The Enemy Inside Of Me, (REBOOT)
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Bullied for being overweight by her peers, Haneul starts taking drastic measures in order to fit in with society's ludicrous definition of beauty. Soon enough she finds herself on the road of self-destruction.
"I wanted to kill the me underneath. That fact haunted my days and nights. When you realize you hate yourself so much, when you realize that you cannot stand who you are, and this deep spite has been the motivation behind your behavior for many years, your brain can’t quite deal with it. It will try very hard to avoid that realization; it will try, in a last-ditch effort to keep your remaining parts alive, to remake the rest of you.
This is, I believe, different from the suicidal wish of those who are in so much pain that death feels like relief, different from the suicide I would later attempt, trying to escape that pain.
This is a wish to murder yourself; the connotation of kill is too mild. This is a belief that you deserve slow torture, violent death"
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Formely known as "Diary Of A Recovering Bulimic".
I decided to re-post this story. I'll be modifiying the story-line and chapters as I go.
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