do. Thank you in advance!
Jonghyun-oppa, Please Rest well in Peace. I pray that you will be very very very happy in in your next life. That you will feel the love without the pain hindering it from your sight. May you feel an ever-growing comfort and joy.
Jonghyun-oppa, Annyeong!
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