Seventeen's Dormitory

JISOO's POV

I didn't expect that after 2 years of training to debut and after a year of promotion after debut. I will be leaving this room, this dorm, my members, my bestfriend and my love. I need to pack my things quickly. They're probably on their way going back here right now. I cant show my face to them, this swollen eyes of mine especially to HIM. I know he cant accept it. I know he will be mad at me. Before more rumours come out from the media I need to go back to my Home. My 1st comfort zone, L.A.,where my mom patiently waiting for my arrival. I know every persons who supports me will be disappointed of my sudden disappearance but i need to. I need to go,to protect him. I cant lose him because He is really special to me. But I need to go, for Him to breath.

I need to go now.

~Ding..dong...ding...dong~

"yah, soonyoung hyung.you dont need to doorbell..Jisoo hyung is inside remember", i just heard seungkwan telling hoshi. What would i do now. I just walk away or pass through them as is. That's right Jisoo. Your not Joshua anymore, you're back as Jisoo now.

After opening the door, i walk silently,looking down on the floor while carrying my things. I cant look at them especially to Him.

"hyung, where are you going?",called Mingyu. I couldnt talk. I cant response, not now, i just need to leave and suddenly i bump to someone, when i look up it's Him. My bestfriend and my love.

"Jisoo-ah what's the meaning of this? Why are you carrying your bag. Are you going somewhere?". I heard him, i saw his eyes piercing thru me but i cant talk.

"Cheol hyung, Jisoo hyung things were all gone in the cabinet. Hyung what's happening?" I heard Dino screaming from my back. Then i shift my gaze to Seungcheol. And then i turn my head to other side and continue walking straight to the door. And suddenly, someone was holding me in my arms.

" Jisoo-ah, dont do this. We can talk. If there's a problem tell us. We can help you. We are your friends. Come here for a moment," seungcheol said to me. I turned to face him. I look at his eyes. His crying. Not only him but all of them except my bestfriend who's currently looking at me and walking towards me. Now we were face to face. And i felt my face were hurting. He just slap me. I turned to look at him and now he's tearing. "Just go, if that what you want. All of you, dont force him to stay with us if he doesnt want to. You always go along of what he do right?. When he do that crazy dance of him, when he make a poem or freestyle rap you always applaud him and when he said he alright even though his hurting you'll always trust that side of him that his a gentleman. Then look at him right now. Leaving us huh.? Now you're all crying?," Jeonghan shout while looking at me..through the inner me..the inner part of hong jisoo.

Minghao come to my side and suddenly hug my right leg and then Jun came and hug the other one, then here comes Wonwoo holding my right arm whos holding my things. I have only my left hand free now. And then i saw Woozi came. "what is happening here? Jisoo hyung what is this?" while pointing on my luggage.
And then i saw dino and seungkwan crying on Vernon's arms. Seokmin were not smiling anymore as well as Soonyoung. The infamous soonseok couple are crying silently while holding each other. "Hyung, answer me" shout from woozi. I look at him and I said " I'm leaving for good." then he walk toward Seungcheol and whispered something. I cant hear it, i also was curious if he knew about it. Besides, of all the members, even though he lock himself in his studio. He is the one who knows all the happenings between me and the management. I almost forgot that he accidentally heard the last part of my conversation with the Vice president last night.

Suddenly, my left hand was hold by someone. I look at his direction and he looks sad, too sad. He is still look like an angel but full of sorrow. A sorrow cause by me. If only he didnt meet me. If only i didnt befriend of Him. If only I didnt have this feelings for me. This things cant be happening now. Maybe he would be with someone better than me. "DON'T LEAVE. I'M SORRY OF SLAPPING YOU A WHILE AGO. I'll be good now. I can wash the dishes, the clothes, i will learn how to cook and keep things right here on dorm. I wouldn't be lazy anymore. I just do what they ask from me. JUST STAY. Can you?" I really want to hug him. I really want to hold his face and clean off his tears. I really want to stay but I also need to leave for His on sake, for the sake of the group. I cant be selfish. I really need to leave them for now.

When i have my courage to turn. "Hyung, have this," Mingyu said while shoving a chocolate flavored pancake on my mouth. "its delicious right. I can cook pancake now like what you have teach me. Do you like this choco flavored pancake right now?" I couldn't even know now how to react. This tall guy who's always at my side all the time is doing all his might not to show his shock side and i didnt even remember how fast he cook this food from the time they went in. He look at me with his puppy eyes, waiting for my answer..all of them even the 2 puppies holding my legs and this another tall guy on my right arm. "yeah, of course its delicious" i said. "See, i knew it, he will like it" mingyu said it out loud. And now, Dino,Seungkwan and Vernon walked towards me while drying up their tears. Soonyoung and Seokmin look at each other and look towards me at the same time. Seungcheol then come to me and just game me a back hug and he whispered, "You can go but be sure to comeback, we will wait for your return." and then he loose his hug as i look at him. He walk and go to Woozi's side and both of them gave me a nod and a simple smile.

And then a warm hands was caressing my face now, drying up my face from tears. When i look back, its my bestfriend. "you know that i cant let you leave right?. But i cant go with you also, just stay..please," he told me while holding my face. I just gulp while looking at him. I cant be persuaded right now. "i need to go,just let me be," i said and remove their hands one by one. I just walked towards the door and close it slowly without looking at them. As i walked away, i heard a loud sound, a sound that looks like someone fall down and them a scream came afterwards. I look back. I rush back in and then I saw them forming a circle while looking at the ground, i gulp. What happening? Why it has to be now? And then I saw him lying in the groud,my bestfriend who just faint. I walked towards him. I scooped him up in a bridal style and walked pass through the door until i reach the elevator. I was perspiring too much maybe because the one i'm carrying is bigger than me and at the same time I'm nervous. I'm nervous that I'll be leaving Him on this kind of situation. Is this a sign already that i really couldn't leave him?

After rushing him to hospital and was assured that he was alright. I got a taxi and go to Pledis. I need to talk to him. Right now because I cant leave. I need to talk to my mom afterwards.

Knock knock..

After knocking and opening the door. I walk towards him. To the CHAIRMAN, Pledis President. "Dad, i can't leave like this. Can't we think of other reason for me not to go back to States. My friend is in the Hospital right now because of me," i said to him while kneeling on the floor. He got up from his chair and walk towards me. He slowly help me getting up and hug me. And he said, "I'm waiting for you to tell me that you cant leave but i didn't expect that it wasn't for the reason that you cant leave me. That precious child, do you really care for him to be this way son?" I just nod and look at him. And then he told me, "then help me to explain it to your mother tonight. You just need to go back to your members right now and nurse your BF right Jisoo?".."Dad, it wasnt like that,BF?",wait what? I'm not blushing in front of my father right?.."Then i'll take my leave then." I bow again and hug my father and before I leave, he said to me, "Don't worry about the PRESS and MEDIA, it wasn't your fault to be my SON. I think it is also the right time that the world will know that you're the President Son and Descendant of a the previous King. I know you're mother will understand. You suffer to much. You'll now free BUT JISOO don't forget to Thank Him everynight," while pointing his hands upwards. I just smile and nod to him before I go.ï