*living as a girl*

My alarm is ringing hella loud and I am waking up in no time, throwing my blanket away like it is a disgusting cover or something. I am all sweaty and breathing heavily. Was it all just a dream? A nightmare?

I am grabbing my chest to check up on my body and damn it! I am still a ing girl! No way! NO! HELL NO! Why?! Why me? What did I do wrong? I have been a good boy my entire life! Please Lord, let me be me again!

Mithra is waking up too and tilting his head. He is looking at me with a questioning expression. Even my dog needs to get used to me being like this.

Damn it! What do I do? I… I can’t live like this. I think I am going to bury myself in our great maze in the backyard. No one will ever find me there.

“Right Mithra? It is the best if I vanish…”, I am whispering to my dog and he is instantly barking twice.

I know he would knock me down right now, but I am still on my bed and he never steps on it. My well-educated giant dog...

I took a shower in the dark of course and am wearing my old stuff. So what? I am a boyish girl. I like this style of myself. I am not going to wear these cheap s! No way!

I am walking down to have breakfast, Mithra is accompanying me, but the table isn’t set yet. What is this? Are my servants asleep or what?!

“Yah! Where the hell are you all?!”, I am calling for the maids, but no one is appearing.

Where the hell are they? I didn’t give them a day off! If they keep it like this, I am so going to fire them all!

“Young master, you are not allowed to talk like this!”, Lady Soo Ae is ordering me as she is walking into the dining room, “I thought we learnt it already, but I guess it will take a lot longer for you to get used to it.”

Get used to my ! I am not going to behave like a goddamn girl!

“Where are the servants?!”, I am asking her in rage and lifting my chin to show her who the boss is.

The head of the maids remains calm as usual and is shaking her head negatively.

“These things don’t suit a girl, young master.”, she is telling me and waving her index finger from left to right, “You look like a tomboy.”

And you look like my . Damn it! I am a boy!

“Where is Tablo?”, I am continuing with my questions, while grabbing my rubbish schoolbag.

Lady Soo Ae is shaking her head aga