dilussional kyu
Forgot to Remember [Full Fic]
Kyuhyun and Ryeowook has been seeing each other more oftenly these days and they thought it's cool. It's not like they are
stepping on other people or doing something wrong. Furthermore, they are both unattached and it wouldn't really be a bad thing
if they will date. They were so fond of each other that both of them are starting to believe that it is love. Kyuhyun, who
thinks Ryeowook was the one who kissed him, strongly believes that the petite nurse is the right one for him. He treats his
former nurse extra gentle and with concern. As for Ryeowook, he would always try to make Kyuhyun smile.
They've become so close in a short time, In the end, Kyuhyun convinced himself
that he really likes Ryeowook and would like to date him on regular.
"Ryeowook sshi... please go out with me." he said.
He looked at Ryeowook who slowly smile from ear to ear. Kyuhyun smiled at him as well. He already know what answer he gets with
that kind of smile. Ryeowook was so happy to hear those words that he almost jumped at Kyuhyun for a hug.
"Of course, I'd like to date you." the petite man said, wrapping his arms tightly around Kyuhyun's neck.
The supposedly happy Kyuhyun blinked and saw himself hugging Ryeowook but when they let go, he saw Sungmin curling
his lips and suddenly smiling widely showing his bunny teeth. Kyuhyun smiled, since when did Sungmin sshi have those 'I want
to keep his cuteness in my pocket' kind of smile? Wait. He never saw Sungmin sshi smiling like that, often times he would be
crying because of him... Sungmin sshi... you have the most dazzling smile I've ever seen.
Kyuhyun blinked again and saw Ryeowook smiling at him. The tall man's smile disappeared shortly. Where did Sungmin sshi go? he
thought. He looked down... on second thought... why did he think Sungmin was the one hugging him?
He looked at Ryeowook in the eyes; the happiest person in front of him. He tried smiling again, but he couldn't stop thinking
why Sungmin must appear before him during this important day of his new life. Sungmin sshi and I have decided to be friends,
so what's with his sudden appearance. Kyuhyun-ah... the person you are with is the most important person in your life, your
saviour, the one who kissed you, the one who woke you up.
"Kyuhyun sshi..." Ryeowook wondered as he looked at his new found lover spacing out. "Are you that shock that I accepted you?"
he asked jokingly. Kyuhyun just chuckled and sighed, he placed his arm around Ryeowook...
"I'm just too happy that you hugged me instead of saying yes." Ryeowook smiled once more hugging Kyuhyun around his waist.
Ryeowook took the initiative of holding Kyuhyun's hand. He smiled at the taller guy childishly. "Even if I'm older, I'd like
it if I'll be the one who would cling on to you." he said which made Kyuhyun chuckle. The tall man look at his new found lover
smiling all out. But then he looked down and doesn't feel satisfied at all. He, then, saw his hand interlaced with Ryeowook's.
His petite nurse smiled widely again, raising their hands. "Kyuhyun sshi, our hands, they fit perfectly, don't you think?"
Kyuhyun looked at their interlaced hands and
'I, too, used to think our hands fit perfectly, I guess were both wrong.' he recalled what Sungmin told him on the rooftop
of the hospital. Yah! Stop thinking about him! Both sides of his brain is fighting over who or what he should think of. One side
says think about what Sungmin said to him while the other side says pay attention to your new lover!
Kyuhyun shook his head which made Ryeowook thought he is unwell. "Kyuhyun sshi... maybe you should go home. It seems like you're
quite unwell." The young man looked at his new lover who seemed to be worried about him. "Are you ok?" Ryeowook freely touched
his forehead and then his cheeks. Ryeowook sshi's hands feels very warm and gentle, Kyuhyun feels like a patient once again
because of the way his lover touches him seem to be full of care and concern. However, the feeling of whether those hands fit
his or not is a question. But would that even matter? He likes Ryeowook and it doesn't matter for him whether it fits or not.
Kyuhyun sighed and took Ryeowook's hand. He smiled at the shorter man. "You could always cling to me like this, right?"
He said as he wrapped his nurse's arm around his. Ryeowook smiled and became a bit jumpy. He rested his head on Kyuhyun's arms.
Kyuhyun smiled with the thought that Ryeowook is still happy with what he did. He felt guilty though... true that it doesn't
matter, but it still bothers him... I know I've once held a hand that fitted mine. He closed his eyes shortly to shook away
those thought.
"Shall we eat dinner?" Kyuhyun asked him.
Ryeowook smiled at Kyuhyun as he nodded. The short man sighed with a smile as he keeps on looking at Kyuhyun sneakily. The
younger man could just smile at the childishness of his lover. "Why do you keep on looking at me?"
"Because I never thought you would go for me." Ryeowook said smiling. Kyuhyun smiled back and suddenly saw Sungmin smiling back
at him and when he blinked it was Ryeowook again smiling at him. What is wrong with his eyes? He is so definitely going to see
a doctor tomorrow.
He sent Ryeowook home after sharing their first dinner as a couple. He could have been the happiest if at the back of his mind,
he is not thinking of what kind of dilusion happened to him earlier. Exactly why would a glimpse of Sungmin appear in front of
him? Is it possible that it occured before? He shook his head wanting to shake away that thought. He doesn't want the past
anymore... he doesn't want it. He keeps on repeating it like a chant until those thoughts finally stop.
He didn't thought he was in deep thinking until he suddenly stepped on his break and saw an apartment that made him feel so
familiar. His heartbeat was so fast like it wanted to escape out of his chest. His hands trembled and he doesn't know why.
"Where am I?" he thought.
He tried looking around the place but it seems like there's no one inside. The lights are on though. He looked at the doorbell
and wonder whether he should press it or not. In the end, he sighed and walked away. This has been a very tiring and such a
dilussional day. He get back in his car and sped up on his way home.
If he just stayed a few more minutes, he could have seen Sungmin going out exactly at the place he stopped at and see
him throwing a bag of garbage.
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