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*** I found myself dreaming again, another dreams about the night of the ambush which quickly lapsed to the night they broke my heart as well as my new found trust. The same circle repeated again and again and again until I finally snap my eyes open with a gasp, sweat covering my body making the thin silky nightgown I wear uncomfortably stick to my skin. Even after I ran away to another realm it still haunts me, hurting me like crazy,
Deciding that I wont be sleeping again for awhile now, I climb down from the bed, tip toeing and get the night robe that laying on the bedroom bench, trying to not waking the sleeping jaguar that curled on top of it as I stared at him. Nox get smaller and smaller now, I’ve been skipping my meal and refused all the offer that my butler gave me. A confused looking young werewolf that goes by the name Kim Yugyeom. Poor boy, he’s from a lower ranked pack and my grandmother thought that he’s not worthy enough to be put in the guard line and assigned him to me, to be my personal life source. I remember how he quivered under the strong façade he tried hard to out on when he reported to me, I refused his offer kindly, catching him off guard, as replacement, I told him to find bloods transfusion for me. He looked surprised then but now that he served me for days, he actually get used to it,
Whispering an apologize, I ran my fingers through the jaguar silky fur, making the feline purr from my touch, I smiled then pull away and turn to exited the room,
I tracked the usual route towards the south wings of the palace, where I always came to every day I woken up from the dream and push the majestic stained glass open, the red angel split open showing me the gloomy light of the day, its always so gloomy here, even during the day, the Empress shadows blocked the light as always and the cold instantly engulfed me. As a reaper cold is like my friend since I was born but my shadows never cast the cold as strong as this, the difference between our power is so visible,
“thought you’d be here”,
At the velvet like voice, I turn my head to look at the intruder and smiled, “what are you doing here, Sehun”, the said boy chuckled as he stand beside me, leaning on to the balcony as I did and looking around, humming,
He stopped to look at me “what are ‘you’ doing here?” he ask back, emphasizing his question and I roll my eyes, “what? I cant walk around as I please now?”, he chuckled again before turn his attention back towards the tall tower in front of us, the main reason why’d I always come back here every day,
“you were always came here this past three days, I first notice you when I take my patrol around the castle” he answered lightly, eyes still glued to the tower. I take a side glance at him and for the first time, noticed that he fully dressed, unlike me who clad only in a thin night robe and gown, I smiled, resting my chin on top of my opened palm and tilt my head a little,
“bad dream” I said shortly and he hummed, “want to share?”,
I shake my head no, smiling slightly as I refused his offer and he understand, shrugging his broad shoulders lightly at my silent answer as we stood there in comforting silence until he finally straighten his back and peel of his jacket to clung it onto my light covered body “at least dress properly if you decided to walk around outside” he reminded as I jut my bottom lip out, “yes oppa” I said back mockingly and he laughed at the way I call him. I’ve never call him that until now and I could say he likes it by how the happy glint flashing through his eyes,
“don’t get use to it” I fake hissed and he laughed even more before we once again fall into a silence,
“I should say I’m surprised” he said all of sudden and I tilt my head to him without looking away from the tower,
“I’m surprised that you haven’t ask to visit the tower yet, I’m sure you know who imprisoned in that tower by now, do you?” he continued and I turn my attention fully at him now, concealing any emotion from my eyes as I stared back,
“is that so?” I answered flatly, looking back at the tower as I did so and I saw Sehun roll his eyes from the corner of my eyes,
He gruffed “please, spare me the bulls, I knew KyungSoo hyung has told you about who is locked away in a tower and JongIn told you about that our mother is still very much alive, the Empress only killed her Soul seeker and I know you are not an idiot so I’m sure you’re able to pull the string together and guessed right” he chattered, nagging me like a bossy old lady by the sassy way he talk,
I shrugs “I don’t know”, he start to open his mouth again at my answer but I cut him even before the first word spilled out of his mouth, “I don’t know if I’m ready to meet her” I continued, turning my full body to face him now as a deep from engraved on my forehead, his posture softened at the sight and sighed,
“I’ve been mourning for her all my life and now I’ve told that she’s alive, well, half-alive and that my own grandmother who put her in that state, I mean, can you see? I’m lost Sehun”, Sehun tightened his lips at my distressful words and reach out to pull me into a side hug, running a calming hand up and down my forearm,
“its alright girl, its alright, don’t push yourself, I’m just asking” he muttered, I sigh heavily as I tilt my head and lean on his chest, letting the silence befallen upon us once again before decided to break it “but still, I think you have the point though,” I said finally and even without lifting up my face to look at him I could say he lift one of his eyebrow at me, “I did?”,
I nods and pull away to look at the tower, couldn’t even mask the longing feeling anymore as I whispered “I should pay our mom a visit soon”.

 

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Yoongi skipped lightly on his feet, pocketing his hands as he climb the stone brick stairs before pull one of them out of his pocket to push the double grand door of the Min’s manor open and he instantly greeted by the hollowness of the huge place, no warm welcome, no greetings. Nothing,
He sighed. What’d I expected?, he chuckled humorlessly and began to proceed upstairs towards his quarter before a peculiar sounds heard when he passed his father’s study room and he freeze on his track, fists clenching tightly on his sides as he tried hard to control his anger, to stop himself from bursting inside the room and did something he regret,
“oppa?”,
Yoongi snapped from his trance and look up,
A familiar gummy smile greeted him and Yoongi felt like he just got pulled from a burning water as he rushed forward and kneeled in front of the girl, cupping both of her tiny hands inside his bigger ones, her wheeled chair stopped right as soon as his knee touch the wooden floor. Min SaeRa grinned widely,
“I thought I smelled you” she said happily and Yoongi grinned back, showing her the same half moon eyes and gummy smile,
“hi girl, I just in my way to your room”, the girl laughed, “ liar, you’re on your way towards your room”,
Yoongi stared at his sister lovingly, reaching out to her head before another scream from his father’s study ruined the siblings moment and Yoongi cursed under his breath, stealing a glance towards his sister as she maintained her smiles but even he could see the tip of her lips quivered slightly. He exhaled gruffly before rise on his feet and circled the wheel chair then turning it around to push her towards her room,
SaeRa smilled as she let her brother slip his arms beneath her knees and back, carrying her towards the large bead and put her down, staying on the side as he kneeled, distant looks on his face,
“I should have bring you to live with me in the palace” he grimly stated, SaeRa puffed her cheeks,
“you should stop worrying about me so much” she stated back casually with a shrugs and Yoongi snapped his eye to look up at her in disbelief, making the girl giggled at her brother expression, “you’ll age faster, if you age faster then you’ll be bald, and after you became bald old man your mate would left you and focused on her other younger mates, you wants that?” she winked, giggling at her own imagination and Yoongi couldn’t help but sighed in defeat while she giggled non stop. He couldn’t get his sister’s jokes sometimes,
Shaking his head with a little smile tugging on his lips he wait for her giggle to stop and asked “something happens while I’m gone?”,
SaeRa shakes her head, smiling “he only bring two girls yesterday, lesser today” she answered, her innocence radiated through her and Yoongi could just smile in irony, his sister’s too innocent to talked about how many woman their father brought to his chamber. He hates it, he hates how she have to witness all of this, he hates how their mother left them like this. And what he hates the most was, how their father bring a woman into his room every day -different woman- only a few hours after he buried his wife,
Yoongi only fifteen that time and SaeRa at the age where she just learned how to walk when he knew of his father affairs and they quickly got into an argument, not knowing that little SaeRa watching them from the stairs with tears soaked face, watching them yelling to each other while she cried, she knows nothing that time, all she know that her older brother and her papa was not happy, and she hates to see they unhappy so she tried to draw their attention, trying to make they smile as she dance, hopping on her little feet awkwardly, they always smile when they see her dancing but no avail they not even looking at her, she grew desperate and start wobbling towards the stairs and cried, the two doesn’t even notice until a cry of pain heard from the stairs and SaeRa laid there, on the bottom of the stairs unconscious. The little girl could never dance again
“you sure you don’t want to move in to the palace with me? We have plenty unused room, the others would be happy too” he practically begged this time and SaeRa smiled as she shakes her head,
“I’m not leaving him, oppa,” she answered stubbornly, Yoongi growled,
That again!, she always said that!
SaeRa sighed, reaching up to tug on her brother’s wrist “you know that he’s lonely, oppa, I couldn’t leave papa like that, believe it or not, he misses mama as much as we do, its just his pride that makes him do otherwise” she reasoned softly and Yoongi stared back at the girl,
And he hates it how she much more of an adult than he is. He felt like a child sometimes compared to his own sister way of thinking. When he ran away, couldn’t even stand his father behaviors, she stayed, acting like a bridge for the two hard headed men. He just couldn’t comprehend how in the world this tiny girl shouldering all of this,
Shaking his head tire