I’m in love with Kim Myungsoo…

                Wow,

That came out like a normal thing. It’s like myself already knows about it even before I could realized it. It didn’t even came out as a question or like a shocking truth, just a natural sudden thought that finally occurred to me.

                My heart was beating normally and the butterflies seemed to have finally calmed down as if they are trying to tell me that all this time they’ve known about it.

                I’m in love with Kim Myungsoo,

                It’s like a statement where the words are all familiar but then when I put it together I somehow couldn’t understand its entirety but at the same time it’s like the missing puzzle piece that I have been looking for.

                It’s funny how it took me this far to know this feelings and that it took Sungjae and a burning shack to make me notice everything.

When I was tied up in that old run down place, and right before I lost my consciousness I know I was scared as hell but I kept my calm and tried to think of happy things. I didn’t expect that my brain would play out Myungsoo’s stupid and annoying jokes to stop me from trembling.

                 I never knew that his irritating hugs can make my fears go away.

                I was trying to find peace among the chaos of my emotions and his smile was enough to calm me down.

                 Back then I was so confused about what I feel, I keep telling myself that it’s normal that I kept looking for him, I kept thinking about him, and would feel uneasy if he’s not around and uneasy when he’s too close. The butterflies, the stupid heartbeats, and my irrational thinking … it all make sense. 

                Who would have thought that, the me who tried to stay away from trouble would end up in one such big blunder?

                When I was a kid I thought I’m also gonna follow the adults around me. Be cool, get a job and find someone to marry, probably have kids someday. Thinking love is just a simple thing and didn’t really give much thought about it thinking I will find someone someday.

                Looks like I did, but I never thought it would be

                Someone who’s already in love with someone else.

                *laughs

                Telling Sungjae to properly confess his feelings to the one he likes and here I am, sitting on a chair laughing on how I will probably eat my words.

                Da*g it, this is really hilarious. I’m in love with someone who’s already in love with someone else and that someone he likes already likes someone else.

                I must be a Da*n genius that my brain was able to process all that and still came up with two plausible solutions.

                Tell him and end everything.

                Or

                Don’t tell him, stay as a friend, and then end everything.

                Simple solution... If only my heart was bright enough not to hope for some sort of miracle to happen.

                ‘Cause right now, what he needs is a friend nothing more nothing less.

                At least now, I know where I stand.

                I hope he finds his happiness soon before I gave in and ruin everything.

                All I have to do is just to make sure everything’s just the same as before and he won’t noticed.

End of POV

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now that Sungjong knows what those feelings are, what will he do next? 

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Hi guys!  it's been awhile and this chapter is probably the shortest among all of the chapters but because it has a definite reason. trhoughout the story we've been exposed to Sungjong's side of the story, don't you think it's time for others to show their side too? ^_^

For those who have been waiting for the missing part of the of the story please enjoy the next chapter.... *very wide grin