Kyuhyun's mind was block with the thought of what happened last night. It surely disturbed him that he hurt Sungmin
again. When is he going to stop hurting the poor guy? He shook his head and feels disappointed with himself. His thoughts
were disturbed when his phone rings. He looked at his vibrating phone and see Ryeowook's name.

"Oh Ryeowook sshi?" he said with a low voice.

Ryeowook who gathered his courage to be the first one to call Kyuhyun felt a bit down when he heard his lover's low
and seemingly tired voice. "Are you tired?"

"No. Not at all." Kyuhyun said with his eyes closed. Massaging his head as he seemingly has no interest to talk to
Ryeowook.

Ryeowook bit his lips for a while and chuckled. "Kyuhyun sshi... do you know what day is tomorrow?"

Kyuhyun looked at his watch and saw the date. "23rd? Why?"

"Oh." Ryeowook said feeling a bit down as he heard Kyuhyun's tone. "Tomorrow is our first month being together." his
voice seemingly as low and more of disappointed which made Kyuhyun's eyes open. Has it really been a month? How could
Ryeowook sshi keep track on those dates?

"Sorry... it slipped in my mind. Would you like to go out tomorrow?" Kyuhyun said trying to make his voice sound
livelier. He has to at least make it up to the nurse even though he . He didn't fail Ryeowook to feel very excited, at that second, the nurse straighten up and stretched his
lips to a smiled.

"Uhm!" Ryeowook nodded. Kyuhyun smiled a bit when he heard that Ryeowook sounded a little bit happier.

"I'll see you tomorrow, then." Ryeowook said while biting his lips. Kyuhyun made an 'oh' sound and hang the phone. "I-"
the nurse looked at his phone when he heard a busy tone. I haven't said I love you yet... Kyuhyun sshi.

Kyuhyun curled himself on his bed and touched his head. He then straighten up and sigh as he throw his phone anyhow on his bed.
He stared at the ceiling for the longest time. He raised his hand and cover the light with his palm before putting the
rest of his arm on his eyes and tried to get some sleep. Kyuhyun-ah...you're becoming more complicated.

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From the time he knew it wasn't Ryeowook who kissed him before he woke up, Kyuhyun began questioning his own
feelings. He suddenly felt unsure why he is hanging out with the petite nurse. But on the other hand, he felt guilty
with the thought that it was him who actually initiated this dating and now he is the one having unstable feelings.
He must have been too bored, too compressed when he was in the hospital that he can only rely on Ryeowook for some
emotional stability. He must have been such a user for doing this to his nurse. Ryeowook must have been an excuse
for him not to look back or think about his past. And treating him like he's the world and suddenly wanting to
leave him in the dump he feels he's the lowest type of human being. He felt guilty that as quick as his feelings
for this guy rose that's how quick his feeling fades. He cannot understand why the feeling of happiness when he is
with this guy suddenly disappears. It seems like he is unwillingly looking for something else and he wants Ryeowook
to be happy on his own. But the thing is...he doesn't know how to be the first one to break up.

Ryeowook and Kyuhyun is going out for a date one free afternoon. Ryeowook is just excited as it will be their first
month as a couple. Kyuhyun parked his car in front of the petite man standing up in the sidewalk. He smiled at
his nurse.

"Did you wait for so long?" he asked.

"Nope. not at all." Ryeowook said. He has to admit that he is really happy to date Kyuhyun. Everytime he sees the
tall man's face, it surely brightens his day. This guy in front of him is just too special that his heart leaps
whenever he's around. But there will be times when he cannot stop himself from worrying. Sometimes Kyuhyun would
just space out and would seemed to be shock or would suddenly stop at something. He silently wonders whether his
lover is remembering something about the past. He's probably scared that the time will come and Kyuhyun remembers
everything and he wouldn't have anymore place in the young man's heart.

They started walking in the park and sat beside each other. Ryeowook leaned on his shoulder and sighed with a smile.

"Are you that happy?" Kyuhyun asked when he saw the petite guy smiling holding on to the band he gave.
Ryeowook nodded. "I always thought of leaning on my lover's shoulder. It's really fun doing it. I'm a clingy type,
Kyuhyun sshi, I hope you don't mind."

"Ryeowook sshi..." Kyuhyun called when suddenly he saw Ryeowook leaning on his shoulder and suddenly changing into
Sungmin as he sits up to look at him. That bowtie shape lips pouting a bit.
Why is Sungmin sshi's face full of cuteness?! Kyuhyun's face became pale and shocked like he sees a ghost.

"What's wrong?" the tall man blinked and saw Ryeowook not leaning on him anymore instead is looking at him with a
concern look. Kyuhyun could just smile a worried smile... why is Sungmin appearing again?

He tried his best not to let Ryeowook noticed anything about what happened. They soon went to a famous theme park
and decided to play there. Ryeowook was just so excited that he smiled and hugged Kyuhyun.

"Woah! It's been a long time since I last came here." Ryeowook said and like a child in a drama, he walked forward
and turned around with his arms raised up, smiling happily as he sees the colourful and bright surrounding.
Kyuhyun's smile disappeared once again as he sees Ryeowook turning around and suddenly becoming Sungmin again.

He saw Sungmin running towards him holding his hands... "Kyuhyun-ah... where should we go first?" his eyebrows are
crossed as he looked at Sungmin but when he blinked again he saw Ryeowook tilting his head a little bit and is looking
at him with confusion.

"Kyuhyun sshi... are you ok? You look sick." Ryeowook said checking on his forehead and neck. Kyuhyun smiled.

"I'm fine... uh... where do you want to go first?" he asked. He shook off the things that are bothering him in his
mind. Sungmin sshi, stop appearing right now. I don't want to see your cuteness lingering around when I'm still
sorting my feelings for Ryeowook sshi.

The couple happily played around riding different rides; Kyuhyun surely laugh at Ryeowook panicking like a chicken
being killed by a butcher as he shouted his lungs out when they ride the rollercoaster. 
They even tried the ice skating rink which made Kyuhyun lose his face as he doesn't know how to balance on ice. Ryeowook
was laughing happily at him, not losing those sunshine smile. "Kyuhyun sshi... I forgive you for laughing at me at the roller
coaster!"

"Aish~" Kyuhyun said looking at his lover sharply as he continuously tries to stand up with his ending up on the
cold ice for uncountable times. Ryeowook continuously laugh as he skates around his lover. Kyuhyun feeling embarassed
and rather naughty raised his hand.

"Help me." he commanded. Ryeowook was still laughing when he skated closer to the younger man. "Alright." he said as
he extended his arm to help Kyuhyun, but the magnae ended up pulling him down causing Ryeowook to shout in pain.

"Yah!" Ryeowook said but Kyuhyun just laughed at him. "Naughty!" Ryeowook said as he hit Kyuhyun's shoulder. In the
blink of an eye he saw Sungmin before him again. Touching his arm as if he is hurt. Kyuhyun crossed his eyebrows
as he is becoming impatient with his dilussions about Sungmin. Why? Why does it have to be like this?!
What the hell is wrong with him? He wondered.

He neglected his thoughts and continued playing with Ryeowook. They played inside the arcade room with him showing
his no-sweat wins over Ryeowook. You'll know what a gamemaster is when you see one. He taught Ryeowook some cheats
and was able to defeat him (of course he has to lower his gaming level).
 
After the theme park, they ride Kyuhyun's car and decided to go somewhere else. Ryeowook's smile is very wide as he
looks forward to another place he would go with his boyfriend. He'd be willing to go anywhere with him... even
at the end of the world... if there is such a thing. He could imagine Kyuhyun and him driving in a long road and
would occassionally look at each other with a loving smile and he would sometimes lean against his young lover. He
gets crazy with just the thought. It could have been the most perfect day for him and Kyuhyun. It could have been
the day when he can be sure that he holds a place in Kyuhyun's heart. But...

"Sungmin-ah, where do you want to go?"

Author's note: yeah, happy new year. a little bit dizzy due to lack of sleep... I'm a slave for work!^^
i personally like the last line... do you? hihihi^^ who wants to see jongwoon in the next chappie?
sorry for my nonsense... brain not functioning as properly as I expected. kekekekekeke~^^