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Diary Entry - Eundeok Married Life (Baekhera)

Eun’s diary

Soondeok sure is a fast learner! She’s become a master of kissing now! Well, to be fair, I’ve improved too. Gosh! It took me hours to fall asleep last night, after having that hot kissing time with my wife. I don’t know how I’ve managed to hold it in, but I did – I guess the power of love in me is just too great, because no way could I myself have been able to contain my urge if it weren’t for that.

Now what really frightens me is how well my wife is doing – sometimes I doubt if she’s really that innocent girl who doesn’t know that making babies and making love is the same thing. I doubt it very much – it would seem she’s doing too well to be that innocent, yet every now and then she’ll prove herself to be one. Whatever the case, I have till our 2nd anniversary to heat things up – I don’t want that night to be too awkward, and I believe I’m making progress. I can now reach down to her sternum, I’d say that’s a great success. Sooner or later, I won’t have to tell her to take her top off, I suppose she’ll do so herself! Ha! But with success comes suffering – suffering for me at least. These days, my body reacts more often than it should, morning’s the worse. Let’s just hope I can hold it in.

I’ll be training with Soondeok today, again, arrows in the morning, reading in the afternoon. Heck, I know I should toughen myself up, but I just can’t do it! My lungs almost burst last time when I ran 50 lapse and my stomach hurts like hell after doing push ups. What made things worse is that Soondeok did all of these so easily! Why, oh why, must I endure this?

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(In the field, Soondeok teaching Eun how to shoot)

‘Oppa! Hold the arrow tight!’

‘I’m trying…’

‘You need to pull it all the way to your ear, Oppa! Come on! You can do it! Keep your arm up!’

(Eun shoots, the arrow flies out weakly)

‘Aish! It’s not working, Deok ah! Forget it! I give up! How can I make it? I can’t even get the arrow to the board!’

(Eun whines as he sits on the floor, unwilling to move)

‘There’s got to be something wrong with the bow, Deok ah! It’s the bow’s fault!’

‘Really?’

(Soondeok grabs the bow and shoots. It hits the center.)

‘Aish!’

‘Oppa, there’s nothing wrong with the bow.’

‘Whatever! Look, you told me to try, and I did what you told me to. I tried my best, and I can’t do it. There, case closed. Enough for today, let’s go back inside.’

(Eun stands up to walk away, Soondeok grabs him by the wrist and puts the bow in his hand)

‘Deok ah…Please just let me go~ Please?’

‘I’ll help you, Oppa.’

‘What?’

‘I can help you hit the target, I promise.’

‘Ayy, how could you? It’s not like you can do it with my hand…’

‘Your highness, all I’m asking is for you to trust me, to do it one more time. I promise I’ll let you go in if you can’t hit it.’

(Eun thought for a moment)

‘Boost my energy then.’

‘What?’

‘Deok ah, I’m tired, zero energy. Boost it for me. Here.’

(Eun points at his lips, Soondeok can’t help but chuckle)

‘Oppa…’

‘Just one.’

(Eun closes his eyes. Soondeok gives him a peck on the lips, Eun smiles in satisfaction.)

‘There, now Oppa, you have to do as I say. Here, hold this here…you grab the bow here. Now pull.’

(Eun pulls it back, struggling to keep the bow open. Soondeok stabilizes Eun’s hand with her left hand and pulls Eun’s other hand to his ear with her right)

‘Oppa, this is the feeling, you feel it?’

‘Yes, I feel it.’

‘Remember this feeling, Oppa, this is how you should pull the bow open. Now, you aim with your eye, look at nothing but the target, think of nothing but the target, get it?’

‘Uh…I think I got it…’

‘Now, breathe in deeply and when you release, breathe out at the same time. Got it?’

‘My arms are getting tired, Deok ah…’

‘Release it on the count of 3. 1, 2, 3!’

(Soondeok releases and the arrow hits the target, Eun screams with joy)

‘WA!!! Deok ah! You see that? It hit it!!! It’s got it!! I did it, Deok ah, I did it!!!’

‘Congratulations, Oppa! I told you you could do it!’

‘Oh, this is fun! Let me try it again!’

‘I won’t help you this time, see if you can grasp that feeling again.’

‘I sure will!’

(Eun shoots an arrow in excitement, it hits the board)

‘Darn it! I was so close! Deok ah, you see that?’

‘You’re learning fast, Oppa. At least now you can hit the board, you just need to work on your aiming. Aigoo, good boy~’

(Soondeok pats Eun on the head)

‘Thank you, teacher~ Thank you so much, Soondeok ah.’

‘You’re a great student yourself, that’s all. I just taught you the basics.’

‘Wa! This is awesome! I now see why you love it so much! Deok ah, give me another arrow, I won’t stop until I get one in!’

‘You…you sure?’

‘Of course I’m sure!’

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Soondeok’s diary

Eun’s now in his study reading, I hope he really will read it seriously – he’s been doing so well with shooting, I hope he can do well for literature as well. Am I being too much? You know what I think? I think, Eun is actually a fast learner and he can do many things well, if he’s taught correctly, if he has a good teacher. I suppose none of the teachers in the palace praised him much, because his brothers were so good at things. What he needs is my praise, I need to boost his confidence in himself, he’s capable of doing much more greater things. I’ll help him realise it, I’ll help him. So that he can be a good father his kids can look up to, a good model his kids can follow. I’ll go in later to check on him and see if he’s really been reading or he’s been wasting his time daydreaming.

Father’s back, so I’ve heard, I suppose I should pay him a visit tonight.

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‘Oh, Deok ah! You’re here!’

‘Oppa! What are you doing? I thought you’ll be reading! What were you doing here on the floor? And…what are these?’

‘I…Deok ah, I was bored so…I made animals with these pages, see this? Doesn’t it look like a rabbit? And this! This one, what do you think it is?’

‘Oppa…’

‘It’s an elephant! Looks the same, doesn’t it?’

‘OPPA!!!!’

‘W-what? You scared me, Deok ah.’

‘Oppa! I told you to read for one hour and what have you been doing? Did you just tear these pages out from a book?’

‘Read…I did read, Deok ah…really, I did…’

‘Oh really?’

‘Of…of course I did, Deok ah…I’ve read books, of course I did! The classical books, I’ve read them!’

(Soondeok grabs Eun by the wrist)

‘Come with me.’

(Soondeok brings Eun to the table and have him sit down, she drops a book in front of him)

‘Mencius? Are you now testing your husband?’

(Soondeok remains silent)

‘I’ve read everything! I bet my wrist on it!’

(Soondeok pins Eun’s right arm on the desk then draws a line across his wrist)

‘This wrist is mine.’

(Eun gets annoyed)

‘Aish!’

(Soondeok asks Eun a question)

‘According to Mencius, what is the beginning of humane?’

‘Of what?’

‘Humane! What is the beginning of it?’

‘How am I supposed to know?’

(Soondeok sighs then recites)

The heart-mind of compassion is the beginning of () humane…’

‘Gosh…like how am I supposed to know this?’

‘Well, you will if you’ve read this book at all! This is like the basic of Mencius’ teaching!’

‘Rubbish…I just didn’t read this part, that’s all…test me on other things. I bet my right eye that I can get it right this time!’

‘Really?’

‘Really!’

(Soondeok draws a circle on Eun’s right eye)

‘This is mine if you get it wrong.’

‘Aish…next!’

‘Here’s another question. What message did Mencius want to convey when he talked about the 4 fingers?’

‘Fingers? What the hell are you talking about?’

(Soondeok sighs)

‘I suppose you don’t know this as well…right?’

‘Do you?’

(Soondeok recites)

Mencius said, “Consider a person whose fourth finger is crooked and will not straighten. It does not hurt or interfere with his work, but if he knew someone could fix it, he would surely travel as far as Chu to do that so he might be like other people. We know enough to be bothered when our finger is not right, but don't know enough to be bothered when our mind is not right. This is called ‘not knowing the comparative importance of things.’”’

‘What the heck? You memorized all this? How?’

‘Oppa…’

‘I really did read this! I bet my nose on it!’

‘This question! The simplest question on Mencius’s teaching! Oh please get it right! Okay, here it is. What are the four heart-minds a person should have?’

‘Four what? I’ve never heard of it! Stop making questions up, Deok ah!’

(Soondeok facepalms)

‘Oppa! How can you not know? “The four heart-mind () includes compassion (惻隱), shame

(羞惡), deference (辭讓) and right-wrong (是非).”

‘How am I supposed to know this?’

‘I don’t want this to happen but I’m afraid your nose is mine as well.’

(Soondeok draws a circle on Eun’s nose)

‘Aish! I hate you Soondeok! You know I’m bad at memorizing things and all…’

‘Fine, I won’t test you on the book then, I’ll test you on Mencius himself.’

‘I bet my left eye on it I can get it right!!! Anything but stuff from the books!’

‘Oppa, you shouldn’t bet anything that easily, given that you’ve been losing for the past 3 rounds…’

‘I really can get it right this time! Try me!’

‘Here’s the question. What’s the relationship between Confucius and Mencius?’

‘That’s easy! Mencius is Confucius’ father!’

‘You sure that’s your answer?’

‘I’m sure!’

‘Sure?’

‘Sure!!!’

(Soondeok flicks Eun on his forehead)

‘Ouch! YA! Deok ah!’

‘Oppa! How can you get this wrong? Mencius is not Confucius’ father! Mencius is Confucius’ student, in a way…Gosh, Oppa!’

‘Who cares? It’s not like they’re alive now anyway. They’re both dead, why do we need to read their books? Why do we need to learn about them? Heck!’

‘Oppa, congratulations. You just lost your left eye to me.’

(Soondeok draws a circle around Eun’s left eye)

‘Aish! Take it! Just take everything! My arms, my legs, my throat, just take everything!’

(Soondeok puts Eun’s right hand on the table to draw a line on his wrist)

‘Next.’

‘You can’t have this! This is Haesoo’s!’

(Soondeok pauses, Eun realizes what he had said in anger, he knows he’s in trouble. Soondeok turns to look away, a sense of jealousy flooded inside her. Eun stands up, trying to make Soondeok feel better.)

‘D-don’t tell me…you’re not crying, right?’

(Suddenly Soondeok hears a dagger flying across the room, she pins Eun on the table to get out of the way – the dagger cuts off her hairband as it flies across the room, her hair falls down elegantly. Eun’s heart beats fast as he gazes up at his beautiful wife, the feeling of her hair brushing his face made his heart flatter. Soondeok stands up in annoyance after seeing his father.)

‘Daddy!’

(Soondeok’s father laughs)

‘Just as I thought, my daughter is still alive, huh? You’re really something, aren’t you?’

(Grand general looks at Eun in disgust)

‘Aigoo…look at you, you look like the crap someone has chewed and spat out…Why are you stuck on the table like that?’

‘Daddy! What would you do if the prince is shocked to death because of you?’

‘Ya, if he gets shocked like this, how will he be able to survive in this cruel world?’

(Eun sits back up, crying in pain)

‘Your highness, are you hurt? Want me to blow on it for you?’

‘Here…’

(Soondeok blows on Eun’s elbow, her father smiles as he sees this scene but then clears his throat in protest. Eun walks to his father-in-law with his head down, greeting him as he should.)

‘Father…sir, it’s been a long time.’

‘Yes, it has been quite a while. I see you’re still as weak as I remembered you to be.’

‘Father…you…you’re right, I do need to toughen up.’

‘Your highness, do you think so now?’

‘Yes sir, I do think so now. It’s just that I fear I am incapable of living up to your standard, sir…’

‘Worry not, my daughter will help you out.’

‘Yes sir, I’m sure she will, sir.’

(Awkward silence, Soondeok tries to lift the mood up)

‘Daddy, what say we have some tea?’

‘Oh, no thanks. Soondeok ah, I just stopped by to say hi, I didn’t plan for tea. You know me, tea’s really not my style.’

‘Oh but daddy! It’s been so long since we’ve chatted together! What about a ride then?’

‘Soondeok, dear, you can stop by some other time. A ride sounds good, but maybe next time. Keep having fun with your husband, Soondeok ah..’

‘Oh no, Sir…father-in-law, we weren’t doing anything…I mean…fun…I mean…’

(Grand general stares hard at Eun, Eun lowers his head again)

‘Your highness, looks like you and my daughter still have some business to take care of. I’ll leave you guys to it, bye.’

(Grand general waves as he walks out, not looking back. Eun sighs as he sees his father-in-law walks out of the library)

‘Gosh! He scared me man! That dagger! I thought my heart would stop just then…Deok ah, what say we-’

(Soondeok doesn’t say anything, she walks out ignoring Eun)

‘Soondeok ah! Wait up!’

(Soondeok goes to take a bath, she locks Eun out, Eun bangs on the door, hoping to get in)

‘Soondeok ah! Open up!! Ya! I’m sorry! I just…I didn’t mean to say it, you know…it just came out of my mouth, just like that…I was too angry, Deok ah. DEOK AH!!! PARK SOONDEOK!’

(Silence)

‘She’s not really that sad, is she? Oh man, I think she is…I’m in deep trouble now…’

(Eun tries to listen to what’s happening inside but hears nothing)

‘Soondeok ah! I won’t bother you for now, alright? I’ll be taking a bath as well, if you need anything, just yell, alright? Love? You hear me? Darling?’

(No reply. Eun decides to let Soondeok cools down first so he takes a bath in silence – constantly wondering what Soondeok’s doing on the other side of the wall. Finally, he hears her getting out of the bathtub. Eun hurries to get dressed and stands outside the door, waiting for Soondeok to come out.)

‘Deok ah!’

‘Gosh!!! Oppa! You scared me!’

‘Deok ah~ I’m sorry, I really am…just then, I really didn’t mean to say it, Deok ah. Please forgive me…’

(Soondeok sighs without looking at her husband and walks straight to their bedroom, Eun follows in quietly.)

‘You’re sleeping on the floor tonight, Your Highness.’

‘Deok ah…’

‘No kissing tonight.’

‘Deok ah…’

‘And no talking to me tonight. That’s all I have to say, Your Highness.’

‘S-Soondeok ah…I’m sorry…’

(Eun wants to give Soondeok a hug but Soondeok grabs his arm and twists it slightly, Eun cries in pain)

‘S-Soondeok ah!! Let go!!! Alright alright! I get it, you’re mad, I get it now! Ouch! Let go!!’

(Soondeok lets go and walks out of the room)

‘Ow…D…Deok ah, where are you going?’

‘The library! To read! Don’t you dare come in, Your Highness, or I really will flip you over!’

(Soondeok stomps out of the room, Eun only has himself to blame. He slaps his own mouth.)

‘Darn it! Why did I have to mention Haesoo back then? Stupid me! She’s probably very mad now since she won’t call me Oppa…oh what should I do? Eun ah, what have you done?’

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(Bedtime. Eun sleeps on floor, Soondeok sleeps on bed – silence.)

‘Soondeok ah…are you still mad now?’

(Silence, Eun talks to himself)

‘Oh dear me…what should I do to make my wife feel better? I truly am sorry for what I’ve said this afternoon, but my wife doesn’t seem to understand how sorry I am. Eun ah, what should I do?’

(Silence)

‘Eun ah…why is my wife acting like this? Is she still jealous of my first love? Does it hurt her so to make her think about it? Does it really matter if she’s not my first love?’

(Silence)

‘I love her very much, how will I be able to tell my wife that? Eun ah, does Soondeok know that all loves are like first loves to me? That all loves are just as sparkling, just as exciting? Will she know? I suppose not, since her first love, her only love is me. Oh, Eun ah, how will I be able to let her know how much I love her?’

(Soondeok sits up, Eun prays that it’s working)

‘Oh Eun ah, how should I tell her I love her so? What does it take for her to know that she means everything to me? Does she not know, she’s the reason I’m happy and alive now?’

(Eun holds Soondeok’s hands, Soondeok wants to shake him away but Eun holds tight)

‘Soondeok ah. Though I hate spring, I love the flowers. Though I hate summer, I love the breeze. Though I hate autumn, I love the golden leaves. Though I hate winter, I love the snow. Though I hate this world, I love you-’

(At this, Soondeok gets out of her bed and kisses Eun lightly on the lips. Eun smiles as he feels the woman he loves sitting on him.)

‘Oppa…Oppa…’

‘Oh? Deok ah, are you crying? Darling, why are you crying? Here here, don’t cry.’

(Soondeok buries her face on Eun’s chest, Eun pats her on the back in a comforting manner)

‘Oppa…do you really mean it? Those things you’ve said?’

‘Of course I do, Deok ah. You think I would make it up just to mend things? Certainly not! Deok ah, I really mean it, every single word I’ve said. So now, stop crying, Soondeok ah…It pains me to see you cry…’

(Soondeok gets in the blanket and sleeps next to Eun, hugging him)

‘Uh? Deok ah, what are you doing?’

‘I’m sleeping with you on the floor tonight.’

‘Soondeok ah, you’re not mad now, right?’

‘If I were, would I sleep with you now, hm?’

‘I suppose not. Oh my dear wife. I’ll grab your pillow for you.’

(Eun grabs her pillow and gives it to Soondeok. Both make themselves comfortable on the floor. Soondeok touches Eun’s hand)

‘Are you…alright? Your highness?’

(Eun clears his throat)

‘Kkkmmmm…What…what do you mean?’

‘You know…I did fall quite hard on you today…I’m sorry…You sure your hips are fine? Should we call the doctor?’

(Eun smiles and holds Soondeok’s hand tight)

‘My precious hips are fine! I’ve been taking good care of it, it’s not as weak as you think. Worry not.’

(Soondeok laughs as she remembers how much Eun complains every single time he had to do sit ups)

‘Take good care, you say? Yet you’ve never exercised! I bet you can’t even-’

(Eun suddenly flips Soondeok over and press down on top of her)

‘Are you now testing your husband?’

‘Your highness, what are you doing?’

(Eun whispers in Soondeok’s ears)

‘You’ve been looking down on your husband, haven’t you? Looks like you need a lesson, you naughty girl.’

(Soondeok touches Eun’s face gently and says teasingly)

‘I’d like to see you try, my dear husband.’

‘You’ll regret it, Deok ah. It won’t be as simple as the previous few nights.’

(Eun unties Soondeok’s top with skills and throws it far away, Soondeok’s familiar with this already.)

‘Oppa, you’re in a hurry today.’

‘You’re the reason I want to hurry, Deok ah.’

(Soondeok puts Eun’s hand on her , shocking Eun.)

‘D-Deok ah. W-Why are you doing this?’

‘I know you’ve been wanting to, your highness, I know you’ve been wishing for it. You said you’re in a hurry, well, I’ll let you tonight.’

‘You out of your mind? What…what makes you think I’ll…I’ll want it?’

‘Didn’t you say so before? All men are after…this…’

(Eun swallows hard in sweat and tries to snap out of it, he wants to have progress, he wants to take it a bit further, but not that fast)

‘I…I can’t, Deok ah. Not now. I’ll just kiss you tonight...no touching your…’

(Soondeok has Eun’s hand cupping her even harder, Eun tries to remove it but Soondeok keeps it there)

‘S-Soondeok ah, I…’

‘Oppa, I said you can, why are you resisting? Do you not love me? Do you not see me as a woman? As…your woman?’

(Eun brushes Soondeok’s hair aside and looks at her tenderly)

‘Soondeok ah, it’s not that I don’t love you…I do, but this is just too rushed…I don’t think you’re ready for it. I’m just afraid I might hurt you…or scare you, Deok ah.’

(Soondeok senses his hesitation, which somehow made her feel good, knowing how much Eun cares how she feels. Determined, she flips Eun over and pins him down)

‘Oppa, you think too much sometimes. You think I wasn’t true to my words, that I really am fine with you touching me? Or is it that you yourself am not ready?’

‘Soondeok ah, I do believe in you, it’s just that-’

‘Fine, let me go first then.’

(Soondeok leans down and blows softly on Eun’s neck follow by her kisses)

‘You’re scaring me…Soondeok ah, where…where did you learn all these?’

‘Where did I learn it from? Hmm…more like, who taught me. Oppa, you taught me.’

‘I’ve never taught you that, Deok ah.’

‘You blew in my ear once, it sent me goosebumps but I loved it afterwards. Anyway, you taught me the basic things – kiss is the key, am I right?’

(Eun smiles as he touches Soondeok’s bare shoulder)

‘You’re on the right track, Soondeok ah. Do what you want – but I warn you, I might hurt you if you’re too good.’

‘How would you know if I’m too good, Oppa?’

‘Depends on how I feel~’

‘Then feel this, Oppa.’

(Soondeok lets her hair fall on one side and purposely brushing her hair upon Eun’s face as she lowers herself to kiss him. Soondeok doesn’t kiss him on the lips from the start, she slowly tortures him by kissing him on the forehead first, then his cheeks, his nose, his chin, but intentionally dodging the lips. Eun’s hands slides down her neck to her back as she’s busy.)

‘Soondeok ah, you’re mean, you’re pure evil.’

‘Am I? You wouldn’t give me what I want, why should I give you what you want, hm?’

‘Do you want me to touch you so badly? Well, why do you always dodge me during the day?’

‘I suppose it’s okay during night time. But you’re right, if you do this to me in the morning, I’ll probably break your bones.’

‘Well, I’m glad winter’s coming soon.’

‘Why?’

‘The nights are longer then.’

‘Aigoo…Oppa, you’re trying to distract me, aren’t you? You really gabble too much these days.’

‘Make me stop then, Deok ah. Stop me from talking.’

(Soondeok finally kisses Eun on the lips as her hands skilfully takes his top off and throws it away. Eun’s breathing hastens and deepens as he feels Soondeok’s hands running gently down his chest to his abdomen. He runs his hands up and down Soondeok’s arms and shoulder, appreciating every single inch of her skin.)

‘Soondeok ah, I’ll have no choice but to fail you if this is all you’ll do.’

‘Is this not enough?’

‘Not even close.’

‘I thought you’re enjoying yourself now…I thought I was pretty good...’

‘Nope.’

‘Liar~’

‘Prove me wrong then.’

(Eun teases Soondeok, Soondeok smirks as she replies)

‘Oppa, why the rush? I haven’t even started yet. You’ll be sorry, really sorry.’

‘I’ll be sorry? Oh my dear wife, do make me feel sorry.’

(Without warning, Soondeok kisses Eun’s left gently, causing a shiver to run down Eun’s spine instantly. Eun moaned between his teeth.)

‘Oooooohhh~ Deok ah~’

‘Oppa, like it?’

‘You’re naughty, so very very naughty.’

‘I just did what you wanted me to do last night. I wasn’t ready at that time, now I am. Thank me.’

‘Or what?’

‘Or I’ll call it a day.’

‘Oh, my dear wife, you’re threatening me now, are you?’

‘Just testing to see how much you loved it.’

(Eun puts Soondeok’s hand on his chest)

‘More. Give me all you’ve got, Soondeok ah.’

(Soondeok lowers her head to kiss Eun’s left over and over again while her other hand is busy with his other one. Eun slides his hands along Soondeok’s side.)

‘ it, Deok ah.’

‘Oppa, I will, just a moment more. What’s the hurry?’

‘Gosh, you love tormenting me, don’t you?’

‘Oh yes, Oppa, you sound y as I’m doing it. The way you pant, the way you’re grunting under your breath. Now, Oppa, please stop interrupting me, you really talk too much sometimes, I hate it. I’ll have to punish you for that.’

(Soondeok moves across Eun’s chest to attend the need of his right , it bit by bit – gently at first)

‘Oh man~ Gosh~ You’re dead, Deok ah…just wait till it’s my turn, you’re dead…’

‘Kill me now, Oppa. I don’t want to wait anymore.’

‘Seriously, Soondeok ah, are you really the Soondeok I know?’

‘What made you ask that?’

‘The Soondeok I know…is shy and…’

(Soondeok whispers in Eun’s ears softly)

‘Tell me more, what am I supposed to be Oppa, hm?’

(Eun can’t take it anymore, he flips Soondeok over and kisses her lips vigorously, unleashing his want)

‘Oppa, stop kissing, I want your hands to get busy.’

‘Should I get busy now?’

‘Oppa, don’t be lazy, I hate lazy people, you know that.’

(Eun smiles then starts kissing below her collarbones, slowly making his way down.)

‘Deok ah, if I say I want to make you mine tonight, what’d you say?’

‘What does that mean?’

‘It means…say…even if it means taking off your clothes…everything, will you like it? I know it’s supposed to be…on our 2nd anniversary, but, seeing how anxious you are…’

(Silence)

‘You don’t have to agree, Deok ah. I’m just asking.’

(Soondeok wraps her arms around Eun’s neck and hooks both her legs on his hip, pulling him down towards her)

‘Oppa, I don’t think we’re doing anything different to that now. Go ahead if you want.’

(Eun brushes’ Soondeok’s nose with his)

‘It’ll hurt, my love.’

‘Love hurts.’

‘I’ll be gentle, I promise.’

‘You don’t need to promise honey, you are gentle.’

(Eun embraces Soondeok and laughs nervously)

‘It’s my first time too, Deok ah…I’m nervous. I’ve been waiting for this day for so long, you know that?’

(Eun slowly unties Soondeok’s skirt, Soondeok starts to breathe deeper. Suddenly, Eun lets out a laugh.)

‘Oppa, what’s so funny?’

‘I’m just too happy, that’s all. Hahahaha, it’s nothing really. I…I just thought of something. You know what will make things super funny and awkward now?’

(Soondeok pinches Eun’s nose softly)

‘Tell me, Oppa, I want to know. What will? Oh wait, let me guess. One of us farts? Or one of us burps.’

‘Ha! No, Deok ah, thought if these things happen, it’ll sure be funny, but that’s not what I had in mind. Soondoek ah, it’ll be so awkward if I heat things up now but then finds out you’re having your period just before I make my move, that’d be really hilarious!!!!’

(Eun laughs by himself, Soondeok freezes on spot)

‘Deok ah, what’s wrong?’

‘I…Oppa…I…’

(Eun gets serious)

‘S-Soondeok ah, don’t tell me…’

‘Oppa, I am having my period now…’

(Silence)

‘You…you sure?’

‘Of course I’m sure! What kind of question is that?’

‘What…what day?’

‘Day one… Oppa, can’t we carry on? Is it something we can’t do if I’m having my period? Oppa, why aren’t you answering?’

(Eun buries his head in the pillow, screaming in frustration. Soondeok pats him on the back, worried)

‘Oppa, you alright? I’m sorry…what’s wrong?’

‘I should’ve just stuck to the plan…’

‘Oppa, you alright?’

(Eun sighs deeply, never before has he been so frustrated. Eventually, he embraces Soondeok)

‘Deok ah, I love you.’

‘Oppa…’

‘Let’s sleep, it’s getting late.’

‘What about…what about that? You said you wanted me to…’

‘That’s not important now. Soondeok ah, come to think of it, now probably won’t be the best time. I’m sorry I’m rushing things, I’m sorry darling.’

‘Is it my fault? Did I do something wrong?’

(Eun touches Soondeok’s face)

‘No, Deok ah, it’s not your fault, you did nothing wrong, understand? Don’t make yourself think that way. Now, my angel, you need to sleep, alright?’

‘Alright, I understand…Goodnight, Oppa. I love you.’

(Eun kisses Soondeok on her forehead)

‘I love you too, Soondeok ah.’

(Silence, suddenly Eun thinks of a question and sits up)

‘Deok ah!’

(Not knowing what’s going on, Soondeok sits up, alarmed as well)

‘W-what is it, Oppa?’

‘Soondeok ah…on our 2nd anniversary…per chance…will you have your period as well?’

‘Why are you asking, Oppa?’

‘Do you know? Oh please oh please oh please…’

‘I…today’s my first day…Give me a moment, I need to count the days…’

(Eun holds his breath as he waits for the answer)

‘No, I don’t think so. I don’t think I’ll be having it then, why?’

(Eun sighs in relief)

‘Oh thank goodness! Thank goodness! Yes!’

‘Why? Oh right… bath…Are you that happy, Oppa?’

‘Oh yes, Deok ah, I’m happy indeed. Phew! Soondeok ah, let’s sleep, all’s well now, I can sleep with a smile on my face. Good night.’

‘Good night, Oppa.’

‘Aigoo, Soondeok ah, these past couple of nights must’ve been scary for you.’

‘A bit, but that’s all part of the experience isn’t it? Like an adventure, what’s an adventure without uncertainties and fear?’

‘Soondeok ah, what say we go on an adventure ourselves later on, hm?’

‘Oh, that’d be lovely, Oppa!’

‘Don’t get too excited, Deok ah, or you’ll have trouble sleeping.’

‘I don’t think I can sleep, Oppa…’

‘Want me sing a song for you?’

‘A lullaby?’

‘Yeah, you’d like that?’

‘I’d love to hear it.’

(Eun sings a lullaby, putting Soondeok to sleep but he couldn’t himself so he then walks to the window and opens it, looking up praying to the moon.)

‘Ahh…full moon tonight. Moon, O Moon, please make sure Soondeok will sleep well tonight. And please help me sleep, so I can meet her in my dream.’

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SPEEEDYGONZALES #1
Chapter 131: Thank us for reading? Thank YOU for creating a story as consistent and well-fitting for the characters Baekhera were able to portray. You write so well and stay true to their personality from the start to the end, I enjoyed reading this book so much. Tbh, The chapter count surprised me and I didn’t think I’d be able to finish it because I was only looking for a small fanfic to satisfy my Baekhera fantasies yet you accomplished that and more! Your story was captivating and well paced, I finished the book in three days! I don’t think many got to fully appreciate I you so on behalf of us shippers, I thank you! ;)
KimN97 #2
Chapter 131: Beautiful story. For so long I looked for a story to read for this couple. You gave them the story and ending they deserved 🥰 can’t wait for the sequel
KeemNoona #3
❤️❤️❤️
ezakimsoo #4
I cant believe this ended already
ezakimsoo #5
I cant believe this ended already
Turellia_Del_Rynn #6
Chapter 131: Thank you so much to have written this! I’ve been reading this fic for a month and I sure enjoyed every second of it ?!
SabrinaM
#7
Chapter 131: Thanks to you we, Baekhera shippers, got to spend an amazing time while reading your fiction!
Thanks to you again, a lot ?
PS: WE NEED AN EPILOGUE WITH SOME BABIES!!!!
KimFaSooBaek
#8
Chapter 131: THANK YOU SO MUCHHHHHHHHHH
ezakimsoo #9
Chapter 131: Wheres the baby?? I need spin off?
pandaxonce
1241 streak #10
Chapter 131: Thank you so much for this ^^