It's our first variety show and unfortunately, the Exo sunbaenim is with us. 

"Annyeonghaseyo Blackpink maknae, Lisa-imnida" I said bowing

After our introductions, the hosts started asking us questions. I started to sweat uncontrollably when it was my turn.

"I personally am really curious about this. I knew who Lisa was before she debuted and honestly I was really surprised when the news came out. How did you started as a trainee?" Leeteuk oppa asked

"Ive always been a trainee first. I trained under YG Entertainment since I was a little girl. I balanced school adn training pretty well. Im a fan of leeteuk sunbaenim's group but I became a bigger fan of Exo sunbaenim. I quit being a trainee and left YG after that. i chose to be a fan for quite sometime."

"Is it true that you hold one of exo's biggest fansite in the world?" Jonghyun (shinee) oppa asked

I hesitated a bit but I still ended up telling the truth. 

"Yes I did. To be specific I handled Kai sunbaenim's fan account" 

"When did you return to training?" Jong oppa added

"Just earlier this year. I was already meant to debut as a member of blackpink but I left. They asked me to comeback to the group and since I know that I made a mistake by leaving them, I returned' I explained to them

"Do you still handle the exo fanaccount?" leeteuk oppa asked

"I dont handle the account anymore. I shut down everything related to my past life as a fansite admin. The only remaining memory was my personal twitter and instagram account in which I cant deactivate because of the memories" 

"Do you still maintain contact with the exo members?" jong oppa asked

"Ani. After I deactivated the account, I havent gotten in touch with the sunbaes until my debut day" I explained

"Were you guys aware that Lisa-shi will be debuting?" teukie oppa asked exo sunbaenim

"Ani. We found out when her teaser was released. jinah cut off her ties with us" suho oppa answered

"Is there anything bad going on with exo and lisa? Her fansites are not a joke. She has millions of followers. What made you quit"

I started to feel uncomfortable and unconciously I glanced at Kai's direction and saw him staring at me as well. 

"Nothing bad happened between kai and-" Kyungsoo oppa started before being interrupted by kai

"I made a mistake that really hurt jinah. I ruined our friendship and I dont know if Ill be able to fix it" He said while looking at me. 

Jennie unnie held my hand and squeezed it.