You Are Important And You Matter
A FarewellI feel like I don’t belong here, amongst all the mourning Shawols who surely have been more painfully hit than I. I who knew nothing of who Jonghyun was as an idol much less as a person. I was never part of the inside jokes or in the crowd of people who looked up to Jonghyun. He was just a name to me... a member of SHINee, a group I never really got into and, therefore, didn’t care about.
But I still took it pretty hard when I heard the news. And I can’t stop listening to Elevator or any of his songs. They are all like a cry for help... a cry I did not heed nor hear.
I express my empathy for the people who truly knew Jonghyun and who he was as a person. I am deeply sorry for the people who truly understand what the world has lost with Jonghyun’s death.
What fills me with- I cannot quite describe the emotion- bittersweet? Is that there is something called The Lines Project, it started on the 15 and ended today, on the 20. And Jonghyun left us on the 18th. The Project is to draw awareness to people with depression, who self-harm, face abuse, or are suicidal. The timing seems so very twisted.
For those of you who do feel depressed or down. For those of you who do self-harm or are suicidal. Reach out to other people, people you know you can trust. I assure you, there is someone out there who loves you and understands what you’re worth. Or there is someone willing to do so. There is someone who knows exactly what you’re going through. I have self-harmed and was suicidal, I also struggle with depression. Imagine my surprise when I found someone else, amongst my friends even, who had gone through the same feelings and thoughts as me. I was shocked but I also felt much less alone because I knew there was someone out there who understood that I could reach out to. So, please, communicate with others your thoughts and feelings. You are important and you do matter. Hwaiting to Shawols and people going through tough times in their life now. Have strength!
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