Dear Jonghyun,

I wasn't a SHAWOL, but I can feel their grief. I can empathize with them. SHINee, was a group I fully know well. Sure, I didn't know your birthday's or your favourite foods and etc. However, I've always known you guys as the admired and respected group. In my eyes, SHINee is a really talented group and I knew everyone felt that way too. So, losing one of their members, is really making me sad.

I always listened to your songs, Jonghyun. Lonely, Breathe; i really loved those too. Every time I listened, I thought, 'Jonghyun, how do you write like this? The people who write songs with such emotions poured simply through words, must experience it first.' I thought that, Jonghyun. I thought, 'Oh, maybe he has problems. I hope he gets over it soon and that the people around him could be help him be happy.' I wished for your happiness that time. I still do. You weren't a disappointment, Jonghyun. You were far from it. I have always admired singer songwriters that often produces their own songs. Most of them talked, no, sang, about life. Yet, yours always captured my ears first. Your songs and their meanings. I felt it. The little pinch on my heart everytime I listen to Lonely, it feels as if even though I'm in this world, countless people surrounding me, I don't feel like they know me at all.

Even now, I still wonder if they actually know me and love me for who I am. I wonder if they see this little ball of me who isn't what they want to be, would they still love me? When I can't sleep, and the people around me are asleep, I would think of the millions of others in the world who probably was going through their day but the loneliness always haunts me. 'They don't even know you.' True. Loneliness will always haunt us.


Jonghyun, I felt, I knew, you were lonely but I still couldn't do anything about it. You were too far. I could only had hope that you would gain your happiness somehow. But Jonghyun, now that you are gone, I feel sad but I can't be selfish. If I had wanted you to be happy, and I still want that to happen, I should let you go. If letting you go is how you can be happy, I will. The pain was eating you and you cried for help yet nothing seems to be there. The light aorund you was slowly fading away and darkness swallowed you whole. Now, I hope, you're happy. Stay in the light. Watch over us. Be happy. I don't blame you for anything. When it gets too much, we can't help but let go, right? I want you to be happy up there. Be peaceful. Just know, that you were loved and you still are and you did great, more than it. Thank you for having been you, Jonghyun.