Silence awkward tension during breakfast. I sat there, fiddling with my thumb as I bit my lip, the awkward tension as Joohyuk and Sehun had a staring competition with arms crossed. I was sitting in the middle and each time they wanted a drink, they would squint their eyes at each other and I sigh internally. “So what do you guys want to eat?” I asked for the 5th time, telling Sehun about how good the pancakes was as Joohyuk would snap and make a mean comment that ended up with Sehun throwing sass back and they would end up arguing. I had enough and slammed my hand down, making both of them jump as they looked at me with a startled expression “This is it!” I said loudly “If both of you are just going to bicker like kids and expect me to eat breakfast, I don’t think we will be done by 12pm!” I took out a 10 dollar bill and left it on the table “You guys can use this money and pay for the drinks and continue bickering until whenever you are satisfied while I am leaving! Bye!” I hissed and walked out, when I knew I was out of sight, I grumbled and ruffled my hair.

Life is ing me up bad as my stomach growled and I pouted, I really wanted to eat the pancakes back there but those two made me angry and my appetite was lost. I felt a little bitter as I sigh and quickly grabbed sandwich and rushed back to the hospital. “Boy problems?” Leliah asked as I leaned against the counter, dazing off the 5th time as I sigh and nodded, pouting. “Tell me about it.” She said with a smirk as I sigh and looked straight at her “So… ok this is my friend’s problem… I just wanted to know… so my friend has two guys. A and B. She is together with B for a long time and A was someone whom she used to love and idk if she still loves him now but her heart wavered for him… A came back after a long time and he said he came back for her but she already has B… She doesn’t know what to do… A and B were even fighting over her instead of getting breakfast.” I sigh as I talked about a third party as leliah raised a brow before sighing and rubbing her belly that showed her 5 month bump. “well… Hanuel… I know you are conflicted between those two boys but you want to know what I think?” I nodded, before flushing “I am talking about my friend here!” I half whispered, half shouted but leliah didn’t care as she said “When I see you with Joohyuk, you give him affection, sure. But it isn’t 100%, it was like an affection of brother to you. You look at him with so much affection and adoration as a sister way. At first, I thought it was love but when I saw the other guy, your eyes sparkled more. You looked happier and you’re practically glowing. I mean, I haven’t seen you a lot around him, but your eyes speaks a million thoughts. Does your heart beat when you think about it?” I nodded unconsciously “Does your stomach still get butterflies each time you see him?” I nodded again “Does his touch send shivers up your hand?” I nodded and Leliah smiled before whacking me on the arm as I looked at her shock “What was that for?!” I whined as Leliah smiled “Congratulations Hanuel, you passed the test of liking A more than B! Good job! You passed with flying colours” my cheek pinked at that as Leliah smiled and looked up before her smile faded

“Oh look, there’s B coming this way. I better get back to work.” She gave me a shove and I was standing directly in front of Joohyuk with a bouquet of flowers in his hand as I looked at him, stunned. “Babe I’m sorry…” he said “I didn’t want S…” before he could continue, I cut him off “Joo. I’m sorry. Can we talk about this at home?” I didn’t want to cut him off but I just didn’t want to talk about what happened just now and he sigh before nodding and walked away, dejected and my heart fell. Once he was out of ear shot, Leliah spoke out “Well, did you just rejected your Boyfriend?” I sigh and slump against the counter that’s in front of her desk “I can’t do this anymore. Sehun keeps giving me mixed feelings and Joo keeps demanding that we talk and he’d get so upset and angry and crazy jealous that I get too tired to explain things to him.” I frowned as Leliah raised a brow “just what did Sehun say to him that you looked so lethargic after breakfast?” I gave her a small smile but it was so weak “The idiot said he came back for me and they kept sassing over one another instead of ordering.” I groan as I threw my hands up in the air “Joohyuk knows I’ll get gastric if I don’t eat and Sehun didn’t start anything.” I growled and put my heads in my hands as Leliah sigh “Honey…” I looked at her “I don’t know why you’re so conflicted. You’re not defending your boyfriend. Are you sure you love him?” I gave her a small smile.

I didn’t even know why I’m in the hospital, it was my last day of internship anyways and it’s a free half day to be honest and I went into Jennie’s ward and talked to her. It’s been so long so we were catching up. The Nurses let me stay late since it’s my last day of internship as Jennie talked about Sehun and about the places they went and saw. She was really happy until her cells started collapsing and she couldn’t really go anywhere without having the need to vomit and when her muscles starts to give way at times. When it was 11pm, I decided to go home. I didn’t want to face Joohyuk but I can’t always avoid him and I sigh as I decided to just walk the short cut to cut down 10 minutes of my walking time but it was a bad idea and my gut was kicking me so hard as uneasiness travelled down my spine. There was something that’s gonna happen but I am probably spooking myself out as I suddenly kicked on a bottle on the ground, it was a glass bottle of beer and I shriek before shushing myself, it was just a bottle and I was just shocked as I zipped my lips and continue walking. I didn’t know why, but I could hear footsteps on the gravel and I almost froze but walked faster and got out my phone, ready to speed dial Joohyuk but it was useless because my call kept hitting his voicemail so I called the next number I could find when the person grabbed me and I shriek as he turned me to face him, trapping me in his hands as I looked at my phone lying pathetically on the floor as I willed myself to look at the mysterious man.

The moonlight could show his face but because he was facing the wall, it was hard to see his face when he suddenly spoke “Hanuel. I miss you.” He reeked of beer and the hairs on my body stood up, the person was none other than Luhan “I don’t.” I hissed and looked at my phone but I can't tell if anyone has picked up my call so I am going to try my luck. “Luhan.” I said loudly “Please let me go.” Luhan started shaking his head violently “Hanuel. LISTEN TO