== TEASER ==

I am just a mere student of junior high school who wants to fall in love for the first time back then. Yes, first love. But I guess, I choose the wrong person to be my first love. I never thought that I really choose the wrong person until I realized that that person even never shows that that person would love me back. Although that person knows that I love that person, but that person never shows that that person is care about that. You’ll never know how it feels when you broken heart already when you just falling in love for the first time. Because of my fault back then, because I’ve fallen for wrong person back then, I don’t know how to falling in love again now. It’s like I’m tired already of loving and waiting for someone that even doesn’t care about me, about my feeling.

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            “What? Are you kidding me?”

            “I know that I hurt you and put you in a great of pain back then, but won’t you give me a chance to repay my sins to you?

            “Don’t you what I’ve been through just to forget and erase everything about you? How could you just come to me like this and ask me to forgive you? Do you think that I am that easy? Do you think my heart made by stone so that you just come to me again now so that you can hurt me again like 15 years ago?”

            “Sorry, I---“

            “Do you think just because you said ‘sorry’ everything would be like nothing happened?”

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There’s a saying that you can only know how broken heart feels unless you feel it yourself. I never know that I broke someone’s heart. I never thought that I would have that kind of karma because now I know how broken heart feels. Because now I know that I made biggest fault in my life for broking the heart of innocent adolescence who fall in love for the first time. Now, although I tried to take everything back, although I tried to win that person’s heart, that person hates me already. Because of my unforgivable sins towards that person that I made back then, I know that I am ridiculous. I know that I am just stupid person who tried to win the heart of the person that I put that person in a deep of pain. I should’ve understands if that person doesn’t even want to see me again in this lifetime.

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