Chapter 5:

It was the fifth shower Andy was taking that day. He had hoped it would clean the guilt off but it didn’t. Andy felt dirty. He sat under the shower, hugging his knees, and let the water pour down. They mixed with Andy’s tears. That was the hundredth time he was crying.

                             “It tastes so good…”

Though Eric had been worried about Andy’s whereabouts, he had been ecstatic to see him in the morning. He had fixed Andy a fantastic breakfast with all his favourite foods. Andy’s heart was aching even more. He couldn’t tell Eric his phone had stayed at Junjin’s, so he had lied that he had lost it.

                             “Andy, you are good at this!”

Eric had promised to buy him a new phone as soon as possible. He said it wouldn’t be possible that day, because he was at work till late. Andy loved the sound of that. He had time to reflect even though it would never make him feel any better.

                             *loud moans*

When Andy finally crawled out from the shower, he stood in front of the mirror and stared at himself. He looked dirty. At least he didn’t smell like alcohol and aftershave anymore. It was not even Junjin’s aftershave but bunch of other men’s. Andy sighed. It was a stranger looking back at him.

                             “AH, JUNJIN!”

The water tripped down his neck and shoulders. Andy had forgotten to take a towel. The day was not going that well at all. It felt as if Andy’s life had turned upside down when he had woken up next to Junjin.

                             “I can’t have enough of you…”

Andy exited the bathroom and walked directly to the bedroom. He grabbed a towel, dried himself and then dressed as fast as he could. He didn’t want to remember what he had done while he was . He didn’t have to remember Junjin’s body on him. Andy sat down to the bed, staring at the white wall. His chest was rising as if he was hyperventilating, and shortly, the tears ran down his cheeks again.

                             “I want to kiss you again…”

The phone kept vibrating. Andy’s phone was notifying Junjin for over 100 messages from Eric. He had been calling too. First the messages started happily, asking where Andy was, then they began t