Nervous. Embarrassed. Fatigued. Renjun crawled out of the younger's arms, making sure to slip out of the covers silently. Even quieter than a mice, the red haired male tip toed out of the door and trailed down the stairs into the kitchen. He sighed when he got there, leaning on the cold counter top, throwing his head back in frustration and dishearten.

Deep thoughts started to haunt him, ever since last nights incident. He was lost, completely blind out. When he was wrapped around his lovers, it didn't felt like Chenle's arms. When the blonde snuggled on top of his head, it felt more like he choking him. Ambushing him in an unfortunate trap. Renjun wanted to run away, flee from the room and just never come back.

He slid his back on the side of the kitchen top, slowly flopping to the hard, bleak ground. Renjun's chest eased unfaithfully, hugging his knees as he wrapped his body into a tiny, lost ball. His shoulders couldn't stop quivering, while his jaw stuttered, afraid.

It was true. He told the other male to stop. But of course, Renjun being the timid person he is, didn't voice it out loud enough. Chenle looked like he was determined for him. For Renjun. Trying to level up their relationship more. It was going too fast for older male though. They were rushing things. On top of that, they are still minors. Renjun was afraid, of his friends, parents, on how they would react. He knows it wouldn't be positive or pleasing.

He was lucky, Mr Kim and Mr Lee weren't there yet.

Just as he was about to let out another groan, his phone buzzed. Renjun straight away took the message, pulling down the notification bar, to find Donghyuck's user.

Private Chat: Hyuckleberripie

Hyuckleberripie
Ik ur awake

LittleRedHeadHoody
Oh
No good morning?

Hyuckleberripie
C'mon 
Jaemin told me, ur an early bird
Chenle's li'l house wife eh ;)

LittleRedHeadHoody 
No eww
Plzzz
I don't work for him

Hyuckleberripie
Sounds like u do
I mean u r a clean freak
And Chenle isn't a tidy type so
Y'all suit each other so well
I bet u ditched our sleepover for him
Spending the last day with ur boyfriend ey ;)

LittleRedHeadHoody
STFU
I'm a better boyfriend than u
Wat happened to Mark?

Hyuckleberripie
His dad won like a luxurious hotel in Jeju so they're staying there for 3 days

LittleRedHeadHoody
I'm still a better boyfriend than u
Wat do u need?

Hyuckleberripie
Nothing really
But is Meilin always like that?

LittleRedHeadHoody 
Wdym?

Hyuckleberripie 
Like in the canteen, she was all loud and bold
But yesterday, she was so quiet and naggy
As if she has two personalities stuck in her
Maybe she's possessed

LittleRedHeadHoody
WTF HYUCK
Ofcrs she isn't
She's usually like that

Hyuckleberripie 
wELP SHE REALLY IS POSSESSED THEN
HOLY SHTTTTT

LittleRedHeadHoody 
Um no
Sometimes she does change her attitude a bit

Hyuckleberripie
But isn't it weird
She was with us in both times
But she was different 
Doesn't that sound fishy?

LittleRedHeadHoody 
Idk
She's usually loud in class with me
Maybe she got quieter bcs we were out...

Hyuckleberripie
I mean something could be bothering her

LittleRedHeadHoody 
Y don't u ask her urself

Hyuckleberripie 
mE HYUCK BEING CONCERN OF OTHERSHHAHHHAHHAHAHHAAAAH
hell nah, that's weird

LittleRedHeadHoody
...... 
ur like the mother between us...
I mean it's normal for friends right

Hyuckleberripie 
Watevs

LittleRedHeadHoody
Hey
Can I tell u something

Hyuckleberripie 
Hmm wat is it?

LittleRedHeadHoody 
Actually, nvm

Hyuckleberripie 
If u say so
Gtg now, I can hear Jaemin screaming for help

LittleRedHeadHoody 
Wat u guys doing?

Hyuckleberripie
Making breakfasts
Or at least Jaemin is trying
gtg man

LittleRedHeadHoody 
Yeah cya

Hyuckleberripie 
Happy New Year btw
Tell Chenle that too

LittleRedHeadHoody 
Happy New year 2 u too
Greet Jaemin for me 
Cya

Everyone offline...

Renjun's stiff teeth chew the inside of his mouth, as he stood up, placing his phone on the counter. It was best for him not to tell people like Donghyuck and Jaemin about how uncomfortable he was because of last nights 'activity'. Especially the coal haired lad, he had just accepted Chenle as a friend. He didn't want Chenle's image for Jaemin to shatter out of the blue, just because of how Renjun couldn't speak up for rejection.

Thinking about how he ended the year with Chenle seemed so...unfortunate for him. He felt like he was just needed for Chenle's own guilty pleasure. He could be wrong, hopefully he was, but just thinking about it made him shudder head to toe. Renjun had never experienced any ual doings, or even thought of them really. And jumping right to those actions with Chenle just felt so wrong to him, he was scared.

His fingers gripped the side of the marble table, his hair drizzling his eyes while his head sunk mournfully into his shoulders. Swallowing a rough lump of his spit, his throat screeched silently as a sting of pain rush through his neck.

What if Chenle really does want him for his ual needs?

Oh c'mon. Stop jumping into things Renjun-

However, it was strange how he just changed in a blink of an eye. Renjun found it sweet, on how Chenle realised his own mistakes quickly in the past few weeks, but at the same time, people do take time to change and make the right decision. Was he too quick? Renjun couldn't be sure.

He placed a hand on his chest, letting himself bre