The Desire to Live

Promise
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Jaehwan dreamt of fire and fear, the world spinning around him as he was cast into water, drowning, pulled under by a force he wasn't strong enough to fight. It didn't stop him from trying, though, struggling against the current of his dreams and the hell that he fell into each time he slept. And yet this time, the thump of footsteps intruded, the sound shaking the image of water and the feeling of drowning away. 

Jaehwan groggily blinked his eyes open to find a sailor leaning down over him. "Hell o' a catch we got," he grumbled, poking into Jaehwan's side with his bare toes and making the other curl away from the touch. Not that he could go far, with his wrists chained to the thick post that stood in the middle of the hold.

The sailor's ugly face, with a nose broken far too many times and a large scar across his forehead, twisted as he grimaced at Jaehwan. He spat at the prisoner in disgust and moved away, muttering about worthless scrawny prisoners, and went back up the stairs. His departure left Jaehwan once again alone in the dank and dark room, with the stench of mildew filling his nostrils.

It was a ship that he was confined to, a ship that swayed constantly with the waves. At first Jaehwan had worried that the barrels and crates stacked against the sides of the room he was chained in would come crashing down on him due to the sea's swells. It wasn't until after the first storm that he realized that they were tied to the walls of the ship, secured so as not to spill their precious cargo, and he had been able to breathe a sigh of relief. At the very least, his fate wasn't to be squashed in the middle of a cargo hold on a slaver's ship.

Now if only that sailor had brought him something to drink. Just as that thought crossed his mind, his stomach grumbled pitifully, a small reminder that he had not eaten in several days. His captors had tried to feed him in the first few days after his capture, but his stomach - unused to the roiling sea - had been unable to keep it down. The constant scent of filth and rotting fish rising from below the floor that he sat on did nothing to help settle his stomach. The raiders had finally stopped trying to feed him solid food after the third time he heaved it up, and now only brought him either water or a bland broth. And never enough of either one.

Oh how he missed his home. Just the thought of the small village that he had grown up in was enough to bring tears of despair to his eyes. No, he would not shed them, he wouldn't give his captors the satisfaction, but the knowledge that he would never see his family again was heavy in his heart. He didn't even know if they had survived the raid in which he had been captured! All he knew was that something had happened to cause the sailors to be angry, and he was, oddly enough, the only captive they had taken. Their small village had suffered raids in the past, though the last one had been over a decade prior, but usually at least four villagers were hustled off to be sold as slaves in some other country.

And now Jaehwan was the only one.

He was actually happy that no one else would share this dreadful fate, but at the same time he almost wished that he had someone to talk to. Someone to confide in, to try and understand and cope with this new life he had been handed. He was a simple butcher's boy, the third child out of four, with a loving father and the promise of a business inheritance. They weren't big dreams, but they were dreams nonetheless, and they were ones that he had held onto firmly.

Yet now he would be sold, at some market in one of the far away lands that still accepted slaves. He didn't know a lot about the world, but he had learned to read at his mother's knee and he had studied what he could from the few books the mayor owned... and would let a precocious, often too-loud boy of ten borrow. He had learned that the country in which his little village lay was called Arisan, and that it was ruled by a King - which when he began working for his father's shop he learned all about taxes and calculations, even though the King's money was never gathered. And he knew from the books that Arisan did not allow slavery, but some country - whose name he could not remember - to the west not only allowed but encouraged it. So he was likely headed west, across the Teren Sea toward a life worse than death.

A glance down at his chest showed that his necklace was still there, though the simple design carved on a fish bone was surely not worth anything to anyone except him. He could be glad for that; besides his plain leather boots, once white shirt, and sturdy brown pants, the necklace was all he had left of his family. His younger brother Jaebum had carved it for him, an artist's talent in the young boy that he had been. He was now already into his second decade... if he was still alive, anyway. Jaehwan was only a year older but he had always been taller and thinner than either of his two brothers, and he towered over his sister and her husband. He towered over most of the villagers, actually, earning the jokes of many of his fellow villagers for his height.

"Please be okay," he murmured. His hope was meant for all of his family, not only his little brother, as well as the rest of the villagers he had grown up alongside. Folding himself forward, he caught the necklace in his hands, bound as they were, just so that he could have something of home to ground him. His wrists were rubbed raw from the manacles there, the chain attached to them heavy and wrapped several times about the post so that he could only barely bring his hands together. For comforts sake he had positioned himself facing the post, straddling it with his long legs and letting his hands rest on his thighs, but now he simply bent with his head pressed against the sturdy wood and his hands in front of him. 

Steps on the stairs along the side of the room brought his head up, and he shoved his necklace back through the laces of his filthy shirt before letting his hands fall to his legs once again. He didn't want them to know

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DGNA_Forever
#1
Chapter 17: I'm really glad that thing turned out well and also that Krystal and Jaehwan did fully fall in love with one another. I could see it happening the entire time, and the way you wove their relationship was absolutely beautiful. I really liked this story and the adventure it offered, and I hope you had as much fun writing it as I had reading it. Now I'll need to read The Depth of Reason;).
DGNA_Forever
#2
Chapter 17: I'm really glad that thing turned out well and also that Krystal and Jaehwan did fully fall in love with one another. I could see it happening the entire time, and the way you wove their relationship was absolutely beautiful. I really liked this story and the adventure it offered, and I hope you had as much fun writing it as I had reading it. Now I'll need to read The Depth of Reason;).
DGNA_Forever
#3
Chapter 13: I'm glad they were able to find Yunho, but I feel so bad for him. I hope he'll make it, for his and also Jessica's sake. Also, I guess I've now seen someone that will pull emotion out of Joe. Now I hope Krystal and Jaehwan can catch Changmin before it's too late.
DGNA_Forever
#4
Chapter 11: First of all, with the last chapter you really know how to write a good battle scene. It was very intense.

Now onto this chapter. The pain and anger that the crew and princesses felt was very real and it left me almost emotional, especially when it came to Daniel's death. He was such a good man, and also so brave. I hope that Jaehwan won't carry the guilt for too long, especially since this wasn't actually his fault. Now I also how everyone will be okay and get through this okay.

That fiery being was very well written and I could imagine it well as I was reading about it, so good job. I'm glad it did accept the fallen into the afterlife.
DGNA_Forever
#5
Chapter 8: Okay! I thought they might be princesses from the way they were revered by the crew and with such high respect. I also quite enjoyed the way you explained about the world and how they are trodden on and ignored by King Sooman. This chapter really answered some questions and put things into perspective, so thank you for that. But now I'm worried about Jaehwan and Krystal's friendship, so I hope that doesn't change.
DGNA_Forever
#6
Chapter 4: I like this story so far. I do hope that Jaehwan will learn to trust them and know that they're concerned about taking care of him, instead of treating him the same way the slavers did.
gaksitalGaksital
#7
Chapter 17: Okay I've caught up with this story and I just have to say WOW, I really liked it. If I had to pick between other stories, I'd say my favourite story of all time will always be Cursed, and I've really loved Depths of Reason too. I will reply to your reply soon enough one day! So, this makes me sad as now I've totally caught up with every story from Myths of Calceryn. Hence, I will go and search for other stories I can read off you in the meantime!

So back to Promise -- I really liked the ending, and King Sukjin proved that he was a just man. As for Krystal and Jaehwan, I thought that was a brilliant wrap up to their bonding. Jaehwan really cares about her but I got a bit emotional when Krystal delivered him his father's message. I think no matter what, Jaehwan really wants to go home -- maybe this will change in future chapters but for now, no matter where he goes, he will always want to return back to his family. Changmin deserved what got to him but I can tell from his POV that he was just doing the best for his country. Unfortunately, he was young and foolish and shouldn't have put politics into his own hands.
Now then, it appears that Sohee got something important -- it is the dang scroll about the dragons I just know it! I had a look a the timeline and noticed that Promise occurs before Depths of Reason, so I think Sohee has been called to discuss the plot. I'm glad Jaehwan will get to experience some more adventures with Krystal but this does come to the question -- will he bump into Leo and Joy on the way considering they are also crossing Noria?

Now, it was mentioned that Sohee saw an Elemental's touch on Jaehwan. I think this was the Elemental that Leo summoned in Cursed, rather than Jaehwan having any magical capabilities. I understand what you mean that it's hard to fill in the background of what's going on when you have a character who's not involved in the politics. It's nice in a way and Final Fantasy 12 does that too -- have an ordinary guy get caught up with people involved in politics. I can't help but wonder how the story would have turned out if it was from Krystal's POV. i feel like there I would have experience so much more as a reader.

But otherwise, brilliant story as always Tigress. You never fail to impress me and leave me at the edge of my seat! Myths of Calceryn have a special place in my heart :)
gaksitalGaksital
#8
Chapter 13: Welp, Siwon surprised me too!! I didn't think he'd actually be a thoughtful guy, but damn, so Eldresan had nothing to do with this at all? Now I'm fishy about Kelsar! I guess we will find out about Changmin's true motives when he's caught and brought to justice. This is getting so intense. I just want to keep reading the next chapter eventhough it's so late T.T
gaksitalGaksital
#9
Chapter 12: Did I just see Changmin there in the story!? Okay, I'm super curious to know what role you've given my bias xD In any case, it seems like he's definitely an antagonist in this story if he's escaping the city. I should add that Eric and Victoria probably feel a lot of burden if they since they are the next to take over the ship now that Daniel's gone T.T

As much as Jaehwan's lining the pieces seemed plausible. I think the Tower they are speaking of is the one where the Magicians strut their stuff in. Interesting to see that the Elementals are more than just summons. It seems that they are the energy of the planet: wind, water, fire, air and I'm guessing you might put in spirit or ether if we're going with the Greek Elementals. I like it! Yunho T.T Go get him ladies!

I'm curious as to why Changmin is in all this? It really is a delicate situation as Krystal puts it. Surprising still, he didn't kill of Yunho so he must also be aware of the cracking politics. I sort of like that you made the main character of this story a clueless lad from a village, and who was spontaneously saved from a slave ship. I feel so bad for Jaehwan at this point, but I can't help wonder if he has a role other than being the clueless village boy. Everyone else is so integral to this world, even Joe (who seems to be warming up to Jaehwan).

Oh wait, the tower really is Changmin's tower! You had me there :O Joe seems like he's on edge. He's just so angry about what's happening to his Prince. what a loyal guy to the end. I underestimated him. I sort of like the loyal guys. Poor Jaehwan -- we know clearly well who wears the pants in this ship xP
Eh? Siwon!? Damn you're really surprising me with these cameos haha. In any case, I never trusted Siwon in any stories xD But his clothes sound weird. I can't remember if I read about those robes anywhere else but I've a feeling he might be a Magician? And how the hell did Changmin burn down a whole tower made of stone!? He must have some wand at his disposal or something that powerful.

Siwon is slimier than I thought! Not sure if I will trust him. There's something very off about him. My gang better watch out! But his words leave a chill. What things is he talking about? I can't help but feel like it goes back to that Emperor with the dragons in Obarsan -- the name of his country eludes me. But damn, Changmin had some nerve! I dislike him already and he hasn't even made an appearance yet >:(
gaksitalGaksital
#10
Chapter 11: Wait what!? Not Daniel! :(( I feel so empty inside. Who will say "Jaewan" now. I can tell things are getting serious, really serious. All the initial banter and good will is gone. The question is, what and how? Who led the ambush? How did they do it? Is there a traitor on board? It's like these guys KNEW when and where the Lion Heart would be.
Interesting bit of law there. I like how you added that aswell to the worldbuilding!
Ah, so that was where Jessica was, and also Sohee. That explains why they were away from the battle. At first, I thought that Sohee would only fight based on her orders from the Tower. But her reaction to Daniel tells that she really considered him as a friend at the least. :(

I just want to protect Jaehwan right now! It wasn't his fault what happened to Daniel. In the bigger picture, he saved the rest of the crew because he woke up :(

That ending gave me chills. Didn't think Magicians would have that much power. She must be very powerful. I'm also intrigued by the ritual? Did she call upon a being that takes away the bodies of the dead? Was it a cremation? I really want to know!