Synopsis: You realize that T.O.P is now 30 and like the rest of his male sunbaes, he have to be enlist to the military. Upon receiving the news from his own mouth 6 months ago, you try spend every minute with him; without getting caught by the press. You thought that you can toughen it up and send him with a smile but when the night before leaving came, you almost lose it. Especially when you receive a big news that might change everything.

 

Both you and T.O.P bid your goodbyes before turning your back again the front door to the elevator. The walk from the elevator to the car was so awkward because both of you were in your own world. Upon entering his car, you turn on the radio to put away the awkwardness that has been filing the space.

                His right hand control the steering while his left index and thumbs pinch his own lower lips. You glanced over at him and couldn’t stop yourself smiling; even for a moment. Tonight, he look perfect. He wore everything you chose for him and you were grateful for his charisma - because looking at him right now, you regret choosing an emerald color dress shirt.

When you realized you stared at him for a long time, you turned to your right to watch the first snow started to fall. “Look, it’s snowing.” He looked over at you, smiling. You replied his smile with a grin. But your fingers play with the rings you wore to match your look for tonight.

                “Oppa,” he turned his head to you, “Are the boys coming tonight?” He stayed quiet for a while – probably thinking – before turned his head back on the road. “I don’t know.” You feel like killing yourself if they do come. “Ji Yongie said he would love to come. “ Yup, you’re killing yourself tonight, “But he wants you to have me tonight.” No, no one’ll be dead tonight. 

You nodded in agreement to what Ji Yong said. Placing your hand on his hand, you said, “Yeah. That’s right, you guys would probably drink and get wasted. And you do not want to be late tomorrow.” You playfully touching his biceps, “But if you’re with me, I can pleasure you without you waking up late tomorrow.” T.O.P can’t help but smiling at your words; you never flirt with him like this before. He likes it because he knows you only dare to do this to him and him only. Unable to hide your emotion, you smile from ear to ear because T.O.P is usually the one with flirtatious words and you’d only play along. But, thank you Seungri oppa for teaching you a thing or two while waiting for T.O.P in the recording studio.

Synopsis: You realize that T.O.P is now 30 and like the rest of his male sunbaes, he have to be enlist to the military. Upon receiving the news from his own mouth 6 months ago, you try spend every minute with him; without getting caught by the press. You thought that you can toughen it up and send him with a smile but when the night before leaving came, you almost lose it. Especially when you receive a big news that might change everything.

 

Both you and T.O.P bid your goodbyes before turning your back again the front door to the elevator. The walk from the elevator to the car was so awkward because both of you were in your own world. Upon entering his car, you turn on the radio to put away the awkwardness that has been filing the space.

                His right hand control the steering while his left index and thumbs pinch his own lower lips. You glanced over at him and couldn’t stop yourself smiling; even for a moment. Tonight, he look perfect. He wore everything you chose for him and you were grateful for his charisma - because looking at him right now, you regret choosing an emerald color dress shirt.

When you realized you stared at him for a long time, you turned to your right to watch the first snow started to fall. “Look, it’s snowing.” He looked over at you, smiling. You replied his smile with a grin. But your fingers play with the rings you wore to match your look for tonight.

                “Oppa,” he turned his head to you, “Are the boys coming tonight?” He stayed quiet for a while – probably thinking – before turned his head back on the road. “I don’t know.” You feel like killing yourself if they do come. “Ji Yongie said he would love to come. “ Yup, you’re killing yourself tonight, “But he wants you to have me tonight.” No, no one’ll be dead tonight. 

You nodded in agreement to what Ji Yong said. Placing your hand on his hand, you said, “Yeah. That’s right, you guys would probably drink and get wasted. And you do not want to be late tomorrow.” You playfully touching his biceps, “But if you’re with me, I can pleasure you without you waking up late tomorrow.” T.O.P can’t help but smiling at your words; you never flirt with him like this before. He likes it because he knows you only dare to do this to him and him only. Unable to hide your emotion, you smile from ear to ear because T.O.P is usually the one with flirtatious words and you’d only play along. But, thank you Seungri oppa for teaching you a thing or two while waiting for T.O.P in the recording studio.

 

 

6 months ago, T.O.P dropped the news that he wanted to be enlisted soon. You heard the rumors through a website but quickly waved it off; since you hoped he informed it to you by himself and he’s not just another idol who got enlisted. Seungri was the first to ask how you felt when T.O.P informed his Big Bang member and you during one of the dinner at his house.   

And to top it all off, he had to go Japan the very next week for one their fan meeting. Spending almost 2 months alone while coping with his sudden news, you mentally prepared yourself. The next 4 months you had left, you spent it with learning more about him. His likes and dislikes, his personalities and even the way he snore when he’s asleep. You also spent more time with his mother and learnt a thing or two from her as she’s the woman who raised him.

 

 

                KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK. You stared at the mirror in front of you. You hand held tight onto the stick with tissue wrap around it. “Babe, are you okay? You’re taking a long time in there. Do you –” You swung open the bathroom door and walked straight to the bedroom. T.O.P look confused but he ignored it since he need to pee, immediately.

You shoved the stick into a drawer. Standing and watching the beautiful Han River view, you let out a sigh. T.O.P’s going away for 2 years and you can’t possibly face it alone, you thought to yourself. Lost in your own thoughts, you did not realize T.O.P was calling out for you until you felt a hand slip from your side and envelope you in a warm back hug. Looking up, you found T.O.P’s face and you feel safe. No one can make you feel safe like him and you have no idea how he did it.

Breaking away from the hug, “What time do you have to report yourself tomorrow?” you asked him, while sitting on the edge of the bed. He cross his arm across his chest. “I’ll have to be at YG Office by 7 a.m. Then the boys will go with me in the van to the base,” he stop for a moment, “So, maybe 9 a.m.” You nod at his answer. So, his base is 2 hours away.  

 

 

                You laid on the bed while scrolling through your Instagram to see any new pictures your friend upload. You came across Seungri’s post; a picture of him and T.O.P back in 2010. You realized how cute these two ‘Seunghyuns’ back then and how cheesy they are now. The bed suddenly felt heavier on one side due to T.O.P’s weight when he climbed on bed. You put away your phone and touched his hand. “Let’s snuggle. Can we?” you asked him when he turned to you.

Obeying your request, he pulled you close to him. You refused and he look puzzled. You place your hands around his neck and he got closer to you. Only a few cm away from your chest, T.O.P’s smile at new improvement you made and the new view you granted to him. He breathe in your scent and lay there with his left arm across your waist.

                “I can’t believe you’re going away.” You said. ‘Leaving me behind with this baby,’ you thought to yourself.

                “Yeah, me too. I should’ve done it earlier. So I won’t leave you like this, right now.” T.O.P said while drawing pattern on your tummy. He kiss it and smiled to himself. Suddenly he laughed and you look at him, “Ah, sorry. I just remembered what Ji Yong told me last week. He told me…” He laughed and smirked,

“Since tonight is the last time we’ll be sleeping together, we should have the best ever. So when I am gone, you will remember it until the next time I’m back.”

At first you wanted to smack his head but Ji Yong’s idea was so funny that you snorted while laughing. You placed your palm to your forehead and another hand on your chest, laughing at the probably the worst idea from Ji Yong.

                “We can do more than snuggle, you know.” This time he received a smack in his head from you. He caressed his head and looked up at you. But honestly, you want him inside you so badly but you need to tell him something.

“Babe, I-I have something to tell you…” He looked up to get a better view of your face. Letting go of your hug, you turned to the night stand with his hand still on your waist. Sitting up, he join you but with a confused look.

He placed a hand over his mouth as you watch his action. T.O.P pulled the cutest puppy-eyes to you, “Please don’t leave me. Uri sarang hajimalayo”

                “Yah! Stop singing.” You placed a finger over his mouth, “I-I am pregnant.”

                “How?”

                Honestly, you really want to shove his face in the toilet now but you forced yourself not to. ‘Inhale exhale inhale exhale,’ you thought by yourself. “Yah!” A smack landed on the side of his head, again. “What do you mean ‘how’? We were … No! You were and you that night. We had and apparently someone did not wear a .” Putting pressure on the word ‘someone’, you glanced at him.

                “But, I’m going away tomorrow. Will you b-be okay?” You made this charismatic rapper stutter for a moment. You nodded and you caressed his upper arm, assuring him you’ll be okay. Finally, you showed him the pregnancy test stick with two lines shown across it. He smile while putting the stick near to his eyes, just so you’re not wrong.

T.O.P took a picture of it – probably sending it to the rest of Big Bang – and he kept on looking at it. “I bet you were nervous about how you’re going to tell me.” He pouted at you, “I was expecting more than this. Probably over candle light dinner, you get on one knee and showed this to me. Or, you can do it the fun way like treasure hunt or something.” His words leave you speechless. Your jaw dropped and you sighed.

“But can you promise me? Promise me that you’ll take care of this child. I can assure you that you’ll get all the help you need from my family, YG family and your family.” He sounded convincing, though. “The boys were so happy. They even asked if they can post in on the SNS. But, they’d have to wait for us. I’m going to post about it by dawn.” He sound so happy, that you forgot he had to go tomorrow. T.O.P looked at you, “Do you want to – “   

                Out of the blue, you felt like someone punched you in your gut. The food you had for dinner were ready to exit your body, probably through vomiting. Running to the bathroom, you put a hand over your mouth to stop it from coming out. Upon reaching the toilet bowl, you let everything out. T.O.P held your hair for you in one hand and the other hand patted your back.

He wiped your mouth, tie your hair and pat your back while you brush your teeth. “This remind me of the night on our honeymoon. You can’t handle alcohol and I can’t handle you hotness.”

He continue on rambling about your marriage life; from the moment you exchanged your vows – both in Seoul and your hometown – till this morning. T.O.P prove he was not only a good husband but a caring one as well.

                “Do you remember when your aunt kept on dancing with me when I was supposed to dance with you?”

                You laughed. “Yeobo, do you remember Seungri kept on calling my aunt ‘mum-in-law’ because he likes one of my cousin?” Both of you laughed as you exit the bathroom. He pulled you to the kitchen. “And do you…” you laughed again, “Do you remembered when Taeyang oppa took a video of you jealous when Seunghoon invited me on stage to join them singing?” You fiddled with your phone to search for the video. But he snatched it away and stare at you while both of his hand locked you against the counter.

                Knowing how jealous he was and he is now, you smiled and bit your lower lips. Placing your hands around his waist, you hug him to console him. He pouted and you couldn’t take it anymore. Without warning, you crashed your lips onto his and caught him off-guard. He deepened the kiss as his hands roamed around your back.

                Suddenly he pulled from the kiss. “Ah, this won’t do. I need to cook now.” He protested. You looked at him with your hands still on his waist. “After you vomit, you might be hungry. What do you want? What can I cook with in the fastest time?” He let go f your hands from his waist and start to take out ingredient he would need. Watching him from the kitchen counter, suddenly you felt hungry. Not hungry for food but for his love.

               

“Who did you called?” He asked as he was taking the chopping board. You came back from the bedroom, after ordering fried chicken in the middle of the night. Silently, you thanked Koreans for their love towards delivery food service and making them available even at night.

                “Yeobo! There’s no need to you to cook. I called the fried chicken place. They’re coming in 15 minutes.” You placed your elbow on the counter. He looked at you and blink. Out of the blue, you ran towards the bedroom. “I know something we can do while waiting.” You shouted, trying to lure him to the bedroom.

When he arrived at the bedroom, you were already half- and he likes what he sees. ‘You just woke the beast in him,’ you thought to yourself. Before you knew it, he pinned you to the wall and he kissed you aggressively. When you were about to protest, you remember he’ll go tomorrow. Letting him lead the way, you can only hope you’ll be able to get up tomorrow to see him off at the base.