*misunderstood as a girl*

Taeyang is angrily pulling me away from Jay and pushing him aggressively against his wardrobe.

“Did you just kiss her?!”, my best friend is yelling at 2PM’s leader, “Are you nuts?! Do you wanna die?!”

I am standing still and watching these guys quarrel over my mistake. Yes, it is my fault. How could I become like this? A girl… Chaelin… Someone who nearly made love with some other guy…

I… I am still Jiyong. Am I?

“Oi, get your dirty hands off me!”, Jay is ordering kinda pissed, “She ain’t your girlfriend, right? She is precious to me! Stop judging my behavior, because bloody-girl wants to kiss me.”

WHAT THE HELL IS HE TALKING ABOUT?! Taeyang's girlfriend?? UUUUUUUGGHHHHH! Idiot! What is going on?! I do not want to kiss this idiot! HELL NO! I don’t wanna see him again! He should just disappear! And I ing should become a ing boy!

Taeyang is letting go Jay and turning around, looking at me utterly shocked.

“Is he for real? You want to kiss him?!”, he is asking me in a disgusted way, “Are you dating him?!”

He seems sad and mad somehow.

Oh Lord, I am so sorry… I never wanted things to become like this. What is my sin? Why do I have to live through this? This ing curse! UGH, I wanna crawl into a hole and cry out my eyeballs.

I am not even able to answer my best friend. I am just standing there and trembling. My whole body is shaking and I feel it coming. The tears…

“Taeyang, we are not dating.”, Jay is butting in while having a glimpse on me, he must have noticed my tears, “Don’t yell at her… Why is this bothering you so much? Do you perhaps have a crush on her?”

What an absurd question!

I am clenching my fists and swallowing my anger, yet I feel so eased because he is trying to protect me. Again. Just like he has done in school…

“Tch… No way! I don’t have a crush on Chaelin!”, Taeyang is answering right away, “But she is GDragon’s girl!”

W-H-A-T?!

NO! Things are getting more complicated! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHH! HEEEEELP!

Jay is raising a brow and tilting his head, looking straight at me. He seems disappointed much. Wait, is he hurt?

“Well, I didn’t know about that.”, he is saying in a sour-tempered, grumpy mood.

Jay is pushing aside Taeyang, bumping into my shoulder and leaving the room with hasty steps.

Yes, he is hurt.
Wait… I wanted to destroy 2PM, so the leader being all depressed now is a great start, right?
But why do I feel awful about it?

Jay left Taeyang’s place and my best friend went to sleep right after the incident. He did not want to talk to me anymore. At least for today…

I am lying on the bed, that I am always offered to use when I am at Taeyang’s.

Well… I am staring at my phone. It seems like hours have passed. I am waiting for a message f