Wow so it's really been 2 years since I updated this huh 

so this story was an outlet for a bunch of bad stuff that was going on in my life back when i was like 17, now I'm almost 22 and a lot more shocking stuff has happened, so I wanna use writing as an outlet again. This time I'll have a lot more experiences to draw from, hopefully my writing style has improved... lol 

but yeah, not sure if any of you will still be reading this, but I'm gonna keep writing this story anyways since I had the entire thing planned out from the start! 

Also, whilst I have no hugely been keeping up with all things kpop as much recently, I am well aware that several idols have tragically passed away in the past few years...I feel that's why what I'm writing is so important, and I will do my best not to triviliase or glamourise the mental health issues I highlight in this book, not only to give respect to the idols my characters are modelled after but also because I'm drawing on my own experiences with bulimia, addiction and bpd (recovered now yay!) 

so yeah I'll be writing since we're in lockdown and I've got nothing else to do :))