A/N I do not know how to feel about this story. I have been avoiding this subcject until now, as I feel like it might be quite hard for me to write about it. But something [a particular story I read and a conversation with someone] triggered me to give it a go. I never wanted to write about such topics, as I felt they were too much of an "attention seeker" sign. But maybe they are not. I don't know.

Do not expect fluff, flower!crown xiuchen, or anything like this. I am going to keep this story as down to earth and close to truth as I can - the basis of the plot is a true story. The background of course will be imagined, the set of the story, the characters. But the story has its roots deep in real life, and I would like you to keep that in mind.  

Please, keep all this in mind, while creating your judgement and opinion about characters, their choices, or the author in general.

Please, everyone, stay safe and take care of yourselves.

Trigger warning! To be honest I myself do not know which aspects may exactly be tiggering, but please remember about this. I do not want to risk anyone's well being. I could not mark the tigger warning without marking the story as rated M, and then only subscribers and members would ahve access, and this is not what I am aiming at, so forgive me. 

I would love to say that this story has a deep meaning with a happy ending, but the truth is, I do not know the ending to this story... not yet at least... so I cannot tell you. I am sorry.