The news have hit me like a rock and my heart clenched while my mind was trying to find an explanation for what has happened.
You were having a hard time. And you screamed for help. For just realizing now, I am sorry. The worst thing is that you needed to do this for us to finally understand how much you were struggling. Why have your words not been enaugh? They should have been.
For years SHINee has been the one stable thing in my life, the one thing I could come to when I was having a hard time. Whenever I was struggling I could just find my peace with my five shining stars. You have cheered me up in situations where no one else could. You have given us so much of yourself. You gave us hope. You gave us love. You gave us strengh. You gave us everything you needed to have yourself.
Kim Jonghyun, you haven't stayed quiet over your mental struggles, everyone says this is the most important thing, so why wasn't it enaugh, why did no one listen. Why did you have to go like that.
SHINee world is standing still. All of us will be missing you dearly. We will never forget what you did for us. You struggled to keep us from feeling the way you did. I just wished you would have lived to have your own family, to find your happiness beside your life as an artist - in your personal life where you could be with your loved ones.
Your songs will live on. They will stay in our hearts. The same way, we will never forget about you either. Your voice can be replayed forever but why am I still so sad. It seems you have silenced now and every single note I hear is mearly a reproduction. I was trying to find comfort in your songs but all they do is make me cry even more, now that I realize that those lyrics weren't simply poetry but way realer than anyone has imagined.
I wanted to thank you for everything you have done. I wanted to thank you for being the man you were.
Thank you so much.
It is hard to accept that this is actually the end. It is so damn hard. But at one point we will have to come to accept this. Accept it, learn from it and live better than we had before.
I think I am speaking for SHAWOLS when I say that your loss will be very present in all of our lives. We will come to terms with it. We will be able to overcome the sadness that has come over SHINee World like a cloud. But we will find the beauty in everything that you have given to us in your life time. And we will be able to keep you in a loving memory. Like you said: Time will pass.
If we just had the chance to say our goodbyes
If we only had the chance to hug you one last time
If we had the chance to say it one last time: We love you. We always will.
Trying to advertise this for the 18th but someone else is bidding really hard so I am running out of karma (already bought more for over 30dollars) so if you have some spare you are willing to donate, I would be really thankful.
I'm aware that it isn't December but I just thought of this post. December will never be easy for a lot of us. I'm more aware of my depression around that time. I just became an adult and the realization that a lot can change has finally hit me. I'm not sure how to feel. People within my family have died or are dying and it seems like the only thing I'm allowed to do is move on. I'm no longer given the luxury of grieving the way I had with Jonghyun. There are so many fond memories that I can go back to with Jjong but for them I only have memories. So much has happened these past few years and while I'm not completely okay I can say there's plenty of room where I've healed.
As year 6 approaches I want my fellow Shawols to know that healing is hardly a linear task. It's okay to not be ready but where you are there's always going to be SHINee.
And Dear Author thank you for keeping this space for all of us.
Thank you for keeping this space for us for so many years <3 This milestone hit me a lot harder than expected, but seeing this brought so much comfort. Miss you to the moon and back, Jonghyun <3
It’s been five years today and just a few days ago I turned 27, the age Jonghyun-ah was when we had to say goodbye to him. I have long since had to “become an adult” and learn what growing up means; yet every year I come back to this little space, and read some of the messages that people wrote for him, and think back to the letter I wrote at 22 and never shared with anyone. I think back to a memory of me looking at the full moon and talking to him for hours, telling him I missed him terribly. We still miss you, friend. I still remember you fondly. I still remember me at 17 dancing to Replay in my room. I’ll always cherish those memories of our Spring.
Author, I hope you have been doing well. Thank you so much for keeping this space running for so long, it brings comfort to some more than you’ll ever know.
Chapter 818: I just really paid attention to SHINee this August. Yet, when Jonghyun passed away four years ago, I felt sad that another beautiful and caring person chose to leave this place. In fact, I didn't want to listen to any SHINee songs then.
Now, watching SHINee's MVs, I feel like I have accepted what happened and hope that he is really happy now.
Time keeps moving on and I wonder why I can't just go back and fix things to when it was so peaceful. So much has happened in the last four years and it feels as though there's only SHINee left to comfort me. Jonghyun for so long I've written my letters to you and I couldn't this year because I couldn't find the strength or will to when I was feeling down. I haven't cried this much since I was a baby. I promised last year that I would tread the new year with caution and that didn't work out so great. There's more I wanna say but I just wish you knew how much I love you. Thank you for being born and sharing your light with the world. Sincerely I love you. 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 ❤️
It’s been 4 years now and so it’s hard to believe that you left us, but I still do remember you as SHINee’s Blingbling Angel and as the brightest star that shines in the sky.
I used to feel so lonely after knowing that you left us, that I was listening to Lonely everyday for about a year, but now I just remind myself that you’re still with us, as the bright shining star watching over us from the night sky. ❤️
I will always love you.
i was InMemoryOfJonghyun!
just thought i'll let you know so you don't add this username again~ =]
anyways, good luck with the add and for all those who come here and are thinking of Jjong and of others and themselves.
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