Sungmin still visits Kyuhyun in the hospital, he couldn't last a day not wanting to see whether he is ok or not. He would
contain himself from looking at him from the glass door of his room. At times, sleeping, at times just lying down smiling at
the nurse and playing with him. Sungmin could just look down and watch his lover smile from afar. How could he smile at a
stranger and cannot even dare to look at him? How could a simple nobody can be this close to Kyuhyun when he, the patient's
lover, couldn't even walk through this door to see him? Ryeowook is just a nobody, a simple nurse, someone who has to watch
over the patient and report to the doctor every now and then. He, Sungmin, is a lover; someone who has to stay with him, look
over him, make him smile, make him feel better...
Sungmin closed his eyes... right now, the Kyuhyun inside that hospital room is not his Kyuhyun.

He would stay in the rooftop of the hospital after watching Kyuhyun. He would look very far and would think of what he can do
so that the young man would not blame him for the accident. But aside from watching from afar, what can he do? He is someone
who has been forgotten... someone who was pushed away.

One day, as he stayed in the rooftop, he saw Kyuhyun opening the door of it and walking on his own. He smiled with the thought
that Kyuhyun can walk properly now. He is getting better, physically. He looked down after he met the eyes of his lover.

Kyuhyun looked away looking very irritated after seeing Sungmin's face, but he still walked forward and sat beside the man he
doesn't wish to see at all. Maybe seeing this irritating Sungmin is better than always staying in that boring room.

"I thought I asked you not to come here again." he asked.

Sungmin looked down and sighed. "I didn't bother you at all from what I know. So please don't stop me from even staying in here
at the rooftop. Maybe you can stop me from seeing you... but even I cannot stop myself from caring about you."

"Are you really my lover?" Kyuhyun asked curiously. "Because I cannot feel anything for you. Whenever I see your face, I
will always remember that I am here because of you... and saving you for no damn reason at all."

Sungmin could just look down and swallow what the young man said. His eyes are becoming teary but he blinked gently so as they
could go back to where they came from. Kyuhyun just chuckled and sighed deeply as he casually said...

"I don't think I want to look back anymore." Kyuhyun continued. "I'm quite satisfied that I can remember what I need to remember,
at least." he chuckled as he looked down. "I'm tired forcing myself to remember someone who seem not to exist in my poor
and damaged memory."

Sungmin sighed deeply, biting his lips so as not to free any sound or cry.

"Stop coming to this place again. I will be checked out in a week, stop wasting your time on me." Kyuhyun said and stood up,
turning his back on Sungmin and started walking.

Sungmin bit his lips one more time before standing up and looking at Kyuhyun's back. His eyes, his voice, his heart are all
doing their best to stop the tears from falling.

"You were the one who told me to cross the line. It was you who told me not to let go of your hand. You gave me a puzzle to
complete you, you gave me a heart that you said I can keep by all means." Sungmin said crying in silent. "You really... you
really." he looked down closing his eyes really hard. "you've forgotten them all."

The cold wind blowing both of their hair as Sungmin felt his heart freezing by the minute. "I told you that I couldn't care
about the world because I chose to be with you... you told me you won't let go. Where have those promises gone to?"

"I am a person with no memory of you. I don't want to force myself to think about you. I'm going to make a new memory, but
I don't think I would want you in it. I have to apologize that I don't really see you as my lover... but you see,"
Kyuhyun looked at him in the eyes. "if it wasn't because of you... I wouldn't be a person with no memory. I'll be moving on
with my life. Start anew. You should do the same...Sungmin sshi."

Kyuhyun started walking but Sungmin started talking again making the young man stop on his next step. "You don't want to
force yourself anymore yet you never tried thinking about me at all." Sungmin said bitterly. He freed a sad chuckle
which made Kyuhyun look back. "That is so selfish of you. I never force you to save me, Kyuhyun-ah... the sad thing is that...
you blame me for all of it yet you never try finding the reason why you did it."

Sungmin walked and held Kyuhyun's hand, the younger man stared at him as he did the same. "We live in a very small world
Cho Kyuhyun... eventually, we'll meet by fate again and again. If I ever see you..." he smiled bitterly and let his tear fall.

"I'll remember to forget you."

Kyuhyun crossed his eyebrows and saw Sungmin's loneliness... "it was always you who sends me away. It's always you who has to
make me leave." he shook his head gentle and his lips are pouting, swallowing some saliva before saying... "Not today."

"This time... let me leave on my own." Sungmin looked at Kyuhyun's hand for the last time and squeezed it gently.

"I, too, thought your hands fit mine perfectly. I guess we're both wrong." He slid his hand off, freeing a tear
as he walked away.

Sungmin hid himself in the emergency staircase in able to cry out loud. His hands on his chest as he breathe in deeply, freeing
load of tears that don't seem to want to stop.

"Sungmin-ah... It's ok..." Sungmin told himself as his bit his lips... "it's over. Let this be the last tears
you'll cry for Cho Kyuhyun."

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Kyuhyun was left in the rooftop still standing in the place where Sungmin left him. He looked at his hand and closed it. "I
never tried asking why I did it? I always ask myself why I saved you... but I didn't get any answer. Is it my fault that I
don't want you to have anything to do with me? No matter what damn reason I have... you will always be the bottom line of all
this, Lee Sungmin... if it wasn't for your existence in my life... I wouldn't be like this. That's the reason why I don't want
you to be a part of my new memory."

Author's note: i don't get stress writing these stuffs... but i do get depressed sometimes, thanks for bearing it!
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