"Jinja? YA! stop it"
"Han-nie pabo!!"
Jihoon watched as Jeonghan and Seungcheol bicker loudly about something ‘he-don’t-really-need-to-know’ at the sofa while sitting beside each other.
It is one rainy Saturday afternoon and they are at their dorm. Sunday is a rest day that was given to them from the busy schedule they have since they just made a comeback. They just finished recording for music core earlier. Their schedule is packed for the whole week so a rest day is so much appreciated.
Some of the members are asleep while the others decided to head outside. The only one that are in the salas are Mingyu, Seungkwan, Hoshi, Seokmin, the bickering couple at the sofa and of course, Jihoon.
Couple. Jihoon smiled bitterly to himself.
That's what other members call Seungcheol and Jeonghan; A Couple.
They say Seungcheol is the group's appa while Jeonghan is the Umma.
Huh!
Jihoon begs to disagree.
It's funny how rapid change is, He thought.
"Jihoon-nie~ jihoonnie!" Seungcheol snapped at him.
He realized, he had been staring at them for quite a while.
"Huh? " he asked startled by the sudden interruption of his thoughts.
"Do you want to go with us? BBQ party. Jeonghan's wallet. " he excitedly said grinning at Jeonghan.
Does he have to do that?
"Yah! Why do I always have to treat you? Be a man and buy me a food too" Jeonghan whined smacking Seungcheol. He looked at them and he thought his presence wouldn't be really necessary.
Jihoon smiles. Like he always does.
"Im okay hyung, I’m not really hungry. I want to sleep. " he lied.
Why would he choose to torture himself?
If he'll go with them he'll just witness the lovey dovey flirting of Seungcheol and Jeonghan.
He may be stupid but not to that extent.
"You sure? " Jeonghan asked nudging at Seungcheol.
He mentally rolled his eyes.
"Jihoon hyung must be really tired. We can just take out some food for him. " Mingyu gave him a reassuring smile. He smiled back.
Mingyu saved him.
He's always like that. Like keeping him from seeing the lovey dovey couple flirt and pushing him to Seungcheol whenever there is a chance.
He seems to know something but Jihoon was sure he did not tell anyone about his loads, Or was he?
"Yeah, I’m really tired. You can enjoy. I'll just sleep" he finally said without switching emotion he even faked a yawn.
He has mastered this.
Hiding all the pain through smiles.
Hiding his feelings.
Hiding from everything.
He's used to it but that doesn’t mean it did not hurt.
"I'll just buy you food. Rest well okay? " Seungcheol ordered and held Jeonghan by hand.
He bid them goodbye and he watched them go. He cursed under his breath.
Like he would wait for them. The hell he care!
They ruined his mood.
He went to their company minutes after they left and he went straight to the studio he treats as his. His nest.
The place where he can quit pretending.
He opened the drawer and sat by a chair.
He saw the picture he treasured in the middle of his black notebook together with the other CDs.
He has been keeping all of it since day one . He put it there in the drawer afraid for others to see.
It was a picture of him and Seungcheol when they were still training with nuest and when they were still called pledis boyz.
In the picture, they were really closed and you can see through their smiles that they were happy and they enjoyed what they had.
He smiled again his jaw hurts.
A yellow covered cd caught his attention.
J and S.
When J is not that far from S.
When it was just J and S.
It was one of the playlists he made with Seungcheol together with the songs they had composted.
When it was still just the two of them.
He stared at it for a minute and an idea popped his mind. He thought why not try to make another?
He was never good with words nor actions anyway
Why not make another playlist for the things he wanted to say?
Because if he keep it any longer he might just explode and that will just make things worse.
It's not like Seungcheol would see it anyway. Would he? Of course not.
He opened his computer and begun recording the songs that made into his list.
And from there, it all started.