It is way past midnight. And here I am on my bed, crawled up into a ball and thinking. I am thinking about all sorts questions and scenarios. Placing myself in different  situations in which I might never be in. I wanna ask the sun how it feels to be on top of the world all the time? Why the sun is so bright and hot compared to the stars about which my friend texted earlier? Wondering if the sun would come a little bit closer than it is right now. I can even  imagine myself flying around the sun all by myself.

Lately I have been obsessed about the sun. I could proudly say that I haven't skipped a single sun rise and sun set in the past two years. I know I am wierd. Majority of the girls in my college are in a relationship. Some are even engaged. And here I am fallen deeply and sickly in love with the sun.

I have no regrets what so ever. I for a fact know that my feelings for the sun are on an another level. It even surprises me how easily I get mesmerized and taken back when ever I hear or see a picture of my long time crush. I simply adore my love. I know that this love is almost impossible or I might never get noticed.

But taeyang, my sun. You are the brightest of them all. Your voice lightened me up  when I was going through the darkest times of my life. Looking at your eye smile as the first thing in the morning gives me the strength to get up. Seeing your face every night before going to bed ensures me that I won't be seeing any nightmares.

Taeyang, even if it was unknowingly you were there for me when I needed someone the most. The day when I listened to a song by you for the very first time was the day a whole new person was born inside of me. Your music played with the strings of my heart and whispered to me that I should love myself. Your songs inspired me to run as if I would sprain my ankle. To fight my problems and to become self dependant. Your eye smile pushed me to smile all the time and leave what's bothering me some where far away.

Indeed there are many idols out there. But Sol, you are one true artist. To hell with that, you are a full package. It truly would be a dream come true to see you at least   once in this life time. I will forever be grateful that you were born. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love you very much my sun. Please continue to radiate energy to me and rest of your fans.