~Author's Note Important~
Failed up ahead!!! Sorry I tried.... Also sorry for the late update I just had lots of writer's block and I am working on another story too which I have still to update. Again I am sorry for the late update.
Also I had to make some changes to I Can Fly Again like the time and I proof read it a little bit.
I would also like a Co-Author to help me out with this story since I have not been able to update when I want to.
Also I did changed up some things but not much so I hope you guys enjoy this story as much as I love writing it.
Also I spent my whole afternoon writing thses so I did not proof read this one...My apologies
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It's a beautiful summer day, everyone as happy as they can be, people being with their significant other, but when you look closely into a house, into an apartment, into a random street, into a park, or into a college dorm you can see that not everyone can be happy in this beautiful, hot summer day...

~Hoseok POV~

How come I couldn't see it? Right, because I am a self-centered bastard that didn't even pay attention to him. He gave out signs but yet I didn't pay attention, he gave his heart to me but yet I played with it, all of his actions screamed out help me but I turned the other cheek and let him take it head on with no one to led him a shoulder to lean on or to cry on. No wonder he wanted out with me because I am useless, everyone was but I should have listen to him more and been there for him more. I can't even pinpoint my own emotions, there is too much frustration, anger, depression, sadness, and helplessness with that I can go on with emotions but the thing that hurts the most is I didn't listen to him, I made everyone gang up on him but most of all is I couldn't see it. I couldn't see the souless eyes, I couldn't see that he needed help, I couldn't see everything but now that he is gone I could see it now.

~FlashBack 11 years ago~

Damn it! I'm late to class! I hope my teacher would let me off the hook. I stayed up all night taking care of my grandpa because he has mental disability. I have to take care of him since my mom and dad work and we need money for his hospital bills, our own bills, and plus my dance classes and college fee's that I still have to pay back. I was too busy with my own thoughts that I didn't notice a new student standing in front of me so we ended up colliding. I let out a ' Sorry' because of the collision this person's papers, books, and important papers ended up scrattered all over the hallway so me being a gentle person I ended up helping he/she out.

 When I was about to pick up a paper I see a tan hand in my vision so I look up and meet the most beautiful big brown eyes looking right at me with embarrasment and I couldn't help but smile at him. We ended up with that position for about a minute until he broke the silence saying "Thank you" his voice is something I would never get tired off, it's nice and deep, it goes with because it horminazies with his gentle eyes and his gentle unique smile that he is throwing at me. I couldn't help but feel curiousty and feeling overwhelmed with a emotion that I couldn't pinpoint it. I get as many as I can get and I see him looking at me in which I couldn't help but let out a chuckle in which he got embrass because I caught him in the act. When I finished, I gave him back his papers, books, and his schedule and he just said "Thank you" and started walking away but I was able to grab his elbow before he was too far to reach.

I can tell by his body that he is surprised and that he is confused as well, I smile at him saying "My name is Hoseok but most call me J-hope because I give hope to people. I'm a third year here." He looks at me and he bows at me saying "My name is Taehyung but you can call me V or TaeTae or just Tae and I'm a second year here, hyung." He smiles at me with the same gentleness and warmness that gets me dizzy but I can't help but like this new feeling. I smile back at him saying "Nice to meet you Tae"

~Present Day~

That was the first time I met Taehyung and I still can feel his smile, the same warmth and gentleness that I can still picture it perfectly, I can still feel his presence when I close my eyes and I can't help but fall in love with him....Well the memory of him. I would love to see him again just one more time to ask for forgiveness. I'm just staring at my cieling, laying in my bed thinking back on how Taehyung use to laugh when I would pretend to be a horse or when he would get embrassed when I would call him handsome, cute or pretty. When I introduced Taehyung to Seokjin and Namjoon they were thrilled to meet Taehyung and I was so content and happy that they accepted him. Then when Taehyung introduced me to Yoongi and Jimin I was excited and happy because that stepped up our friendship level.

~10 Years  Ago~

Today is the day that I'm going to ask out Tae....I hope he says yes I mean everyone is saying that he likes me because Taehyung makes it obvious but don't really know. I let out a shaky sigh while gripping both of my fist together because there and behold is someone I gave my heart to the moment I meant eyes with him. Tae is laughing about something that Jimin said but all I can see is how his eyes turn into cresents and how his presences lits up the room. I go walking towards our group which includes Tae (of course), Jimin, Namjoon, Seokjin, Yoongi, and last but not least me.

I clear my throat when I got close to our table and I see that everyone is present which is a relief because most of the time Yoongi, Namjoon, and Seokjin are too busy because they are in their last year of high school. I eventually get everyone's attention and I clear my throat saying "I have a announcement to make for Tae" Jin looks at me with a knowing look but I can't help but feel nervous. I look directly at Taehyung and say "Would you do me my horseface honors-" with that everyone (except Tae) let out a chuckle or snicker but I continue and finish on what I was going to say "to go out with me?" Tae looks so shocked and I hear gasps and cat calls around our table but the only thing that I'm focusing on is Taehyung, I want his answer because if he rejects me I think he would still let me be friends with him but there would be a distance because I know Tae isn't a jerk or cold-blooded person also I would be embrass because I asked him out in front of everyone.

I gulp and wipe my sweaty palms against my sweats and while I am still waiting for a answer, all I hear is silence, I take that as a rejection so I look sadly at Tae and say "I'm sorry for feeling like this towards you but I can't help it. I am in love with you Kim Taehyung." I hear gasps and I can tell Taehyung is speechless, when I was about to turn around and walk away Taehyung gets up and grabs my hand saying "I am in love with you too, Hoseok. I think your already know your answer by that." Before I am able to express my happiness (by screaming) Taehyung shuts me up by kissing me.

~Present Day~

I was so excited and content that he said yes and then he kissed me which blew up my feelings for him. I can still feel his lips against mine, his love for me through the kiss, and how everyone congrantulated us afterwards. Namjoon and Jin screamed out "Finally about damn time" and Yoongi patted me in the back saying "Good luck" and Jimin just screamed out in happiness and hugged both Taehyung and I. I couldn't help but let out a chuckle thinking back on that day. Afterwards Taehyung and I would go out to dates, pull pranks, and sometimes make out in front of people to see their disgusted faces or rarely amusing faces. 

So when did it all go wrong?

~9 Years Ago~

I am sitting in my couch watching TV thinking back on how Tae still thinks there are rabbits in the moon, I couldn't help but let out a chuckle. I can't help but feel fascinated on how his mind works probably that is why mostly everyone in my school says Tae and I are a cute, overly-excited, weird couple but alot of people find Tae attractive which gets me infuriated and jealous. Tae says that girls in his school find me hella attractive and he even admitted that he gets jealous but I told him I only have eyes for him which calms him down....for a bit.

I hear my famaliar ringtone (BigBang-Bang Bang Bang) I get up from my couch and go towards where my ringtone is at because I forgot where I put my phone. I ended up being in the kitchen and I go over to where I see it and hear it. I see the person that contacted me and it is Jimin. I unlock my phone and I ended up calling back to Jimin to see what's up or wrong because Jimin and I been getting close ever since Jimin introduced me to him. I admit I feel a attraction towards Jimin, I mean he is handsome, he has a cute face and has a amazing body and also his . I shake off my thoughts about Jimin and what brought me back to reality was a soft whimper and sniffles.

I am confused but then I hear Jimin saying "H-H-H-oseok?" I remain shocked for about 30 seconds because Jimin sounded so lost, confused, and so not the cheerful Jimin I know. I reply back saying "Yeah? It's me Chim...What's wrong?" I say with a soft voice. Jimin lets out a sob and says "C-Can y-ou pick m-e u-p-p?" I reply back saying "Yeah where are you though?" Jimin ends up telling where he is at which I couldn't help but be more shocked and confused because he told me that he is at a alleyway behind a strip club, that is not where my innocent Jimin would go at.

I get my car keys and go driving as fast as I can with my car and I wish it can go faster but the thing I don't get is why didn't he call Tae? Or someone else at least? While those thoughts in my head I couldn't help but think up preposterous scenarios about what happen to Jimin and as to why he sounded so lost. When I get there I get off my car as quick as I can and I see Jimin curled up and I hear sobbing coming from there. I go towards him and I walk calmly towards him and stop right before him and when I put my hand on his head he flinched away. I calmly say "It's alright Chimie Chim. It's me your J-Hope."  with a smile. He looks up at me relief but all I can do is stare at him emotionless because his face looks messed up like he got into a fight.

His lip is bleeding, his eyes are bloodshot, and he looks like a mess; his clothes are ripped and his face has blood and white stuff on it. I look at him and he is staring right back at me and says "Please don't tell no one, Hoseok. I trust you to keep this secret." All I can do is nod at him and give him one of my best smiles and say "I got you ChimChim besides that is what friends are for, no?" He smiles at me and says "Yeah" I ended up helping Jimin off the floor because he said his hurts and hips which I won't question til later.

~Present Time~

That was the moment I started paying more attention to Jimin than Taehyung because Jimin told me his story and I just wanted to be there for him more. Jimin and I got closer in which Taehyung didn't mind at first but then he started to get annoyed because each time he wanted alone time with me or go on a date with me I would always bring Jimin with us or I would decline so I could go hang out with Jimin. You can say that I started developing feelings for Jimin because I started to get to know the real Jimin but I am still wondering to this day why hasn't he told Taehyung and the other his story? I think he told Jungkook....I hope he did. Anyway, I didn't see it coming by that I mean when I had a very inimate moment with Jimin...

~9 years ago, 2 months after Jimin incident~

Today is Tae's and I two year anniversary alot has happen over the year one I found out Tae is probaly cheating on me, two I have develop feelings for his best friend Jimin, and three my own grandpa is about to die. I don't really like this year everything is going wrong I am in love with Tae but he played me, my grandpa the one person I am closest to is dieing, and Jimin the one that is going through alot worse than me and the one I am sure that I have a crush on.

I snap out of my thoughts when I felt my phone buzz since I barely got home from dance practice I unlock my phone and it reads 'Tae<3'. I answer my phone and say "Sup" Tae reply's with a whine and says "Hobi, why don't you call me Tae or my love anymore?!" I let out a fake laugh and say "Sorry but just tired and all." He exclaims and says"GUESS WHAT?!" I reply back saying "What?" He let out a 'hmph' and says "Did you forget what today is?" I think back and say "I don't know" Tae just lets out a 'mmm' and says "Okay...Welp make sure you have your door unlock cause I'm going to surprise you, okay?" I reply back saying "Please not today Tae. I am tired and sleepy another day, okay?" He lets out a dejected sigh and says "But Hobi today is-" I cut him out saying "Another day I swear I would make it up to you, okay? Now please let me rest okay?" He remains silent and says "Alright" and I let out a relief sigh and then I hear "I love you" I grip my phone and say "Yeah okay call you later" with that I hung up.

I didn't forget that today is our anniversary but I just can't deal with Tae right now I have too much up my sleeve. I take off my shoes and leave them in the living room and when I walk up the stairs I hear shuffling in my room. I raise an eyebrow and I raise up my fist even though I can barely fight. I look through the slightly ajar door and see Jimin playing videos games in my room. I let out a sigh and slam open my door and see Jimin jump up startled and I couldn't help but laugh at that. Jimin lets out a annoyed sigh and throw me a pillow whinig out loud saying "That I scared him and I gave him a heat attack" I laugh more at him and I go over where he is sitting at and I ruffle his hair saying "You scared me. I thought I was getting rob." with that him and I burst out laughing.

The remaining time we have left we just played video games and we flirted with each other even when I was thinking about Tae, Jimin would pop up and I couldn't help but smile at that. 

I have no idea how it happen but one minute we are playing video games the next minute we are faces and trying to get off all our clothes. Jimin looks absolutely beautiful, he is under me and his face is flush and his lips are more plumpy than usual, he looks wrecked and that is amazing because I have only kissed him and made hickeys here and there. I ended up ripping his shirt and I ped his jeans. He did the same thing to me. Now we are both but I couldn't help but let out a breathy "Beautiful" Jimin blushes and his whole body flushes up too. I do open mouth kisses down his chest and I look up at him and kiss him full force while tracing my fingers down his abs. I hear a moan coming from him but I swallow it up and I kiss down his jawline and stop on where his neck and collarbones are at and I give him more hickeys and I bit down softly on his beautiful skin.

I left bite marks and hickeys in his chest and waist line. I pull away and hear a whine coming from him and I let out a chuckle and I whisper in his ear saying "I like this submissive ChimChim" I bite down his ear and I hear a moan coming from him. I grab his and pump it and I feel Jimin shudder with delight and say "More" I kiss him softly and say "In a bit, sweet cheeks. I just want to enjoy this." Jimin lets out more whimes but I shut him up when I graze his tip and grabbed it harshly while kissing him. I pull back and flip Jimin on top of me and say "My turn for pleasure" Jimin nods with hazy eyes and he starts tracing my chest down to my baby abs then to my waist line and kissing it there. He pulls back and grabs my pumping it and I couldn't help but let out a grunt and moan because his hands are amazing.

Jimin stops and I let out a annoyed groan before I am able to get up Jimin grabs my that is covered with pre- and puts all of it in his mouth which I can't help but let out a satisfatying groan because his mouth is nice and warm. I couldn't help but think this is way better than when I had with Taehyung. I felt guilty about thinking like that and then I started feeling like an and douchebag because Tae loves me and here I am sleeping with his best friend. When I was about to tell Jimin to stop I look at him and I swallow those words down because he looks like a filthy beautiful dark angel, with his mouth full of my and has small tears shedding down his handsome face. All thoughts of Tae fly out of the window and all I am thinking about is Jimin. Jimin looks up at me and says "Can you pleasure me and turn me into a ?" I groan out loud because Jimin knows I love so I grab his hair harshly and say "Since you asked me so nicely I will fulfill your request."

Jimin moans out loud so I get up  letting go of Jimin so Jimin whines and he was about to ask me something but I shut him up by comanding him to get on all fours. He does as I said and I grab the lube from my drawer next to my bed and I squirt some in my left hand and put the lube in three of my fingers from my right hand and I say "Jimin I'm going to prepare you, alright?" He looks over his shoulder and nods his head. I see his hole closing in and out even when I have down nothing to it, I tease his hole and I hear a whine but without Jimin knowing I just shove my finger in his hole and he lets out a moan while saying 'More' I chuckle and I put my other finger inside and Jimin starts to move his because I haven't done nothing but leave them there.

I stretch his hole and I put in another finger inside and I hear a high pitch scream/moan. I hit is prostate which makes Jimn back arch and it curves beautifully if may add. I stop all my movements leaving my fingers there and I pull my head down next to his ear and whisper "I'm going in, Sweetheart" Jimin loves it when I call him pet names so since he did what I like might as well get even. I pull out my fingers and Jimin head falls into the pillows but his elbows are supporting him and also my left hand has. I put lube in my right hand and start pumping my with lube and before I can I stop and put my inside Jimin.

I hear an intake of breath and I feel Jimin shudder with delight. I ended up ing Jimin like this but then I told him to ride me. He rided me for about 15 minutes before we switched positions again, this time I am on top and JImin is in the bottom my name while his lages are wrapped around my waist and his arms wrapped around my neck. Jimin lets out a loud whiny moan when I hit his prostate again. I ed extra hard into him and Jimin cums while screaming out my name. I right after him and I am still inside of him after we are finish, I finally pull out and Jimin and I are exhausted and tired.

But all I can say is Best Ever....

~Present Day~

I feel gulity I cheated on him but also I feel disgusted with myself because Jimin body is delicious and more addictive than Taehyung and each time I think back on that day I can't help but love the thrill of it and how Jimin looked. I hate mysef because Taehyung loved me more than he loved himself and I played him like that no wonder he didn't believe me when I said I 'forgot' our anniversary.

I smile sadly when I think back when Taehyung broke up with me because not long after my grandpa died. I let tears run down my face because Taehyung was a angel and still is my angel but yet all of us ed him over. I wish I can go back and time and not do that with Jimin because a day later Jimin told me to forget about it which I agreed because I found out something...

I picked Lust and Pity over Love....

~8 years ago~

I have nothing to live for; Tae, my love, my light, my angel already left me and my only role model that I respect and loved me for who I am died which was my grandpa...

Tae must be happy without me....He looks good with blonde hair, I saw him when he was reading in a cafe. He looked so peaceful and plus Jimin told me he doesn't want us to talk to him. It's been a year since I have been single it's not my fault that I can't move on besides I was going to propose to Tae but again I ed up. I haven't told the guys on what Jimin and I have done... I doubt Tae even knew about my affair so that only means that he got tired of me and he doesn't love me like I love him. Jin told me to 'Go out, Have fun, Enjoy life' but how can I when I can't help but think about Tae and I can't even look at Yoongi, Jin, and Namjoon with guilt because if they knew I cheated on Tae they would abandoned me because they would know I am just as fault like Tae. I still don't know if it was my fault that Hyung's abandoned Tae or Tae just didn't want to be friends with them knowing that I am friends with them.

I grumble when I felt someone bumped into me, I was about to cuss them out when I see that it is Jimin. I sigh out and say "Sup Chim" with my signiture smile, Jimin smiles at me and says "Sorry for bumping into you" I laugh it off and say "No problem, anyway what are you doing here?" Jimin blushes and says "Ermm... Do you know Jungkook?" I nod my head thinking about the freshman in my dance class. I smile evily and say "OOOHHHH!!! Jimin you ~" Jimin blushes 10 times more and I can't help but laugh my off. Jimin starts explaining that ever since he saw Jungkook dancing he admire that but they have been talking for about nine months and he can't help but start having feelings for him. We started talking while walking and I couldn't help but about Jungkook, we stop in a park and sit down in one of the benches.

I get serious and say "You sure that your feelings aren't lust?" Jimin shakes his head and says "Nope, I have feelings for him for sure" I smile and say "Good 'cause you don't want to make the same mistake again" Jimin nods and says "Sorry" I shrug it off and say "About Jungkook, make sure to introduce him to hyung's 'cause if they find rumours about it, You my friend are screwed." Jimin smacks me in the shoulder and starts whining about it and says 'That I sould have his back' things like that.

~Present Day~

I laugh because Hyung's found out about it through rumours and they got mad at him but it was fake anger which I couldn't help but burst out laughing when I saw Jimin's face that moment. I let out a chuckle thinking back on that because afterwards Jimin introduced Jungkook to everyone and I couldn't help but think 'He looks like a bunny'.

After that whole ordeal about Jungkook, I finally started going out having one night stands but when Namjoon introduced me to Baekhyun I sorta freaked out and cried...

~7 years ago~

Namjoon and Jin said they wanted Yoongi, Jungkook, Jimin and I to meet two of their new friends that they made when they went to a party together. I was too busy playing video games with Jimin that I didn't notice Namjoon and Jin come in with their new friends. I finally stopped playing when I lost to Jimin and when I was about to tickle him Jin stopped us and said "Guys meet Chanyeol and-" I scream and point at the other dude that looks like Tae and I start crying while getting up saying "You aren't Tae", "Tae left me", and "GET OUT!!!" Namjoon and Jin start to calm me down and I can't help but cry more when Jimin starts hugging me. Yoongi starts explaining to the other dude that I just remind him of a ex and it didn't end well and Jungkook is confused but is listening to Yoongi because he doesn't know about Tae either.

When they finally calmed me down I sniffle and say "Sorry just you look like him alot" The Tae-look-alike says "No problem, by the way my name is Baekhyun and this is my boyfriend Chanyeol" they both shake my hand and I smile at them saying "Sorry if I freaked you out" there is silence but then Baekhyun says something that shocked everyone except probably Chanyeol "How do you know my second cousin?" Everyone stares at him but I break the silence and say "What?" Baekhyun then says "Wait! Are you guys talking about Kim Taehyung?" I nod my head while everyone but Jungkook nods their heads.

Baekhyun looks confused and says "What did TaeTae do?" I ended up telling him everything and I cried when I told him Tae's and our love story and how he cheated on me. Baekhyun looks more confused and says "TaeTae would never do that" he said that with a firm voice and Chanyeol agree's with him. Jin and Namjoon look at him and say "Obviously you don't know him then" Baekhyun glares at them and says "I sure as hell know him more then you guys for sure...Let me guess has he ever told you about his family or past?" Everyone is silent and thinking because Tae never mentioned his family or anything about him really.

I am confused because all I know about Tae is what he likes and dislikes but that's just it. Baekhyun looks at us and says "Thought so" with that he tells Chanyeol he doesn't want to be here and that he is leaving with or wihtout him. Baekhyun leaves but Chanyeol stays and says "Baek knows more than Tae then any of you and let me tell you Tae has been through moe than you bastards have been through it's just that you guys just see what you want to see" with that Chanyeol leaves........Leaving everyone thinking about what he said including me...

~Present Day~

I only paid attention to that for abut one week until Jin told me not to think about it too much because probably they were trying to pull our legs or something. 

Jungkook was confused so we told him about Taehyung and everything after about two weeks later. Jungkook was pissed off because he hurt me and he never seen me like that so he knew that Taehyung was a 'bad guy' but We were the bad guys without us knowing....

Jungkook suggested that we take revenge and Yoongi agreed so did Jimin... Jin hesitated but Namjoon made him join in on it and so did I.

~7 years ago, 1 month after Baekyeol fight~

Jungkook called us when we were in a arcade and said 'He bumped into Tae' and then he said 'Damn, he is handsome no wonder you dated him, Hyung' I scowled at that and said 'Revenge remember besided you have Jimin' Jungkook laughs and says 'Alright'.

Jungkook told us that he has Tae's number and that they are 'dating'. Jimin felt bad because that was his best friend and that playing with people's feelings alot but then we reminded him what he did to all of us so he encourge Jungkook more but then I remembered 'What did he do to the hyung's?' and 'Are we doing the right thing? I mean I cheated on him'.

Jungkook calls us and says that they are going to the park and he is going to act 'shocked' and 'annoyed' but then he said for us to argue so he could look defensive about Tae but then we are going to laugh about him and everything and tell him Jungkook never loved him and that Jungkook loves Jimin not him and that they are dating.

Things don't go as plan because when Tae see's us he greets us but then when Jungkook was 'Protecting him from us' he whispered something at Junkook and then left running.

~Present Day~

Ever since that day Jungkook was quiet for a month but then he got loud again. Everytime we try to ask him about it he avoided it. Everyone is curious about it but we let it go until Jungkook wants to tell us but lately Jungkook has been spacing out.

He told me something that shocked me...

~6 Years Ago~

I am sitting in my couch channel surfing until I hear my phone ringing my ringtone (BTS-Fire) I answer my phonw without checking the caller and say "Yo~" I hear silence until I hear Jungkook say "Can I come over? I have to talk to you" I reply back saying "Yeah, sure"

I wait for about a hour for Jungkook but then I think he probably isn't coming no more but then I hear the doorbell ringing so I go and check through the peep hole and see that it is Jungkook so I open it and see Jungkook look at me and then he says "Can I come in?" I nod my head letting him through then I say "You want anything?" He shakes his head and then he goes to my living room and I follow and there is a silence above us until he says "How do you know when you have fallen in love?" I raise an eyebrow at that and then reply with a smile saying "You know because when you are around that person the world fades and it's just you and that person and all you think about is them only them. You know what forget that I can't explain the feeling of love because it's a feeling that you can't explain with words. You can say it's something magical."

Jungkook nods his head silently still listening but then I say "Why you asking? Have you fallen hard for Jimin or what?~~~" I tease knowing the answer is 'Yes' but then I look at Jungkook and see another emotion and I know that emotion it's: Guilt. I look at him and shock and say "You fell in love with someone else?" I say with a serious face and voice. Jungkook doesn't look at me but then he says "You can say that but I do have feelings for Jimin but the other person makes me feel alive and I don't know loved? I don't know Hyung I am confused." I nod my head understanding where he is coming from then I say "Who is the person?" Jungkook finally looks at me in the eye and says "Someone that stold your heart too."

~Present Day~

 I remembered that day because I was the only one that knew about his feelings towards Taehyung. I did feel hurt, betrayed but mostly I accepted it because Taehyung is a person that can make you feel important but confused at the same time.  I chose to ignore what Jungkook said so I started having flings with random people and have no strings attached but then I started dating this person that really open my eye's that Love isn't over with but I would admit that it didn't feel like how I felt about him.

~6 years ago~

'I am 22 years old and my name is Jung Hoseok  and my major is Dancing' I write that down in a piece of paper before crumbling again and throwing it to my wall because here I am bored out of my mind while Yoongi is sleeping, Jimin and Jungkook probably at the gym, and Namjoon and Jin having . I scowl and get up from my bed and I head off to the park to cool of my head but for some reason I always end up bumping into people. This person and I collided and I said 'Sorry' but then I remembered 'This is how I meant Tae' I literally whipped my head and I see a different person which make my hopes go down the drain.

I see the person turn around and it's a guy but he is handsome, he has hazel eyes which I have not seen, is a forginer, his hair is brown, and his clothes are a bit messed up. I look at him and see his eyes aren't as warm as Tae's and his aura isn't as warm and gentle as Tae. I look at him and say "Sorry umm whoever you are. I wasn't paying attention to my surroundings." I bow and before I am able to leave the person grabs my arm and says "My name is Hanuel, what's your name?" I look at him then his hand and say "Hoseok, Can you let go of my arm?" He immediately lets go and says "I think you are my senior. I am a second year  here, I am 20 years old" I nod my head and smile at him saying "Cool, then I am your senior but you can call me J-hope or Hyung it doesn't matter" He smiles at me and says "Pleased to meet you Hyung"

~Present Day~

I smile at the memory and say "I had too much hope" Why? Well because when we started dating after a month I couldn't help but compare him to Taehyung and in my head and I felt so guilty because I am still hung up over Taehyung after so many year's. I did feel bad, eventually after two years Hanuel and I broke up because he said that "My body and mind say that I love him but not my heart" We became friends but we don't talk much because he said that 'He is in love with me and needs time' in which I complied.

I ended up doing one night stands again, they were great, they people that I slept with I ended up being called J-Hoe and Yoongi finally found his partner. I get up and start looking for my phone and I eventually found it. It was under my bed in which I have no idea how it got there. I ended up calling Namjoon and I hear the phone ring three times until I hear a "Hello?" I chuckle and say "It's J-Hoe" I hear Namjoon laugh a little then he says "What's up?" I answer back saying "How's Seokjin-hyung?" Namjoon sighs and says "His alright...Still a bit...you know" I smile sadly and say "Yeah...What about you?"

I hear silence and say "You are worse than him" I laugh trying to lighten up the mood. Namjoon gulps and says "I knew what was going on with Taehyung so did Yoongi...My mario princess sorta knew but I just shrug it off you know? I... j-j-ust can't believe his gone you know?" I can tell Namjoon is holding back his tears. I gulp holding back my tears to whispering "I know...I know but how did you find out?" Namjoon tells me that when he was walking back with Yoongi from their studio they saw Taehyung walking and he was bloody and had a gun with him but that he ignored them and that Yoongi and him were shocked as hell because they see a big group of guys following Taehyung while Taehyung was trying to put run them. I then say "It's not your guys fault....It's mine." Namjoon then says "It's all our faults...J-Hoe" I laugh bitterly and say "Mmm...Take care of Jin-hyung, alright?" Namjoon reply's back saying "Yeah got it....Take care Hoseok don't do anything stupid" I reply back saying "Yeah got you...See ya" Namjoon 'hums' and says "See ya" the I hung up.

~2 Years Ago~

Namjoon, Seokjin, Yoongi, Ilhoon, Jungkook, and Jimin are trying to get me out of my depression again. I thought of Tae again and my parents found out that 'I am a disgrace towards them because I am bi' and because 'I am a useless and worthless son'. I ended up being depress because everyone that I care about is mostly turning on me but except my group of friends, they are actually my family that would never leave me alone. I am happy but I am the only single one in the group so I bet they might get annoyed by me for trashing in on their privace and stuff. Jungkook and Jimin are surprisingly still together....I hope Jungkook realized by now that it was lust not love. Yoongi and Ilhoon surprisingly compliment each other like Ying & Yang. Namjoon and Seokjin are like a old married couple I swear they need to get married.

Right now my friends and I are watching a movie which is called 'Dark Skies'. I regret not listening to Jimin because this movie is freaking creepy it's about aliens which I did not know I thought it was about paranormal activity but it isn't surprisingly. I have my arms wrapped around my legs and I am curled up like a ball and have a blancket around me. Jimin has his face buried into Jungkook chest while Jungkook is flinching here and there. Namjoon and Seokjin are busy talking about Mario and Namjoon philosophy about Aliens.Yoongi is asleep while Ilhoon is scared as I am and has his arm tighly around Yoongi. I couldn't help but smile thinking that Tae and I use to do that and how Tae is a cute, sweet, and bubbly personality and his 4-D personality too.

~Present Day~

I got over my depression because my parents accepted me for who I am but I don't care because all I care about is Taehyung even when it was my fault as to why we broke up and everything. I wish that I could have seen Taehyung more but when I heard that he was planning on etting hitch I couldn't help but pissed off, sad, depress and I gave up on Taehyung well I didn't give up on him I was and still am happy that he was able to move on and stuff. I just had hoped that he ws still hung up on me so I can start all over with him but as people say....

Fate is full of surpries so does Destiny....

~One Month Ago~

All of us which are Seokjin, Namjoon, Yoongi, Ilhoon, Jungkook, Jimin, and I decided to enter this cafe that says 'The Roasted Bean' I laugh at that so does Jimin and Jungkook.

We walk inside and it was really cool and awesome becaus eit had this homey vibe to it and it has a very peaceful atmosphere. We ended up sitting in the corner of the cafe and I see a co-worker come towards us and says "Hi! My name is Alexa. I would be serving you guys so what would you guys like?" Namjoon looks at her and says "We don't have a menu yet" This lady name Alexa laughs and says "Silly me! Sorry about that. It's just we have been having alot of customers lately." She bows and go gets our Menu's but then Yoongi starts talking about Taehyung and then Namjoon joins in.

For some reason everyone starts saying bad things about Tae except Jimin, he just stays quietly the whole time but then he says "Guys can you shut up?" Jin starts scolding him but everyone is still saying bad stuff about Tae. Our waitress comes and hears part of our conversation and she laughs and says "WOW!!! You guys must really hate this guy" Everyone nods except Jimin. She whistles and then turns to Jimin saying "You don't hate him or what?" Jimin smiles sadly and says "He is misunderstood that's all" She raises an eyebrow at that and says "What's his name?" Yoongi reply's back saying "Kim Taehyung"

~Present Time~

Hell broke loose after that....Turns out Alexa knows Taehyung and she was about to beat us up but her co-workers were holding her back and she just kept on insulting us and stuff. After that Taehyung comes and he was confused for a little bit til he saw Alexa being held back. He took her outside out the back door but I was shocked so was everyone else but all of us were curious and angry too.

~A Month Ago~

Every single one of us had to go to a waiting room because the cops wanted to know what happen because Yoongi went into a hospital and why everyone was arguing.

Ilhoon went with Yoongi and he is crying alot so I went with Seokjin, Namjoon, Jimin, Jungkook, Alexa, and Tae. Alex and Jin got sent into a interragation room while the rest of us had to wait. I look at Tae with a hateful glare because he hurt someone I care about alot. I can tell everyone looks at him with hateful glares too. I see at the corner of my eye that Jimin is looking at Tae softly with a smile. I angrily scream at him screaming "WHY DID YOU DO THAT?!" Jungkook then starts cussing at him, I am demanding answers from him, and Namjoon is just glaring at him with a very much hateful glare because he was the most closest to Yoongi than any of us.

Everyone eventually calms down a bit but then we hear Jimin say "V...I'm sorry' then we see Tae looking at Jimin and then he laughs out bitterly at him but then Jungkook was about to say something but Jimin cuts him off saying "Sorry about Yoongi did....he he wasn't thinking, I am sorry in his behalf" Tae hums and then Jimin says "You didn't have to beat him up in a bloody pulp, you know?" Before any of us could protest Tae says "I didn't like on how Yoongi was talking about my soon-to-be fiance, my closest friend, my wife's best friend, and baby" Jimin sighs and says "That doesn't explain your actions and as to why you did it" Tae looks at Jimin dead in the eye and says "Let me rephrase that; I meant my dead soon-to-be fiance and my dead baby" Everyone freezes in shock and I couldn't help but cover my mouth, letting out a few tears.

Seokjin comes out crying hysterically and I see Alexa pissed off but all I can do is stare at Tae's emotionless face but then I see a little of curiousty in his eyes but that emotion vanishes like it was never there. I hear that Tae isn't charged nor does he have to do time. He nods his head and bows at the cop saying "Thank you" with his husky, deep voice. Before Tae and Alexa could leave Jin grabs his wrist and says "Oh my god Tae I'm sorry.....I am a bad hyung.....I know what you been through....Alexa told me....I'm so sorry....Hyung is sorry" Tae looks shocked but then he yanks his wrist off of Jin and turns over to Alexa saying "Let's go" he turns over to where Jin and says "I don't care"

That was the last time I saw him....

~Present Day~

I hear footsteps coming towards my room and I hear them stop right in front of my door then I hear knocking. I just stare at my door hoping it isn't one of the guys, I get up when I hear the third knock and say "I'm coming, I'm coming" I open my door and see that it is my mom. She smiles at me kindly but sadly and says "Dinner is ready." I just nod my head and when I was about to close my door, my mom stops me and says "Hoseok, I know you feel guitly and all but I want my happy son back, I really miss him and I want to help you bring him back but you have to help me out."

I nod my head solemnly and say with my eyes b with tears "I just want him back mom. I miss him sooo m-m-muchh and-" I couldn't hold back my tears nor ugly sobs that erupted from me. I put my hand over my mouth, letting out some tears, my mom puts her arm around me and says "We all miss him, Hoseok but we can't do nothing about it, we just have to move on and let fate take it's course."

I chuckle and say "Mom, I can't let it go. I have memories of him. I love him so much that I can't put into words." My mom soothe's me and says "It wasn't your fault, Hoseok. Things happen. I just think he was pressured with society and plus didn't you say his family died? I would think everything is over but-" I stop my mom by letting out a bitter chuckle saying "Mom, I barely found that out and I found out his soon-to-be-fiance died while pregant in a car crash, I found out he got by his own cousins, I found out he saw his own father being shot in front of him, I found out it was my own fault on why Seokjin, Namjoon, Yoongi, Ilhoon, Jungkook, and his best friend Jimin turned their back on him, I also found out that he knew about me cheating on him and that we played with his heart by making him think that Jungkook has feelings for him. So tell me mom how is that not my fault?"