Dear Jonghyun,
I've heard of people with a bright soul, a courageous soul, and more, but to me, you're a melodious soul, cause you not only helped me, with your beautiful songs and presence, you help others as well.

I have been wanting to write here since the day i found out that you were no longer with us. Thoughts and words ran through my mind, but i felt too numb to just write down.
Today is the final leg of your journey, your love ones will be sending you off, but remember, you will always be in our hearts.

I fell in love with SHINee and you, Kim Jonghyun, since 2009-2010, and have been together with you since then. For some reason, since the the very start you have always caught my attention.
Was it your charisma?
Your looks?
Your incredible voice?
I don't know, but over the years, i found out it may have been everything and more. Your voice, your songs, your kindness, your humour, your adorable outburst, the times you were down, and especially the love you had and shown to us fans, your bands members, friends and family.

Just want to say...
I hate that i had no idea about how much you were suffering. I had a slight dark period in my life too, but fortunately, god sent my mum and my brother to be my pillars of support, to help me from getting entirely consumed by that darkness. I just hate....also sad...over the fact that the right person wasn't there to help you with your darkness too.
I can never imagine how you felt, you must have suffered silently, and it hurts me, everyone, to think about it.

Listening to your voice on Blue Night, your songs, helped me during those rough days. When i was down about something, your voice was always there to lift me up.
i just....wish that i was able to do the same for you. Your songs helped me, so why couldn't have i done the same.
You know, i've been waking up every morning, looking at the sunrise, thinking, 'Your soulful eyes will never be looking at the sunrise with us again'

But i know, you are at a better place now. A place, brighter than the sun and stars, peace and laughter just for you. I'm glad you don't have to suffer anymore. All of us will be fine here, our thoughts will always be with you, cause i know that one bright star up there, is you watching over your family and friends.



I have so much more to say but, i'll just end it like this

Thanks for everything, everything, you have done for everyone.

Thanks for gracing us with your presence.

Thanks for holding on for so long, it was a hard fight, i'm just sorry that we weren't there to help you through it.

Thanks for giving us these beautiful gifts, your songs and memories, we....i will never forget you.

and Kim Jonghyun, you did well, and that will always be in our hearts.


Always a Shawol & a Blinger