Tunnel Song

A Farewell

Your song Moon is one of my favorites. I don't know how many times I would just listen to it over and over again. You truly had the voice of an angel.

Last year my sister and a friend went on a road trip to KCON. We drove all the way from the Midwest to New Jersey. White T-shirt was a favorite with all of us. There are four tunnels you drive through on the way and in one of them we were listening to White T-shirt. After that, when we were close to a tunnel, we would find that song and play it. White T-shirt will forever be known as our 'Tunnel song' :'(

You gave the world such beautiful music. I don't know why I saw that people criticized you about your music. You were a fantastic singer and songwriter. You were enough. You were always enough, just the way you were. I'm sorry WE weren't enough, that we didn't show you enough love. Baby, you deserved better :'(

I, too, have struggled with depression for years and kpop saved me. It might seem weird to some to listen to music and not understand what was being said but it relieved me when I was stressed. For 4 1/2 years kpop has brought me through hard, sad times. I am so sad that we couldn't save you as you did for us :'(

Monday, December 18th, 2017 will be another sad day to add to my list. How I wish I could've sent a message or been one of the lucky fans to actually speak to you in person :'( I wish I could've sent you an encouraging message and let you know you weren't alone with this disease. I wish I could've told you that it was NOT your personality that was at fault. I wish you could've found something happy to hang on to as I have. I wish the police would've gotten to you sooner and you'd made it through alive :'( I wish lots of things, but most of all that you were still here :'(

Jonghyun sweetie - I miss you :'( I wish I could turn back time and we weren't so blind to how you were feeling. As they say, hindsight is 20/20 and it is proved true yet again.

At work last night I suddenly thought of the SHINee song 'Tell Me What To Do' that I love. Tell me. Tell me what do I do now? Now that you're gone? :'(

Oh, sweet baby. Do you know that we're the same age? This is so hard to take in and believe. I feel like I'm in a bad dream and I wish it WAS a dream!! Then I could wake up and you'd be here! :'(

I pray you are resting at peace. I love you, sweet Jonghyun <3 You are gone too soon :'(

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Redofthedawn
#1
I'm aware that it isn't December but I just thought of this post. December will never be easy for a lot of us. I'm more aware of my depression around that time. I just became an adult and the realization that a lot can change has finally hit me. I'm not sure how to feel. People within my family have died or are dying and it seems like the only thing I'm allowed to do is move on. I'm no longer given the luxury of grieving the way I had with Jonghyun. There are so many fond memories that I can go back to with Jjong but for them I only have memories. So much has happened these past few years and while I'm not completely okay I can say there's plenty of room where I've healed.

As year 6 approaches I want my fellow Shawols to know that healing is hardly a linear task. It's okay to not be ready but where you are there's always going to be SHINee.

And Dear Author thank you for keeping this space for all of us.
luv_kero
2415 streak #2
Thank you for keeping this space for us for so many years <3 This milestone hit me a lot harder than expected, but seeing this brought so much comfort. Miss you to the moon and back, Jonghyun <3
Viola_Ella #3
Chapter 818: When I saw in newfeed I just realised today is the day. He is a sweet,kind and precious soul. I miss him.
Evelyn_64
#4
It’s been five years today and just a few days ago I turned 27, the age Jonghyun-ah was when we had to say goodbye to him. I have long since had to “become an adult” and learn what growing up means; yet every year I come back to this little space, and read some of the messages that people wrote for him, and think back to the letter I wrote at 22 and never shared with anyone. I think back to a memory of me looking at the full moon and talking to him for hours, telling him I missed him terribly. We still miss you, friend. I still remember you fondly. I still remember me at 17 dancing to Replay in my room. I’ll always cherish those memories of our Spring.



Author, I hope you have been doing well. Thank you so much for keeping this space running for so long, it brings comfort to some more than you’ll ever know.
OdetteSwan
909 streak #5
I'm so glad you won the bid. I will start collecting karma points again.
Good work.
OdetteSwan
909 streak #6
Chapter 818: I just really paid attention to SHINee this August. Yet, when Jonghyun passed away four years ago, I felt sad that another beautiful and caring person chose to leave this place. In fact, I didn't want to listen to any SHINee songs then.
Now, watching SHINee's MVs, I feel like I have accepted what happened and hope that he is really happy now.
Redofthedawn
#7
Time keeps moving on and I wonder why I can't just go back and fix things to when it was so peaceful. So much has happened in the last four years and it feels as though there's only SHINee left to comfort me. Jonghyun for so long I've written my letters to you and I couldn't this year because I couldn't find the strength or will to when I was feeling down. I haven't cried this much since I was a baby. I promised last year that I would tread the new year with caution and that didn't work out so great. There's more I wanna say but I just wish you knew how much I love you. Thank you for being born and sharing your light with the world. Sincerely I love you. 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 ❤️
lovelyfeisty
#8
It’s been 4 years now and so it’s hard to believe that you left us, but I still do remember you as SHINee’s Blingbling Angel and as the brightest star that shines in the sky.

I used to feel so lonely after knowing that you left us, that I was listening to Lonely everyday for about a year, but now I just remind myself that you’re still with us, as the bright shining star watching over us from the night sky. ❤️
I will always love you.
wonpokemon
#9
i was InMemoryOfJonghyun!
just thought i'll let you know so you don't add this username again~ =]
anyways, good luck with the add and for all those who come here and are thinking of Jjong and of others and themselves.
aseulmonsta
#10
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