"Jisoo-yah, how are you?" "I'm great doc." Jisoo smiled at me. I'm thankful that he's slowly recovering after the operation but he's still under go chemo theraphy so that the remaining tumor that haven't got in the surgery will be gone. "I'm happy to hear that, so how's your treatment?" "It's okay doc but I don't like it. I look like a human skeleton now." Hahaha I don't know that Jisoo has an aegyo on it. He so cute when he pout.  "Don't worry it's just normal, your figure will be back once you're healthy enough." I saw him smile. I noticed that he smiled a lot now days unlike before. "Did you eat healthy foods?"  He nod his head "How's the food that being served for you?"  He grimace "it's bland. Bleh." As I expected, people always say that whenever I ask them about the food; they really hate it. But that's the only food they need to eat. Nutritionist already know what's good for their body plus, jisoo is under chemo so his food supposed healthy like vegestables and less salt or sugar. "Well your body need that food." I said to him and check the Dextrose and wrote it down.  He sigh and frowned "I know. I miss to eat junkfoods and sweets."  "You can eat that after you will be discharge so keep fighting okay?" I said to him and then gather my things after I'm done checking him "Doc?"  "Hmm?" "I'm sorry." What he's been sorry for? I can't remember that he's done something wrong to me. "For calling you a liar.. You know, I was just broken thinking that I might die that's why I said that." Oh.. That. He doesn't need to be sorry. I'm not hurt or something I'm used to it.  "No worries jisoo." I said to him but before I left he spoke again. "But your words got me. Thanks." I smiled to him one last time before I left. Sigh... Another person who I encourage from my words. Keep it up jessica. You did really a great job I said to myself since no one will compliment me rather than my own self. "Sica." It's yuri. "What?" "How's Jisoo?" "He's slowly recovering it and the chemo is doing great to his illness." "Ah, that's good." Silence.... Well this is awkward.. Both of us did not speak any word after yuri said. I'm looking at her but yuri is not looking at me. She's looking down. I think she have something to tell me that's why I'm still here but later on I got bored. "Uh, I have something to do. Gotta go." "No wait. Can we talk?" I raised my eyebrows at her. Why do we need to talk? We don't need to talk. I don't need to talk. Being with her is so damn difficult. "Talk?"  She nod "Yes. Talk."  "I still have--" "Please, just spare me of your time it won't be long I promise." Sigh.. I can see that she's pleading me with her own eyes. I just stared at her with no emotion but deep inside I have a difficulty while starring at her and I have a hunch that this talk will lead into something. "Please sica. Just for a moment."  "Fine. Let's talk somewhere else."  ... I entered our on-call room followed by yuri behind me then closed it. "What do you want to talk?" I said immediately at her so thay we can finish it. I can't really stand when I'm near her.  "Do you have any problems?"  "No I don't."  "Then why are you avoiding me?" I closed my eyes and sigh. No I don't want her to know the reason.  "I'm not avoiding you."  "Don't lie, I know your avoiding me. Did I do something wrong? If I did I'm sorry." .. I can't breath properly. She want me to suffer huh? Eventhough she didn't realize it. "No you didn't, so if you'll excuse me I still have more things to do." Thankfully my voice didn't crack when I said that.  "Sica." God please help me. I might not take it anymore when I'm with her it's too dangerous the pain in my heart is rising.  "I need to go."  "Sica wait." She grab my hand then I felt some electricity when her skin met mine I automatically flinched and pulled my arm againts her. She was shocked in my action  but she regrain it afterwards. "Don't touch me." I saw her eyes soften at me and I regret it why did I even looked into her eyes. I know that she cared for me but I prefer that she didn't cause for me there's something on it the way she looked at me. It gives me hope that she feel the same way too but , in reality she just saw me as a friend and I hate myself for thinking that before. "Why are you crying?" She tried to wipe my tears away but I stopped her by stepping back. "Sica." I wipe again my tears that fall from my eyes. Gosh why here? Can't they just wait for a moment before they fall down and not in front of yuri? "I'm fine yuri. We're done talkin