How should I explain this. . .

For the past few days that we’ve been going back and forth to Daegu, begging the Kang’s to let Iseul see her dad, sometimes staying there even if we’re just outside. . .

It has been hard for me and harder for Iseul.

I wish we only succeeded much earlier.

Much earlier than now that. . . Again, this is one of the seldom moments that I get speechless.

I do not know what to really say. . . or how to react. . .

They finally agreed on the fourth day. . . They might have finally let Iseul see her father but. . .

That is only because he’s already greatly critical, has been having complications and his heart is not going great at all. The doctors have decided with the family about putting Mr. Kang’s ventilator down. The only machine that keeps him alive because. . . that is the only way that they could do. . . to finally give him rest. Some peace. Although it is indeed a very depressing situation which I am greatly open-minded about. . .

I just wish Iseul was given much longer time, I wish they just let her devote those last precious days with him. Not just. . . the few hours left. I can’t explain how I am precisely feeling right now but all I could comprehend is the pain that Iseul’s pain is giving me. All I ever wanted to provide her