[A/N: Take a peek inside Se Hun's mind.... ]

>>>SE HUN'S POV<<< 

It's been one week and four days since I left Seoul

Two days left, and I'll come back....

to tell my decision...

I haven't made a decision yet.

I haven't...

Because I'm too scared.

Yes or No. 

I tried to keep myself busy for the past few days,

and if you're wondering what I've been doing....

I was trying to have "fun".

I joined dance practices with EXO-M, tried singing their songs,

That gangsta Lu Han even forced me to try drinking... not bad..

I woke up with a hangover. 

And Tao... 

Well, he seemed harmless.

In fact, we talked, over some drinks...

"How is she?" He asked.

I shrugged.

"Tsk. Having problems with the wifey?" Tao asked again.

I shrugged.

"Se Hun, seriously? You're just gonna tell me that you don't know?" Tao said.

"If you don't take her seriously, I'm----" Tao tried to say, but I interrupted.

"It's just a fake marriage." I told him.

"I know, but what I'm saying is... she's something...." Tao admitted.

"Then steal her. If you can." I replied.

"Geez, You're forever stingy." He commented.

...................................

I DID everything to keep myself occupied in the day...

But when the stars start to twinkle in the midst of the cold winter night sky,

Something haunts me in my sleep, in my dreams... 

My decision... 

It's just a matter of Yes or No.

I tried to erase it from my mind.

>>> To my surprise, Lu Han has not bugged me about my "problem" yet. 

I've known that guy to be mischievous and really bothersome...

But I don't think that he wants to ask me about it again.

Usually, he's the first to find out.

Because I always always tell him about it.

But this time, I can't seem to put it into words...

I can't. .....

>>> I turned off all the lights in my room and lied on my bed.

I was in complete darkness.

Then I started playing EXO's song, "What is Love?"

The first six words of the song hit me so hard....

"Girl.  I.  Can't.   Explain.   What.  I.  Feel."

I closed my eyes....

Chorus... "I Lost My Mind......." 

..........

I fell asleep, hoping that the next day will bring me answers, not doubts.

Decisions. Decisions. Decisions. 

>> FAST FORWARD<<<

Ten more hours, and I'll come back.

I was done packing my stuff. 

..... Lu Han suddenly entered my room.

I haven't told him about my problem.

Yes, for the 2 weeks, 6 days, 10 hours, 53 minutes, and 45 seconds that I've been in China,

I haven't told Lu Han anything.

"So... you think you're just gonna leave without telling your problem?" Lu Han asked me.

I didn't know what to say.

"Uhhh..." I managed to say.

My best friend chuckled. 

What seems to be funny, Lu Han? I have a problem here, and yo