The Enemy Inside Of Me, (REBOOT)

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Bullied for being overweight by her peers, Haneul starts taking drastic measures in order to fit in with society's ludicrous definition of beauty. Soon enough she finds herself on the road of self-destruction.




 "I wanted to kill the me underneath. That fact haunted my days and nights. When you realize you hate yourself so much, when you realize that you cannot stand who you are, and this deep spite has been the motivation behind your behavior for many years, your brain can’t quite deal with it. It will try very hard to avoid that realization; it will try, in a last-ditch effort to keep your remaining parts alive, to remake the rest of you.

This is, I believe, different from the suicidal wish of those who are in so much pain that death feels like relief, different from the suicide I would later attempt, trying to escape that pain.

This is a wish to murder yourself; the connotation of kill is too mild. This is a belief that you deserve slow torture, violent death" 

AUTHOR'S NOTE: Formely known as "Diary Of A Recovering Bulimic". 

​​​I decided to re-post this story. I'll be modifiying the story-line and chapters as I go. 

Foreword

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jooniRa
#1
Chapter 3: Is that Sehun or Kai? I wonder. I feel like it's Sehun for some reason.
Haneul doesn't know when to stop :( And unfortunately I don't think she will, unless something really bad happens or someone knocks some serious sense into her :(
Hope you can update soon ^~^ (real soooooon hopefully but no pressure)
jooniRa
#2
Chapter 2: Poor Haneul :( A lot of people can relate to what she's feeling. Can't wait to see how this unfolds.
I love the story so far. Hope you can update soon ^~^
jooniRa
#3
Chapter 1: I love Haneul's sense of humor and sarcasm. It makes her character stand out more and makes her more realistic and relatable.
RaraWu #4
Chapter 2: I feel so bad for her..
bbh_1227
#5
Chapter 2: Oh no no no no... Why is society so twisted? It's so upsetting to see people complimenting her, especially her mother, about her weightloss despite the fact that she's slowly killing herself to achieve it. I think you've portrayed the development of her eating disorder pretty well; its hard not to empathise with Haneul and you make it all seem so real. I look forward to the next update :)
daneelyc
#6
Chapter 1: Seems like she really had enough with life