Kyuhyun was driving his car as fast as he can. His tears continuously fall as he recall everything that happened from the past
years... from being an arrogant bastard to a tamed and gentle lover, from a lonely man to an overly contented Cho Kyuhyun...
Teukie Hyung was right, he was crazy over one person... the reason for his 180 degree transformation.
'Minnie-ah...' he called in his mind as tears make their own path in his face.
He hit his stirring wheel hard as he recalled all the hateful words he said to Sungmin...why the hell did he say those? His Min
must be hurting so much. Damn Cho Kyuhyun... he thought, cursing himself.

He looked down and thought... Sungmin wont give up on him, right? There must be something that is still left behind... a clue,
a sign that he wont be left behind by the person he has forgotten. He thought deeply... he touched his skin near the collar
bone. His necklace... He remembered giving Sungmin a necklace that has a piece of puzzle... where is it? GONE.
He closed his eyes looking so regretful with what he did last night. It was the worst night and it was that bastard, halfly traitor
kind of a brother, Choi Siwon's fault...he forced me to throw it away,
he thought. He crossed his eyebrows and remembered clearly that it was him who throw it away, despite his own will stopping him.
Again he hit his stirring wheel.
He suddenly stopped and recalled... A key. I have a key to his apartment... I- he remembered throwing it along with the
puzzle. He stopped his car to think further.
He throw the key and said words...bad words to Sungmin, Sungmin punched him in the face which he ing deserves, even I would punch myself in the face, I might as well kill myself... Think Kyuhyun! Sungmin punched you and what happened next? He picked up the necklace.

'Remember to go home when you wake up.'

He straighten up. "he's waiting for me." he remembered Sungmin throwing the key on his chest...but where is it now?
Think Cho! Think...

He has to hold his head just to think harder...it feels like his brain is exploding in a matter of second as he try his best to
think hard. What happened when Sungmin and Siwon left? Hyukjae squat down in front of him and ask whether he is ok. He stood
up and said he's not fine and pushed Hyukjae as he walked away. Damn he's hating his overly crappy tantrums. He straighten up
and checked on his lips. It is still painful...but it is nothing compared to what Sungmin has been receiving and to think
it is from him. He think a bit more. On the floor... he said to himself. He drove like crazy straight back to the bar... the
key must be there...on the floor of the private room.

He panickly ask the receptionist about the room. He even look inside himself, crawling and not wanting to miss a bit of space
in searching the floor. Where is it? He knows he fell exactly on this place, and Sungmin threw the key on his chest...it
probably slid down when he stood up. He continued crawling looking at every inches of the place. He has to find it, please let
me find it.

He widened his eyes when he finally saw the chain and key together in a corner. He hugged it like a crazy man looking very
relief, he said a silent prayer, thanking the BOSS for still giving him another chance to correct his mistakes.
He ran outside the bar and drove as fast as he can to Sungmin's apartment.

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Nobody knows when Sungmin is in his ancestral house. Not that he remember telling his friends or anything... he decided to
go back to the ancestral house right after he woke up on the floor in front of the mural of his apartment.
He sat down in his bath tub full of water. His shirt and pants are all wet but he didn't bother taking them off.

"Did I really reach the point of giving up? Kyuhyun-ah... Shall I give up?" he closed his eyes as another tear fell, those endless
tears that will never stop falling for Kyuhyun. Slowly he let himself slide under the tub of water. He was very still under and
feeling so down and desperate that he wished he could just drown right then and there. A minute has passes and he refused to
come up... and another minute has passed. His lungs are being filled with water, he believe. And another minute has passed...

He didn't kill himself though...at about 3.5 minutes he sat up catching his breath fast. He laughed at himself as he continuously
breathe in fast, wiping the water off of his face, laughing and crying at the same time... maybe at
some point he did wish to die...but he wouldn't let himself die as long as Kyuhyun is there...inside his heart. It could be a
stupid thing to do... because in hell or in heaven, if he won't see Kyuhyun...he wouldn't be completely happy.
He went out of the bathroom and changed in to some proper clothing. Reality check: time to go to work.

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Kyuhyun literally rummage inside Sungmin's apartment. He didn't bother closing the door. Thanks to the key he was able to go
inside without a sweat. He went inside the living room and remember the familiar scent of Sungmin's shampoo... it seemed like
yesterday when he barged into the house and found the older man drying his newly showered hair with the white towel.
He just wished he could come in earlier that time to sneak in his lover while showering. How long has it been? he doesn't know.

He looked around and saw the mural that he himself made which he didn't see the last time he came here, Sungmin seemed to cover
it with a white cloth which made him not see it. He smiled... bitterly, why the hell did he forget? He extended his arms
letting his fingers run through his favourite picture, Sungmin
looking at him with deep admiration while he is showing off his vanity side holding the camera on his own. "Sungmin-ah." he
called.

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Sungmin suddenly looked back while walking. He looked around feeling weird. Is there somebody calling his name? He ignored it
and started walking again... looking down, feeling lifeless and not wanting to go to work. Today, he has to accomplish something.

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Kyuhyun continuously cry as his eyes looked at the pictures in the mural. He would burst into load of tears especially when he
remembers how a photo was taken; just like a photo of Sungmin wearing a pink bunny winter hat and mittens acting cutely upset
in front of the camera. He remembered asking the older to act cutely but Sungmin refuse to... in the end Sungmin give in and
pretend to be upset but it turned out to be a cutely upset photo. "Sungmin-ah..." he smiled and sobbed as his tears makes
different paths on his face.

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Sungmin looked back once more thinking he heard someone calling him. What is going on? He shook his head... he must be too
occupied by Kyuhyun's issues that his brain is already trying to divert his attention into something else. He closed his eyes, he
has been very tired from after the accident to the present. He doesn't have the will to even continue walking on the same path
to his work place. But he has to...

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Kyuhyun slowly go up the stairs towards Sungmin's room.
Even the stairs has its own memory to share...he remembered carrying Sungmin on his back because the older one got drunk. He
was singing something about a waiting bee loudly...

I am tired now, bumble bee, bumble bee!
I'm tired of waiting, bumble bee!
Alone in this night, it's so so cold!

Kyuhyun could only smile as he listens to his silly song. Just then the drunk man kissed
him on his neck before resting his head on the magnae's shoulder and called... "Kyuhyun-ah..."
"Oh?" he asked. Sungmin tighten his hold on Kyuhyun pressing his body closer. "I love you..."
"Oh I love you too." the young man could just smile as he finally reach the last step of the stairs and let Sungmin sleep
soundly on the bed.

Kyuhyun went back to reality and saw his favourite bedsheet... the pink and blue striped that seem to have no signs of their
'left over stains' on it... and still he can see Sungmin sleeping on the small bed and him tugging the older closer to him.
He pressed his forehead with his palm as he sighed as he walked closer letting his fingers run on Sungmin's side of the bed.
He walked towards the bedside and opened the drawer... his eyes blurred as
he sees the heart-shaped box that he gave Sungmin on his birthday. Finally, he found his lost heart, right there...still beating.
Beating for only one person. Is Sungmin's heart still inside? He wondered.

"I don't know what to give you so..." and a familiar action flashed in his mind. "Just take my heart.. you can have it by all
means."

He pressed his eyes hard and felt physical pain as his eyes are all sore and red due to crying. He has remembered everything,
but it seemed like he lost everything as well... after all the things he has done is it still sane for Sungmin to wait for him?
He's feeling hopeless. Sungmin-ah...are you still waiting for me? I'm going crazy now...please let me see your face. Tell me
I'm still there...in your heart. His sobs are quite loud, he cannot breathe anymore. Cho Kyuhyun...has remembered everything.
 

Author's note: Ah... thanks for my new subscribers, i appreciate your
subscription. wow I was really able to surpass my Break Up Battle record!
I thought I wouldn't make it. The views, the subscription and the comments for
FTR is growing even more!!! thanks thanks thanks!! *bowing bowing bowing*

So... enough suffering for Kyuhyun? nah... I want more so hang in there *evil ^^ again*
I was a bit teary when I wrote Sungmin's part here... I feel like I'm more desperate than him
uh...i don't know~ anyways thanks for the comments and the bashing hahaha... you guys have
no idea how much I like my characters being bashed. kekekekekeke~^^ *Ok crazy author >.<