We went to SM building and I found a really excited Krystal waiting there for me . 
“ Hey bae ... what’s the news? “ 
“ Hey Jim ... you were with Jennie? “ 
“ Yeah we had breakfast a while ago why ? “ 
“ nothing “ but I sensed a cold glare from Krystal towards Jennie 
“ So tell me why were you all excited? “ 
“ oh ... it’s just that your songs are ready except the ones with Tiffany and Jessica . 
and you’re album is just soooo dope . “ she said happily and hugged me 
after that my manager came and greeted us 
“ So Tom get ready for a really hard day , today you’ll be recording your tracks with Jessica and Tiffany and also you need to practice the choreo for your song with black pink and tomorrow will be another practice along with the choreography for your other main track and after finishing with all the practice by the end of the week first you need to shoot the mv with blackpink and then your own title track . “ he said and showed me my schedule. wow it’s gonna be one hell of a week . 
“ Hey everyone “ Tiffany and Jessica came in 
“ oh hey “ I said 
 “ so come with me and Miss kim please join your group mates in the other room I’ll be there shortly “ my manager said
we went to the recording room first it was my track with Tiffany which was kinda upbeat and I had a really fast rap in it 
and after that was my song with Jessica which was more slow but had A LOT of high notes . 
after finishing up in the recording studio my manager told me to change into my training clothes and head to the dancing area . I saw blackpink there ,they were already warming up. “ hey girls “ I said . after warming up my choreographer and blackpink’s came . 
they told us what to do and the dancers did the choreography for us to see ... well I’m a bit uncomfortable because in the part where I sing with rose we have to get too close and then we have a lift , actually I get close to the other girls too but with rose I think it’s too much ...but anyways we started practicing and you won’t believe how fast lisa got all the things right I thought that i’m good at dancing but damn she was born with it I guess . we got to me and rose and we started our practice... and to describe it we need only one word ‘Awkward ‘ actually awkward af . our lips nearly touch thanks to how close we should get and I saw her face getting red which was weird . the day went on and by the end of it which was really late in the night we were able to do it perfectly 
“ ok guys we take the dance practice video and then we discuss the video “ my manager said . I guess we’re not going home tonight 
we did the choreo once more but the problem is that this time I pulled rose a bit too close which led her lips on mine , memories came back in my mind right away 

FLASHBACK 
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“  Jimmy can I open my eyes yet ? “ Rose pouted  
“ just a little longer rosie “ I said as I was leading her to the surprise place I wanted to show her 
“ ok on the count of three open your eyes .. 1..2...and 3 “ I said and she opened her eyes 
“ wow jimmy.... it’s... just so nice ... “ she said mesmerized by the view 
“ yeah I discovered this spot when I was younger and needed a place to find peace ... there’s a dope view on town plus you can see the sunset clearly “ I said as I got closer and held her hand
“ why are you so perfect and romantic ... I mean look at all this picnic stuff ... i’m pretty sure you prepared all of them yourself “ 
“ well for my rosie i’ll do anything I can “ 
and suddenly she kissed me and butterflies started to fly in my stomach... just this feeling of being so happy only she can give it to me ... 
after some minute we parted 
“ you know this place was memorable for me but somehow now it’s even more memorable than before... I shared my first kiss with my first and only love here ... I love you rosie “ I said 
“ I love you too jimmy “ and with that she kissed me again 

END OF FLASHBACK 
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Rose putted her hands on my shoulder and without breaking the kiss , she circled her legs on my hips ... oh ! our spin we’re shooting the dance practice video ... as she did that I started to spin and after that she had to break the kiss because of our lift ... we did the lift successfully and everything went on smoothly
after finishing , our choreographers and managers rushed into the studio 
“ Tom , Rose ... Explain “ my manager said 
“ well I kinda get their point ... kissing matches the concept of the song along with the choreography “ YG’s choreographer said 
“ I agree too “ our choreographer said
what the hell are they saying? shouldn’t we start over with the video ? 
“ nice work you two it’s really great now that I think about it “ my manager said 
“ ok everyone take a break and then we’re gonna discuss the mv “ blackpink’s manager said and then they left  
“ what just happened. ?” I asked in confusion 
“ oh poor you .. everything went too fast huh ? 
you kissed rosie she kissed you back ... now you have to do it in any other show we have “ Lisa said and smirked 
“ What?!!!! “ me and rosie said together 
“ see ...perfect match “ Jisoo said and high-fived lisa 
after that the room fell in silent ... we went and changed our clothes then went to a room and sat on the chairs along with our managers and some people who were the mv crew you know the director and the others
“ hello everyone I know you are all tired so I’ll just tell you a short review and we can start practicing and shooting tomorrow “ the director said . he explained us the theme and then said that the music video will be in 5 different areas with five different themes and in each of them i’m with one of the girls and in one i’m alone in which guess who will join me at  last ... yeah rose :| great huh ? and the worst thing is I can’t say anything about it , I don’t want to be a nagger ... first impression is important. after the meeting was over I just fell asleep on the couch due to how tired I was . 

Next Morning Blackpink’s dorm 
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I opened my eyes and was greeted with an unfamiliar view 
it wasn’t definitely my ceiling and I’m quite sure that it’s not SM 
“ you were dead sleep and you wake up this early ? ... I guess you have sleeping issues ... come to think of it you had them but they weren’t something that’ll usually come to you it was once in a blue moon “ Rose said 
she was seating on the couch opposite to me 
“ oh yeah ? ... guess what , I couldn’t sleep properly for almost a year ... and it was all your fault “ I told her with anger and hurtfulness in my voice
“ my fault ? “ she asked 
“ never mind” 
“ no tell me “ 
I. sighed  “ I guess I have nothing to lose so ... after reading your letter I ... was hurt beyond imagination and I didn’t spoke to anyone for months I couldn’t sleep at nights and when I could,  nightmares would come to me . it was that I was so attached to you that I couldn’t believe what was on that letter “ 
“ oh no ... Jimmy I think you need to know something “ 
“ I think I know enough already “ 
“ no ... listen ... please “ 
“ please rosé don’t make it harder “ 
“ no I promise I won’t but just listen to me ... the letter it wasn’t my words ... at some point I hoped that you would understand since it wasn’t my handwriting but I guess it wasn’t like that “ 
“ what are you saying !!?” 
“ look Jimmy I know it’s hard to believe but it was all my father’s act he didn’t even let me call you and....” 
“ I don’t wanna hear it “ I said in a very low tone 
“ but Jimmy , please listen I would never leave you like that I never wanted to ..  “ 
“ I SAID I DONT WANNA HEAR IT GOD DAMMIT “ I shouted at the top of my lungs and stood up and ran away from the house 
tears started to run down my face and I couldn’t think straight anymore . after a long run  I reached a park , I went in and sat down on a bench  . I sat there and cried , My father always told me a man should not cry because he will appear weak but right now I don’t care I feel like the weakest person alive . all this time I hated rose for what ? for something her father did . all those times I ruined my life being hurt and sad for no reason but then again why didn’t she called after she went to YG? didn’t she know how much it could help me?  
after some hours of sitting there all by myself I felt a hand on my shoulder , I turned back and saw Krystal . 
“ Kr-Krystal? “ I asked in surprise 
“ Hey , umm... Jennie called and told me what happened.. I’m sorry... c-can I seat here ? “ 
she asked , I nodded
“ look Jim before you say anything I want you to know that even though everything turned out this way , but don’t let it get to you once more ... you hated her for a long time because of something she didn’t had any say in it but you never did any harm to her so don’t blame yourself for it ... let’s try and talk to her once more when you’re in a better condition ok ? “ 
“ look .. Krystal I don’t know why I am being sad all over again but ... there is one thing if I had faith in her , if I tried and actually tried to get to her maybe everything would be much better “ 
“ don’t blame yourself for what happened in the past ... and how would you know if she was telling the truth in her letter or not “ 
“ it wasn’t her handwriting it was too obvious... I was so blind “ 
“ no don’t say that ... they are father and daughter it is natural to have similar handwritings . “ 
“ but then again ...” 
“ no , listen to me ... look jim , I know how hard it can be for you but never forget that you have a lot of people who are caring for you now and they would be sad to see you like this ... my heart breaks every time I see your sad eyes ... please don’t be like this let’s just go get some ice cream and head to SM , it’s a big day , you’re shooting your first mv remember? “ she said and held my hand 
“ yes you’re right ... I have to be strong, let’s go” I said and we got up hand in hand
“ oh by the way Bae “ I said
“ what?” 
“ the ice cream’s on you “ I said 
“ [sigh] ok ok “ she said and rolled her eyes playfully 
we each got our favorite ice cream flavors and walked to Jessica’s car ... Wait Jessica ? 
“ Unnie , thanks for coming to get us “ Krystal waved and ran towards her sister’s car happily 
“ hey Jessica “ I said and sat in the backseat 
“ TJ .. everything ok with you ? you made us worried to death ... care to explain ? “ uh-oh does anyone else here sensing hellsica or is it just me ? 
“ I-I ... I was.. umm “ Oh i’m so done 
“ you what ? huh ? first you spend the night somewhere else and you don’t even bother to text anyone about that and then you disappear and we need to hear it from Jennie that you ran off to who knows where and make everyone search for you , good thing Krystal found you .. you know you’re still young ? you’re 19 for gods sake that makes you a teen ... what if they robbed you ? huh ? what if ...” hellsica it is 
“ Unnie .. calm down “ Krystal tried to calm her down 
“ Look Jessica i’m sorry ok ? I really am .. I just couldn’t think well ... “ I said  
“ Never do that again .... I was dead worried “ 
“ geez... are you my mom or something? “ 
“ WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT