I tried to open my eyes but the light that penetrated through the room was bright enough to make me give up, I was still feeling dizzy and I couldn’t sleep since there were a lot of voices around me. I turned to me side but someone held me in place preventing no further movement, they weren’t that strong and I could have still moved if I wasn’t sedated, they definitely belong to a women. I tried again but this time someone else with a huge pair of arms which was more firm and strong and at the same time soft and loving, held me in place, the light disappeared since someone was blocking it allowing me to drift into the darkness. But still the pair of hands didn’t leave me, they wandered around first touching my arms then my shoulders occasionally touching my collarbone.

I dozed off……again……..Kim Tan……..he is the last thing I remember, the way he described his dream was all that I could remember, I want to be in his arms again, this longing, this yearning, it has to be satisfied. The hands in my shoulder disappeared, I missed it and suddenly I felt the same pair of hands holding mine.

“Her vitals are stable, her heartbeat’ constant” her voice seems a little strict at the same time caring “There’s no movement yet”

I don’t know what’s going on around me but the last time I checked I was fine, I know that I was in a hospital I’ve been here for past two days, but I don’t know why but I haven’t heard from Chan-Young or my mom, even Kim Tan didn’t seem to bother, all I heard was this voice that I know but just couldn’t put my finger on it yet. It seems very familiar, but soon as I could remember someone sedated me.

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“Are you coming or what” I called out to Kim Tan as he came running towards me and out of nowhere my phone buzzed I flipped it open only to find it was Young-do, I thought that he was going to forget me.

A part of me was glad that he called because I haven’t seen him for a while now, maybe I could use this as an excuse to see him, he was a good friend after all.

“Hello” I attended the call anyways.

“Where are you” why was he so demanding all of a sudden, before I could answer he started again, I missed it “Can you come to my hotel like……..now”

My heart was beating in my chest I can’t meet him there, it might create a bad impression besides things between me and Tan is pretty good, so I can’t leave.

"Please I really need to see you"

So do I. His voice was soft, less demanding something I never expected. But I can’t play with his feeling any longer, now that I’m with Kim Tan “Listen……….I can’t………I came out with Kim Tan”

“Or I could come there” his voice seems pleading, he was about to break down, I could feel the desperation in his voice, he’s making it harder than it already is “Please I really need to see you”

"Okay but not in the hotel meet me in the coventional store" somehow that place became our spot. It's like we're having an affair but I really neeeded to see him.

I looked at Kim Tan who had a questioning look on his face “Is something wrong”

“Yeah Chan-Young needs me to-

“Nah, you don’t have to explain, just leave already” I didn’t have a choice but things are okay between these two and I didn’t want to make it look bad again.

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I took a cab there and now he was a feet away from me, I can spot that eyebrows amongst a thousands. By the time I reached there he was already waiting for me with ramen and some soju. His ramen was untouched but he already drank two bottles of soju, he could barely sit in one place.

“Why did you call me”   I asked trying to keep my distance and maintain façade, he could barely open his eyes and he was mumbling something about his dad. I feel bad for him.

“Ah, you showed up” he paused, he took a huge gulp from his bottle, tears stung out of his eyes “Atleast you’re happy”

He was referring to me and Tan, he gets to be miserable while we end up being happy. He looked broke, I know that his father was in jail but I didn’t know that it was this bad “Listen, you’re really drunk, let me take you to the hotel”

“And how are you going to do it” I looked at him for an explanation but he’s right I can’t walk all the way to the hotel, let alone support him too and I didn’t have any money so I couldn’t take a cab either.

“Geeee….even when you’re drunk you prove that you have an IQ of 150” I , but he didn’t chuckle…..strange…. he teases me all the time, this is me coming around and the way he’s acting right now makes me creepy

“Can you do me a favor” ask me for anything, it breaks my heart to see him like this “Don’t pity me”

Now I’m miserable, here I am standing before him because I miss him and he thinks I pity him “Okay”

I grabbed my bag and started to walk away from him “Hey where are you going”

I am so close to pouring my heart out and he's testing my limits "Take another step and i'll make you mine forever"

"This......" I pointed to him "is why I'm walking away from you" I got his undiviated attention good

"The........you're mine forever and.........the I love you's and...........i don't know............and here I am days afer not seeing you and you think I pity you" I paused for a second "I'm here because.............I've been thinking of you a lot lately" he was staring at me, I guess I have never showed him this side of me so, maybe he's surprised, I walked away.

But secretly I was hoping that he would call out to me, but he didn't...........but then I was standing in the middle of the road and then I heard him.

"Chan Eun Sang" I turned around hoping to hear a word or comfort or two but before he could say something.........

A bright light that actually moved swept me off my feet and I was send flying into the air but even in all these chaos I saw him running towards me the first thing I saw was concern.........and then the smell of my blood was enough to suffocate me to darkness.

My eyes flew open and then I took in the surrounding I got up from my place but the tubes and mask made it harder but I kept calm…….I didn’t want to be sedated again.

“Easy easy there” a women with a torch in her hand checked my pupils after dilating it “Don’t worry you’re all good now”

“Where’s my mom, did she come visit me” she looked at me for a minute or two.

“Eun Sang are you alright” there he was Young do but something was different I couldn’t put my figure on it maybe it was the hairstyle or that gentle aura that was totally different from what I used to know, there we’re tears in his eyes but other than that he looked calm and cool. He sat on the bed near me and held my hand and caressed it.

Young-do the high school bully who couldn’t stand people who dared to question him, the person with the IQ of 150 the heir of empire hotel with a twisted family plot stood leaning against the wall.

“Hey, Young do-ah what are you doing here” he looked at me with those clueless eyes, like he didn’t even know what I’m talking about “Where’s Kim Tan”

Suddenly he seems hurt, his hand left mine, the sadness in his eyes were evident but this is the way I’ve always talk to him I don’t know what’s changed.

But the doctor she still stared at me with….I don’t know, like there’s a problem “Okay what’s the last thing you remember”

“I don’t know………….I was walking away from the conventional store and suddenly-

“What’s your age sweetheart” the doctor asked, she stared at me like I was a baby and maybe she wanted to go easy with me.

“I’m 19” both the doctor and Young-do stared at me, like I have a problem “Young-do what’s going on” I literally broke down in front of him but then……..he seemed more broke than I am.

“Guess I’ll leave you two alone” the doctor left the room giving us some space, Young-do took my hand in his again but this time I pushed em’ away “Where is Kim Tan” there were tears in my eyes “Please just tell me what’s going on”

“It’s been thirteen years since that accident” the world was spinning around me and I couldn’t think clearly, all my friends graduated and are leading their life and I’ve been in coma all this time, I couldn’t process all this information at the same time.

“I’ve been in coma for thirteen years” he chuckled but then realized that I wasn’t in a position to take in any jokes.

“No” seeing that I wasn’t in a mood for twenty questions he answered “You got hit by a baseball bat eight hours ago”

“Okay” so I did have a life it’s just that I don’t remember it. The aura around us seems to be calm now, though I still want to see Kim Tan, Young-do has changed a lot he seems calm and doesn’t get angry a lot, but he was about to “So tell me, what have I been doing”

“You did a lot actually, you became a book writer and you own a studio, you have to travel a lot but I don’t think that’s a problem you even got a doctorate” it looks like he’s hiding something from me and I just can’t pin point it.

“Is something wrong” he looked at me “What are you hiding from me”

He looked away trying to hide it “It’s nothing”

“JUST TELL ME, DAMMIT?!!” it sounded rude but I didn’t care I just wanted to know the truth, standing against young do is a risk but I didn’t care “What are you hiding from me, just tell me what happen-

“-WE GOT MARRIED THAT’S WHAT HAPPENED”