As we share this passionate kiss, his tongue exploring the insides of my mouth, I felt the impossibility of love between us... And it hurts.

We continued to lock our lips together, not even minding the need to catch our breaths, seizing every moment and hoping this would last longer.

I felt his hands my blouse… My mind is in a complete state of havoc; the kiss, his hands, the pleasure, the pain… I feel so nervous. I gather all my strength and remaining consciousness and tried to push him away but he only deepened the kiss and ed the rest.

It feels so damn good and perfect but this is wrong…

This needs to stop.

I pushed him harder even though I know it is against what I really want, and as our lips part, I know that this won’t be happening ever again.

“Stop it, Jiyong, this is not right… You have Kiko and I have Donghae, and the last thing I want to do in my entire life is to hurt him... I love Donghae, Jiyong, so much.”  I hung my head low as I have felt a stinging sensation pooling in my eyes.

He lets a few seconds pass before giving a response. “You’re right Dara, you’re right. It’s my fault, the one who insisted the kiss was me, I should have controlled myself, I'm sorry," He tipped my chin and made me look at him,  "Let's just forget this, shall we?” he smiled down to me. I want to touch you.
 

“Y-yeah… That’s better.”

I don’t understand why I feel so suffocated. I don’t understand why I feel so afraid and hurt hearing him say those words when I have expected it already.

“Sorry for causing you this trouble. Take care of yourself when you go home, okay grandma?” I tightly shut my eyes when he uttered his nickname for me, trying so hard to contain the overwhelming pain. “I have to go.”

I watched him walk away, leaving me alone in this dark hallway of our office. His retreating back and the lingering sensation of the heated encounter earlier catalyzes an understanding inside me.

I love Donghae... But if it wasn’t for Jiyong’s kisses and touch, I wouldn’t finally realize that... I love Jiyong more…                     

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Hello everyone!

This fic will just have two parts hehe so please look forward to it!

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