What have I done?, you think to yourself as you run away in the rain. Since you forgot to bring your umbrella, your clothes and hair are soaking wet in the rain. Maybe you do hate him and maybe you don't. You're so confused and you're not even sure if you truly hate Mark or if you were just so in the moment. Every time you think of the Mark you loved, you're convinced that you don't hate him, but every time you think of the Mark that you just talked to, you start to feel a heavy feeling of hate again. Just as you're walking towards the company, you bump into Koeun. She's holding a clear umbrella and she immediately puts it over you. 
"Y/N! What's going on? What happened?!" she asks, taking you into the company. You sit down on a couch by the lobby and you sigh. 
"Mark and I...we're over," you sigh, starting to get another headache. 
"WHAT?!" she screams, putting her hands on your shoulders, "What happened? He came there to take care of you!" 
"I got angry again," you quietly reply, looking down. 
Koeun sighs and asks, "What did you get mad about this time? Why must you always get mad at him every time you two talk?" 
"That girl Herin called him and it seemed as if he really loved her!" you yell. 
"Y/N, I-I'm sorry," she whispers, looking down. 
"Why are you sorry?" you ask. 
"I didn't tell you. I wanted it to come from Mark, but not in this way," she replies, having a tone of regret in her voice. 
"Y-you knew? Wait, they're together?!" you yell, starting to get so confused. 
Koeun nods, "T-they've been together ever since the third episode of 'We Got Married' aired. I'm really sorry, Y/N." 
"Why didn't you tell me? You've been talking to me for weeks about Mark and you never not once bothered to tell me," you breathe, closing your eyes to prevent yourself from crying. 
"I don't have the right to tell you! I'd lose Mark and Herin, my best friends!" she exclaims. 
You open your eyes and the tears start to flow, "But I'm your friend, too! I would have probably tried my hardest to give up on him if you just told me earlier!" 
"I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry," Koeun tells you over and over, but you can't help but feel so much pain in your heart. 
"So, this means that Mark liked to me, too?" you ask, placing your hand that is formed into a fist over your heart. 
"I don't know why he did that, though," she tells you, starting to smile and leaning in to give you a hug. 
You push her away and tell her, "Don't hug me. You, my first ever friend that I made here, has betrayed me. The boy whom I loved the most lied to me and doesn't love me anymore and I'm so stressed from training. I can't do this anymore." 
"A-are you mad at me?" Koeun worriedly asks. 
"I don't know, but I sure am upset and disappointed. I feel like nothing good can happen now," you tell her, standing up to go to NCT's dance practice room. You see Jaemin dancing diligently inside, so you decide to walk away, but it was too late. He had already seen you and he opens the door. 
"Come in! You're feeling better?" he asks, giving you a hug. 
You nod, "Yeah." 
"How are you? Not your fever but how are you in general?" he asks, sitting down on the couch. 
You sit down and reply, "I'm f-fine." 
"I don't think so. What happened?" Jaemin asks. 
"M-Mark and Herin are together. He lied to me. Koeun knew about it all along and she never told me. Then, I also have training and debuting to think about," you say, letting your tears flow out. 
"Y/N, I-I'm sorry. There's something you need to know," he tells you. 
"W-what is it?" you stammer. 
"I knew, too," he quietly replies, looking down at his feet. 
"W-what?! H-How?! Why did everybody know this?! Why was I so blind?!" you yell, crying even more. 
"Y/N, calm down! It's going to be okay. Trust me. I'm really sorry. We didn't want to hurt you," he tells you. 
"Hiding it from me and letting me be sick and depressed will hurt me even more!" you scream as you feel yourself having the urge to slap him, but you control yourself. You know that hitting him and letting out your anger on someone who cares about you will not result in anything good. 
"I'm really sorry. We all wanted it to come from Mark," he quietly tells you, giving you a tight hug. 
You push him away and say, "You know what else hurts? Mark lied to me. I asked him if they were together and he denied it." 
"Y/N, don't be so mad. You'll get over this. Mark just wanted to protect you," Jaemin says. 
"The way he protected me hurt me