Just like Baekhyun was doing now. Now he understood why those people basked in those memories. It was a romanticized alternative timeline. All of them knew that the past was gone. Those moments were gone forever, but not forgotten. They all wanted to go back in time and do things over. They knew that they couldn’t change the outcome of things, they just wanted to postpone the loneliness and failure as long as possible. So remembering the past was kind of a hallucinogen to ease the pain of loss. Of things that failed to happen. Of things that failed to last forever. Like the promise that was broken a year ago.

Damn it Chanyeol, Baekhyun thought. You promised me that you would still be my friend.