Best 8 Years Of My Life
A Farewell
Thank you for everything, Jonghyun
I've been wanting to write a letter to you for some time since the news, but had not gained the courage to do so until now. There is a lot I want to say, but most importantly: thank you. Thank you for providing me with the best 8 years of my life. I discovered SHINee back in 2009, and, along with SuJu, SHINee was the group that got me into kpop. I watched your shows, replayed your songs. I was in immediately. You were the last person I expected to lose, especially like this. I may have been more of a casual fan, but I truly admired you for all that you did. Jonghyun, you did more than well - you did amazing. Tremendous, phenomenal, extraordinary - you did it all. And I am truly blessed to have lived during your time.
I don't grieve like most people. I lost sleep the night I found out of your passing. I teared up, and my heart occasionally feels heavy, yet I haven't cried. Please don't take that as me not missing you, me not loving you or all that you have done. I wish I can cry like everyone, crash like everyone else. But we all grieve differently. Part of me is still in denial. It doesn't feel like your gone, seeing your beautiful smile. Maybe I haven't cried because it hasn't hit me yet, or because I know that you are now in a happy place. Or maybe I'll never cry. But please, please don't think me any differently. That I love you any differently. Because I will always love you and miss you.
I'll remember the good times. That's exactly what I've been doing with my grandpa (who was my only father figure) since his passing two years ago. And like him, I know you're in a better place. That you are no longer in pain. And that just makes me a tad bit happier.
I could say more, but I'm sure it's been said by so many other.
Rest in paradise, Jonghyun. You did all that you could, and you did it very well. I'll love you forever, bling bling.
- sweet_bitterness (Eli)
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