028

Knowing

Chapter 28.

"Dear true love,
 I'm a lantern without any light,
 I'm a boxer much too afraid to fight
When I'm without you."

Jaehyun found Taeyong in their seat on his way home from school. He sat down, rocking from side to side as the bus drove towards his home. Taeyong raised a hand to fix Jaehyun’s bangs. Jaehyun watched the other’s expression as he looked at Jaehyun’s hair. “It’s falling into your eyes.” He said and pushed it back and out of Jaehyun’s face.

Jaehyun raised his hand and caressed Taeyong’s face in a short loving gesture. “I’ll get an appointment at the hairdresser before the party.”

Taeyong’s hand dropped to Jaehyun’s lap. “Good.” He said and then he looked out of the window, the two of them silent for a minute. “We were going to your apartment, right?” He then asked and looked at Jaehyun who was watching the streets.

He nodded. “Yes.” He said with a beginning smile and Taeyong giggled.

  “Why do you look so shy?” He asked and Jaehyun felt his cheeks heat up.

  “My father won’t be home.” He said and covered his cheeks with his hands. “I- I didn’t mean…”

Taeyong laughed. “Calm your hormones, Jaehyun!” He said and Jaehyun hid his face in Taeyong’s shoulder.


 

 

 

The two prepared an after school snack in the kitchen before sitting on the floor in Jaehyun’s room. The white curtains danced in the cool autumn wind and Jaehyun was happy for the fact that he had made his bed that morning and his room looked tidy. Taeyong went through his books, noticing a few comics. Jaehyun let Taeyong look at baby pictures and spent most of their time retelling stories of Ten and his adventures since they were young.

  “You were a naughty kid.” Taeyong laughed, joining Jaehyun on the bed, the two of them lying down together.

  “I managed to do some extraordinary things.”

  “Stealing a sweet potato and walking through the market to give it to your mother but also running away from the man chasing you at the age of 3?” Taeyong laughed. “You were eventful.”

  “I’m always eventful.”

  “True.” Taeyong chuckled tilting his head towards Jaehyun and looking up. “Is there ever a calm moment in your life?”

Jaehyun hummed. “Not really.” He said and looked up at the ceiling, the curtains made the sun’s light dance across it. Taeyong’s fingers found his that lied between them. His fingers brushed over Jaehyun’s hand, sending electricity through Jaehyun’s arm and straight to his heart. He opened his hand to let Taeyong lace their fingers, his thumb brushed over Jaehyun’s. It felt calming and nice and Jaehyun turned his head to face Taeyong that lied right beside him, his face rather close. Jaehyun saw the other turn his head as well, bangs following his movement. Taeyong was too beautiful, Jaehyun realized, too ethereal to be a real human being. Jaehyun knew Taeyong’s parents couldn’t know about them, he knew how cruelly they treated him. But how could they? He was an angel. He deserved the world.

  “Can I kiss you?” Taeyong asked and Jaehyun couldn’t help but smile.

  “Always.” Jaehyun replied and Taeyong smiled as well, inching closer and slightly raising his head to get better access to Jaehyun’s lips. Jaehyun felt breathless as their lips connected. Taeyong’s were soft like velvet and he felt so good. Jaehyun let his tongue cross his own lips to Taeyong’s and Taeyong gasped, lips separating and Jaehyun had to let go of Taeyong’s hand to prop himself up on his elbow, his left hand softly pushing Taeyong down to lie beneath him and Taeyong reached up to tangle his fingers in Jaehyun’s hair, the two of them so focused on the kiss they didn’t hear the front door open.
Jaehyun’s leg came in between Taeyong’s to lie better he got surprised when Taeyong moaned into the kiss. He pulled his leg away from Taeyong’s crotch to not arouse him any further.

  “Hey Jaehyun what do-” The door was pushed open and Jaehyun broke off the kiss with wide eyes before throwing himself off of Taeyong who quickly sat up covering his red lips with hand and Jaehyun buried his head in his pillow.

  “Hi father.” Taeyong said and the awkwardness in his tone sounded more like slight amusement. Jaehyun was mortified. He didn’t dare to look up, he wanted to choke right there.

  “I- I’ll leave you two alone.” The door closed slightly. “I’ll make some soup tonight.” He then quickly informed them before closing the door. Jaehyun kicked out in frustration. Taeyong started laughing and Jaehyun couldn’t help but laugh himself.

Taeyong reached out to make Jaehyun turn around and he did. He opened his arms for Taeyong to drape his torso over Jaehyun, pressing a kiss to Jaehyun’s lips while still chuckling. Jaehyun was smiling into the kiss, hands on the lower of Taeyong’s back and he felt so happy in this moment. Because this was love and it felt amazing.

 

 

 

 

Taeyong stayed there for dinner. The two had been chilling on the bed, Taeyong had found out that Jaehyun was ticklish and Jaehyun found out that the other was very good at finding just the right places.

  “Stop!” Jaehyun laughed and fell from the bed. Taeyong laughed at him. Jaehyun sat up and slapped Taeyong’s leg. “I can’t breathe.” He gasped and lied down again, chuckling a little and Taeyong laughed, the white curtains danced behind him and he looked beautiful like that.

Jaehyun grimaced his stomach hurting and he stayed down for a moment.

Taeyong peeked over the edge of the bed. “You okay?”

  “Either I’m really hungry or I have been laughing too hard.” Jaehyun said and rubbed his stomach. Taeyong got up, helping the other up on his feet.

In that moment Jaehyun’s father called and the two quickly hurried into the living room; Taeyong tickling Jaehyun who cried out for him to stop.

 

 

 

 

 

Jaehyun tried to ignore Johnny and Ten flirting behind him as he tried to find the perfect set of clothes to the party. He pulled on his jeans that he wore at the party where his and Taeyong’s fantastic love story began. To his surprise they fell from his hips easily and he frowned.

  “Have I lost weight?” He asked as he tried to hold them up.

Ten blinked. “Have you forgotten to eat all your meals?” He asked, standing up to try to see the changes. “You have lost a bit of weight actually.”

Jaehyun looked into the mirror with a confused expression. “That’s odd.”

They borrowed one of Jaehyun’s father’s belts and then they all went into the kitchen. Taeyong would arrive at 8 and Jaehyun knew he would be precise.
At 8 the doorbell rang and Johnny stared at the door incredulously. “Have he been waiting for the clock to hit 8 or what?” He asked and Jaehyun chuckled.

  “He does sometimes miss the bus.”

  “The bus isn’t as important as you, Jaehyun.” Ten said with a sly smile and Jaehyun bared his teeth warningly.

  “Shut up.” He hissed and opened the door, greeting Taeyong who managed to look flawless. “Hi, Tae.” He said and Taeyong smiled the two hugging each other and Jaehyun felt a little breathless.

  “Let’s get going.” Johnny said as he and Ten got into the narrow hallway. The four of them bid Jaehyun’s father goodbye. Who told them to drink responsibly. Jaehyun had promised not to come home like that ever again.

 

 

 

 

Jaehyun greeted their friends in the front garden, entering the house with Taeyong right behind him. Doyoung was in the action of shrugging off his jacket and he smiled at Jaehyun.

  “Hi Jaehyun.” Doyoung hung his jacket on the coat hanger and Jaehyun did the same with his. Taeyong smiled at Doyoung who greeted the other as well. “Ready for another party?” He asked them.

  “Let’s keep this calm.” Taeyong said and Doyoung laughed.

  “Don’t look at me.”

Taeyong squinted and Jaehyun wrapped an arm around Taeyong’s shoulders. “We’re good.” He told Doyoung. “No problems now.”

Doyoung stared at Jaehyun’s arm. “Ah that’s right. You’re a couple now.” He said and smiled. Jaehyun thought he looked rather jealous for a moment. “I knew it.” Doyoung said and Yuta appeared from the bathroom to their right.

  “Knew what?” He asked and Doyoung blinked.

  “That Taeyong would wear his favorite leather jacket, he’s so boring.” Doyoung quickly said before running into the living room and Taeyong stomped after him.

  “Who are you calling boring?”

Jaehyun felt Ten and Johnny brush past him and Yuta went over to Jaehyun. “Back at it again.” He said with a wide smile and Jaehyun reached out to pull Yuta in for a one-armed hug.

  “Owe you a thank you for last time.” He said and Yuta chuckled.

  “It’s nothing, you forgave me, the least I could do was help you out.” Yuta looked a little ashamed and Jaehyun reached up a hand to fix Yuta’s hair.

  “Thank you.” He smiled and Yuta grinned.

  “Let’s get some shots!” He then cheered and dragged Jaehyun with him into the living room.

Would this party go by without any problems? Jaehyun doubted that.

 

 

 

A/N:

I am so so so so sorry for not updating in a long time but I am leaving for the US in a week's time and I am so stressed. (6th september)
Because of losing that chapter last time I didn't think what I wrote was good enough but reading it through again made me realize it is actually okay, so I've written more and I'm writing chapter 32 right now. 

Are you guys still with me? Sorry for the long wait! <3

Love,
Emma <3

  

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Tripping-Panda
Knowing; this story ended in 2017. Then, I met the love of my life in 2019. This story means so much to me, and to read the last chapter and realize that yes, good things do come in the future. I can only encourage anyone who reads this story to believe in those words. <3

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TEN_Net
#1
Chapter 13: Mark is really funny, like he is in real, love his comments and support
nikkixkaisoo #2
Chapter 14: Finally, everything makes sense now! It’s good that Jaehyun decided to become friends with Taeyong first instead of jumping into a relationship fast, because that’s more realistic. Good job, Emma!!!
nikkixkaisoo #3
Chapter 11: I was so used to reading Jaeyong fics without Jaehyun liking somebody else besides Taeyong that I internally cringe whenever JaexTen parts come up ? good thing there’s Johnny, though!
nikkixkaisoo #4
Chapter 5: I’m so confused with this story...
Tokkiabi
#5
Chapter 47: Loveeee it. Havent read a good one in a long while. This story made me feel nostalgic over my highschool days lol. Brilliant storyline! Im so glad I found it :)
nhEXO1996
#6
Chapter 47: ... Welp, I sobbed, and cried a ton. Shockingly this story had a good ending and a really amazing life lesson that so many should learn. I MIGHT KEEP RE READING THIS.... Also, this story made me think about life and death during a car rid
loveyfan95
#7
Chapter 47: Omg, this story was amazing with all the ups and downs. Loved the character developements, loved everthing <3
CuriousCactus #8
Chapter 23: I just came across this story & hooked up already. How can I just found this now?
It’s really beautiful ^^
Giulzdacat #9
Chapter 43: Just for info, your pee looks red when you're on chemo so it makes it really difficult to see blood in urine