I did not believe i agreed to her. At the same time I was regretting. I looked out of the window of the plane. I saw small dwellings, too small to be even noticed. Maybe someone observed us from above in the same way. We live in a tiny world engulfed by our own pain and sorrows yet we try to wear a mask and act as if we were the blessed ones. I am one of them who had also worn a mask for the sake of my best friend who sat beside me, all bubbly and cheerful. i came across a K pop group around 4 years ago. I and my best friend, Hajiwon fangirled so hard that we made promise to each other that no matter what happens, we will once in our lifetime visit South Korea and meet them. And thus, here i am keeping that promise. Also, we both felt taht this is the only way I will let go of the past and start afresh.

i still regret that fateful day when I let the love of my life plunge to his own death in front of me. I was the one who absent mindedly slipped into the river when we went rafting. he jumped beside me to save me. I felt someone pushing me onto the shore. after a moment i felt cold water being splashed hard on my back. In an unconscious effort i turned around. I saw him drifting farther from me. He went away and never came back. If I had never been so restless and careless, he would have been alive. i was meant to die and not him.  The moment this thought crossed me, I felt tears filling up my eyes. i vision went blurry. i felt a familiar hand on my wrist. I looked up and saw Anne giving me a reassuring look. Since Mark died, she had been extra supportive and caring. A trip to korea was her plan to cheer meup. i had to oblige to her por she would have left me with no option. I smiled at her.

The plane landed on time. I felt the cool breath brush against me. It had certain sweetness to itself. my eyes widened as my body tried to adjust to the shivering temperature. I took a deep breath and headed towards the taxi.

"Come on, Faster faster faster." Hajiwon elbowed me signalling to hurry up.

"Hajima." I replied. I tossed the half eaten energy bar to my side. I looked at the mirror once again. I wore a shoulderless top with white jeans.

"Hurry BTS won't be waiting for us." Hajiwon yelled.

"It's just a fansign." i replied.

"Just a fan sign? Ms Mayumi are you kidding me? this is the coldest reaction you could ever extend to an Army." Hajiwon widened her eyes in shock. I rolled my eyes and headed out.

We were the last to meet up. I had been in line for a long time. it felt weird.I was not able to familiarise myself with the new Mayumi I had created. She was no fun at all. Where had the real Mayumi gone who cried whenever BTS released a new MV and spent all of her savings to buy their merch. Frankly, I was the least excited. I tried to fake a smile on one occassion or the other but it was too noticeable. Being the last I went quietly to each one of them. I was greeted with a cheerful voice. I recognised it immediately. I faked a faint smile and let hobi sign my autograph book. Subsequently I went from Jin to Jimin, V, Jungkook, suga and in the end i landed at the table of Kim Namjoon.

"Annyeong." He greeted vividly.

"Annyeong." I looked up. Our eyes met with each other. he stared at me fondly.

"Having a good time, huh? He raised his eyebrow and questioned me.

"Yeah." I pressed my lips together.

I let out a giggle when i saw Namjoon struggling with a hairclip. He fondled through his hair and then let out a sigh. I brought my hand forward to get it right.

"Here let me." I spoke.

I looked at his child like expressions. His eyebrows suddenly knitted together. I looked at him dumbfoundedly. He twisted his expressions a little more and brought his eyes towards my wrist. The moment I raised my hand to do his hair clip, the cloth had slipped away revealing the cuts on my arm. He held my wrist a little harder and stopped his gaze at me.

"Umm I need to go." i grabbed the book and hastily turned around. I felt my foot snap and immediately fell on the ground. My knee hit the threshold and the blood oozed out of it. I saw Namjoon in front of me. i felt a concerning look flashing through his face.

"Are you hurt." He grabbed a tissue and pressed it on my knee.

"I think." I turned my face around so i could not see the blood. It did not take him long to figure out that i was haematophobic.

"Here let me help you." he placed my hand on his shoulder and lifted me up.

I saw a bunch of boys surrounding me. I haerd Hajiwon's faint cries in the background. I was starting to become unconscious. I immediately regained myself and said "I'm totally fine. I need to go. umm bye. Thank you." I hastily grabbed Hajiwon's arm and led her out until I saw a man hovering over me. It was Namjoon. He grabbed my wrist again and said "I think we need to talk now. You won't harm yourself again."

Ting. The next chapter will come soon. Stay tuned.