Ji Yong POV
I arrived in Seoul yesterday. I headed directly to my studio in YGE since I wrote a song while I was in Thailand. I’m thinking of naming it “Crooked”; Hong Jun hyung helped me finish the lyrics yesterday.
I thought of texting Emi, but I didn’t. She hasn’t replied to any of my texts since the article about Meisa and I was published three days ago.
Today I’m working in the music for this song because I really need to stop thinking about her.
As I was listening to what I had so far, Young Bae entered.
I tried to smile. “You’re here.” I said.
He sat down on a chair next to mine. “What’s this?” He asked.
“A new song.” I said while looking down and playing with my hands.
“Daebak! It sounds good. What is it about?
“Feeling alone? Broken promises?” I answered still looking down.
He sighed. “You haven’t talked with her?” He asked.
“Nope!” I exclaimed. I finally raised my head and started playing with the buttons of the control surface.
“It’s obvious that you miss her.” He made a pause. “But you know you screwed up by meeting Meisa in Thailand, right?”
I looked at him. “Yah! How many times I have to say this… She was already there, we just happened to be in the same party.”
“Like in Japan? To be honest she seems very interested in you.” He stood up.
“Maybe, but I’m not interested in her.” I said as I whirled on the chair.
“So what are you going to do with Emilia?” He said as he sat on the couch.
“I don’t know. I think this is ridiculous. First she got mad because of the bracelets and if she’s now mad because of the article, I don’t understand why. We don’t have a relationship.” I exclaimed and closed my eyes still whirling.
He sighed again. “I know you don’t read Internet gossip… But did you see the article about her?” He asked.
I quickly opened my eyes and stopped whirling. “What article?”
Young Bae smirked. “You don’t know that Kim Soo Hyun named her as his ideal type?”
I was confused. “What are you talking about?”
“He said during an interview that she admires Emilia and not only thinks she’s beautiful but also intelligent… You can read the whole thing in any website. There are a ton of articles about it.” He said as he started to play with a stuffed animal.
“Hah! Well, that’s funny!” I exclaimed while facing the control surface.
“Aren’t you jealous that another man just publicly said that he likes Emilia?”
“Why would I? As far as I know they’ve never met before. Besides, we’re just friends, getting jealous would mean that I have feelings for her.” I said.
I was trying to look like I didn’t have any problem with this. But, I obviously didn’t like the idea of another man wanting her.
Young Bae wasn’t buying my acting. “So you’re really cool with her having other “friends” like you?”
“If she wants to. She’s free to do it. I really don’t mind.” I lied.
“Ji Yongie, I know you. You’re telling me one thing, but your body language is telling a different story. You just raised your voice, that’s something you only do when you’re mad.” He said while holding my shoulder.
“So what should I do? Tell her I love her; ask her to be in a relationship with me. We had an agreement and love wasn’t part of that!” I exclaimed while standing up.
“Then don’t see her again. Live your life like it never happened.” He paused. “The both of you played a dangerous game and by the looks of it, you’re hooked on it.”
“Honestly, I don’t know what I feel.” I whispered and laid on the couch.
Young Bae pulled a chair and sat in front of me. He was troubled.
“What is it?” I asked him.
“I’m not sure if I should tell you this. But it may help you to understand your feelings. Yesterday Hyorinie and I were in Meca; we were in the parking lot heading to the entrance doors, when I suddenly saw Emilia coming from inside with Choi Si Won.”
As I was hearing him say this I sat down on the couch. “She met with Si Won yesterday? Like in a date?” I frowned.
“I don’t know if it was a date. I tried to hide. To be honest it almost caused a problem between Hyorin and I. So I had to tell her that she was your friend.”
“So that’s what she’s been doing lately?” I thought.
“There’s another thing.” He said.
I stared at him worried. “What?” I asked.
He took out his phone from his pocket. Before you see this, just as an FYI… she almost fell; the floor was slippery, even I had to hold Hyorinie’s hand through the parking lot.
Before he’d finished saying this, I took away his phone. I saw it. It’s picture of the both of them, together… linking arms. I was pressing so hard the phone that my hand started slightly trembling. The only words I was able to say were: “Who you?” Something clicked. “I need to write.” I handed him his phone and I headed to the desk.
It was almost 11:00 PM. Young Bae left hours ago and I just finished writing another song.
After pouring my feelings into this lyric, I knew what I had to do. I hated the idea of her been with another man. Although I wasn’t looking for a relationship, somewhere in between our game of friendship and , I fell for her. For her smile, for her heart, for her eyes, for her body, for her shyness, for her cuteness, for her strong will, for how she’s the only one who can make me laugh in a second, and… for how content I feel when she’s by my side.
I ran to the YGE parking lot and jumped in my Lamborghini, I drove the fastest I could. I didn’t know if she would be in her apartment, but I needed to try and see her.
After arriving at Galleria Foret I put on my sunglasses, hat, and wrapped a scarf around my neck. It wasn’t that late, so I tried to hide very well.
I was in front of her apartment, I doubted for a second to ring the doorbell. As I saw someone coming from the main hallway, I finally rang it. A couple of minutes later she opened the door.
“What are you doing here?” She said with indifference. She didn’t ask me to come in, but I entered anyway.
I walked to the living area, took off the sunglasses, hat and scarf; she was behind me.
I turned around to see her; she had her arms crossed.
I smiled but she didn’t smiled back.
“Since I was the one who started all this, I’ll be the first to say it. Let’s no do this anymore.” She said while looking down.
I was a little bit surprised. “Why?” I asked.
“Because is for the best.” She replied and looked towards the window.
Hearing her saying this made me feel angry. “Is it because you made another friend yesterday?”
She looked at me dumbfounded. “What do you mean?”
“Oh! Do you think I don’t know that you met Choi Si Won yesterday at Meca?” I exclaimed while staring at her.
“That has nothing to do with this.” She said.
“Are you mad because of the article? She just happened to be there, we were together for a brief moment...”
She interrupted me. “I’m not asking you for explanations.”
“I’m not giving you explanations, I’m just stating the facts.”
She laughed and then sarcastically said: “Oh! The fact that you meet with her once in a while… Do you think I don’t know that you met her at the beginning of this year in Japan?”
I smirked. “So you are jealous.”
“I’m not.” She sighed. “If you’re here for … Ok, Let’s do it… Let’s have goodbye .”
“I don’t have with you, I make love to you.” I whispered.
She looked at me surprised.
I walked towards her; she started walking to the opposite direction. “I don’t want to do this anymore.” She said.
“Liar.” I exclaimed.
She turned her head to look at me. “I got bored of been with you.”
“Liar.” I exclaimed again.
“Stop following me! You’re making me nervous.” She blurted.
“Tell me the truth!”
“I don’t want to have any arrangements with you anymore.”
“You’re lying, tell me truth!”
“I met someone new!”
“Even if that’s true, there’s something else… Tell me the truth!” I exclaimed.
I was about to reach her when she suddenly turned to look at me. “I love you! Is that what you wanted to hear, here it is: I love you… And I’m scared to death. Because of the both of us, one will eventually get hurt, and it looks like it will be me.” She shouted.
I flinched. We locked eyes. I could see she was really frightened.
You know that feeling when you’re looking directly at someone and everything else stops moving? That’s how I felt.
I walked towards her and hugged her. As I was hugging her, she started to cry.
I hated hearing her cry. I lifted her head, look directly to her eyes and whispered: “I want you back… I love you.”
She flinched. Her eyes started to move quickly.
“I hate the idea of you been with another man. I want you by my side. I need you to be mine… only mine.”
We kissed. Her arms crossed around my neck, my arms crossed around her waist.
Emi Haro POV
After making love, we were lying on the bed; spooning.
“So are you going to wear the bracelet now?” He asked, sarcastically.
He sighed deeply. “It’s time for you to meet my friends.” He said.
I turned around to look at him. “Let’s not do that. Let’s just try to keep this very intimate.”
“You need to at least meet the Big Bang members. They know I’m seeing someone and this is the first time in a long time that I’ve kept a secret from them.”
“That I can do!” I exclaimed and kissed him. “Can I bring Gahee?”
“Sure! I need to meet her too.” He said with his eyes closed.
“She’s a big Daesung fan… She’ll be ecstatic.”
He opened his eyes. “Does that mean that she’s not my fan?”
I laughed out loud. “She doesn’t like the bad boy type.” I said and kissed his forehead.
“Araso. By the end of the night, she’ll be my fan.” He proudly said and closed his eyes.
I turned around; he hugged me.
I looked towards the balcony, staring at the darkness of the night. I said inside silently: “Should I tell him? No, it’s too soon.”