"Hi. Im doctor Adams. I think you know why your'e here but I still need to go over everything for medical purposes." Hani seems to be in a different world, cold eyes staring into the gray bland wall, not moving, covered in white clean bandages." You were admittted into the psych ward after an attempt on your life at 12:03 am on Sunday." He said slowly getting softer and softer. He closes his book and on his way out he says, "if you need anything just ask, and if you still don't feel like talking, here, take this." He hands her a notebook and a dull pencil and shuts the door gently behind him. Hani stares at the wall unable to say anything and unable to move. She's frozen. After free time she was forced out of her room to go and eat. "Hi, I'm Violet. I know that your'e not one to talk but you can always come to me. I know how you feel." She pulls up her sleves with a slight expression of shame on her face, there they were, burns briuses and cuts, trickling all the way up her arms. She quickly rolled down her sleve and smiled at Hani. " I have to go but it was nice talking to you, I guess." Violet said. Hani under her breath said, "no one knows how I feel. I'll never be loved." she covers her face with her hair. Day in and day out she sat there trying to figure it out. One of her old friends, Chen called and asked for her. Her face lit up when she heard the news and the only words she could find were, "He asked for me? Why me? It's not like I'm that special to him." Dr. Adams chimed in saying "Don't think about yourself like that, you are blind to those who really care about you. If you keep thinking like that how will you ever learn to love yourself?" he said as she handed her the phone. "Hani, is that you?" Chen said with his voice egar to hear hers. Hani hesitates for a moment as the tears start to form in her eyes. She tries to speak but it takes her a while. "It's me." Hani said with her voice shaking. "Hani, they told me you were going to be discharged, come to me. I told them I was going to be taking care of you. I won't be there for a while since I'm on tour but don't worry you can stay at my place. I already informed my roomate you were going to be there so it's going to be alright." Chen said in a calming voice. "Alright." Those words struck Hani right in the heart like a knife. " Thank you for helping me Chen, you truly are the best." Hani said while crying into the phone. Dr.Adams comes and tells Hani that her phone time is up and that tomorrow she'll be out of the hospital. Hani layed her head on the pillow and replayed the conversation she had with Chen in her head over and over again. She stayed up all night since she heard the news about Chen coming to pick her up. She liked Chen, since grade school. She praised him and loved him with all of her heart but his belonged to another. Soon the sun rose and Hani got out of bed, "Hani here are some of your clothes, you shouldn't go in ahospital gown, epecially if you aren't comfertable with all those scars on your body." Dr.Adams said as he handed her a pair of black ripped jeans and a thrasher sweatshirt. She smiles at him and then looks away. She receives her train ticket to Busan and she goes to say goodbye to Violet. She hugged her and they exchanged phone numbers. She goes into the bathroom and put her clothes on when she realized that she didn't have any shoes besides hospital slippers. She walked out and got all of the money she had scrapped throughout the time she was on the road and went to go get a new pair. She blew almost all of her money on a new pair and she made sure she looked nice when Chen was coming back from his tour. She first walks to her old broken down apartment and gathered her belongings into an old ripped suitcase. She heads to the train station and takes a seat, looking at her ticket like its made out of gold and whispers "this is my chance to start over, maybe even to start a life with Chen." she hugs her ticket tight. As the train arrives she finds a seat and sits down. It was very hot and smelly on the train and she was debating weather she should roll her sleves up or not, would they think she's a freak? Would they all move together on the other side of the train? That's when she remembered what Violet once told her " Just dont give a about what others think, this is you Hani, this is the person you made yourself, now you need to find a way to live with it and live with what you done, little baby steps at a time." Hani slowly pulls up her sleves until they are all the way to her elbows. She looks down at the ripe scars reaching from her wrists all the way up to her collar bone. She