In The Backyard [600 subs special]

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"Haeju, how are you?" was the question that Hannah never forgot to ask me. She liked to ask me that. Always! I wonder if she really cared or just being nice. I met her when I was with Tzuyu at the corridor of the headquarter. She was so nice and friendly. I think Tzuyu liked her as much as I did. Gladfully. Ah, I just realized how odd it was for both of them to meet each other. Hannah was the Tzuyu of my life, vice versa. The one who could listen to my sad stories. Hannah was a little bit cheerful, she loved to laugh at anything. Tzuyu liked to smile, especially to people that she thought were harmless. I remembered that Tzuyu tried to find a seat so, probably, because Hannah was so small for her. It never crossed my mind that Hannah might feel uncomfortable to talk with us who were much taller than her. Hannah was obviously nice, but I was happy to see the proof of how thoughtful Tzuyu was.

"What are you up to these days?" Hannah asked again.
Tzuyu liked to read some books these days, inspired by her bestie Chaeyoung and her "favorite" unnie, Nayeon. Seeing people who could manage to read thick books always amazed me. Apparently, Hannah also had a book that she liked to read these days. It was about a diet for people with B blood type. For your info, Hannah was kinda obsessed with such things like personality categorization. That was her passion, so cute.
I told Hannah that, besides my routine, I liked to write poems and stories these days. So did Tzuyu to practice her English. That day, we exchanged each other's work. I was so happy to do that. I said we might be able to make a reading club one day as a joke. They were so excited to hear that.

***

Reflection
by Twice's Tzuyu 

The time has come
I've grown up
I'm starting to understand love
My heart's starting to want it

Someone just needs to knock it
Together we will cry and laugh
If you're not the one please shut up
If it's you don't just sit there like a dumb

I need the reflection of me
I need my story
I need my non-fictional fairy
I need my destiny

I'm looking for a little sun
I'm looking for a dangerous gun
I'm looking for my own demon
I'm looking for a 
reflection

Once I looked at the mirror
I knew I would never be ready
For such an amazing person like you, but
I want you to stop staring at the mirror

In this really bright day.....
This cruel world.....
This complex adventure.....
Just let me be your reflection

Let me be your reflection

 

In The Backyard
by Twice's Haeju

She sat at the other end of the bench.

Her hand was shaking. Her feet were tapping down the earth uncalmly. Her dry lips had been bitten several times. At a glance, I saw sweats were dropping on her forehead. The blow of the wind greeted her hair, the hair that wasn't as tidy as her attractive after-shower look. Those eyes that were looked away blinked several times, probably to tell me to stop guessing things. Sigh, everything was just my guess. There was only one thing that wasn't a guess: her face kept avoiding me. Yes. Her anxiety beat mine. 

We used to be much closer than this. We were the fire with its stove. The devil with its hell. God with Its servants. Purity with its idols. We were the one who made all species of angel agreed to blow the trumpet away. We were the one who encouraged the unowned cats to talk in human language. We were upstream for each other's downstream. We were the ticket for each other's plane.

There was a hand sliding down shyly. Promptly. The held hand got frozen along. I understood why she kept staring at the house's wall. There was a reason why both of us could only wait. There was a reason why all we did was sitting here in my backyard. There was a reason why our eyes were both holding the warm on our teary eyes. Because there was only one feeling that could explain all of these questions.

Because we were both afraid...

...of Love.

 

Diorama
by Hannah

calm water in the deep forest
dark and cold
too deep for me to dive in
I can't see through the surface
but I tried.

"never leave 
never be,"
I thought.

but the price is too much
and I only live once. at least,
in this place.

I know I have a second life
but that's different.
question marks everywhere.

It was a nice time
many days spent
and memories made
chocolate and candy,
you said.
ice cream and sweets
you said.
the strawberry jam bread,
but I didn't bring it.

that's skepticism
and line in the books.
hold on for too long,
I guess.

my name on my stuff.
It fades,
and songs in the crowd
I heard too often,
tie and vest,
black and white,
gaze.

it's you and your mind.
how glad people see you smile
and your theories.
and inspiring idealism.
and you because it's you.
chin up.
go for it.
your unspoken dreams.
that we will not just,
what people think we'll be.

you deserve. you always.
I pray for you.

***

I looked at them. As I discovered a hidden gem deep down on the ocean. "Should we make a collab one day?" I asked them. 
Hannah took that request excitingly. Tzuyu smiled. "We should," she said.

 

 

 

 

 



{a/n} That last poem was really created by "Hannah". This peaceful chapter is for you guys. Thank you for following this journey to this point. I'm so grateful to know all of you. Your supports mean A LOT for my life especially in my depression episodes *cough*. Thank you for 600 subs and 100+ chapters. We did it! ^-^

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YaniPiplup2005 #1
Chapter 167: I LOVE IT HAEJUUUUUU!!!!!!
K-Reader28 #2
Chapter 161: Please don’t tell me this is the actual ending. I’m in literal tears 😭 from this.
LittleMina2003
#3
Chapter 157: Author nim made me cry bc all of us ONCEs miss Mina so much :(
chaellax
14 streak #4
Chapter 156: Awh
dh_pram
#5
Chapter 153: What the!??
Ternyata orang indo wkwkwk
drunk_bunny #6
Chapter 151: Hmm for QnA, through the first chapter up to your latest chapter, did some of those happened to you in real life???
And for haeju, by only choosing your members, who is your ideal type based on their personality and why?? ≧∇≦
LittleMina2003
#7
Chapter 151: Will there be sequels to this fanfic?
LittleMina2003
#8
Chapter 148: I re read after I saw my name on there and it's so good