Dearest Banana Cake,

                I want you to know that you’ve given me so, much happiness. You’ve given me so much laughter that replaced all the sadness I had in the past. You’ve given me so many smiles which melted the bitterness residing with-in me. You are the reason why I smile more, the reason why I laugh harder and the reason why I am happier. I may not know where I stand in your heart but I do know that somehow in my own little way, I’m able to paint a smile on your face.

                Do you still remember the first time we met? I do. It was on a Friday evening; with a perfect moon and starry sky, everything around felt just right. I remembered the first few words you spoke to me, the chills that was running down my spine and how nervous I was when you stood in front of me. And during that first meeting was also the first time you made me smile. Who knew after that encounter everything else would just fell in to place? Do you still remember the first moment we spent time together? I still do. It was on a sunny Thursday afternoon with a cool breeze blowing, you were wearing your pale blue shirt and you won my attention over in an instant, like a magic trick. That was the first time you held my hand and the first time I made you smile, with that smile I couldn’t take my eyes off you and I began wanting to see you more every day.  In your eyes I saw gentleness mixed with loneliness. I saw pain and fear collided, thus, exuding an aura of a broken heart and right then I wished I could do something to ease the pain inside you. It was then I realized I wanted to spend my lazy afternoons with you.

It was on a Tuesday evening when you made my heart skip a beat; that moment still echoes inside me. I remembered everything that night, the weather, the smell of the air, the people around us, the mood between you and me and especially how I felt. You left me speechless; I never knew, with just that plain and simple thing you did for me made my heart drown in an overwhelming feeling of happiness. I guess my heart was enchanted by you. I remembered when someone told me that out of the blue you spoke of me. I was happy knowing that out of your 24 hours in a single day, you were able to think of me even if it was only for about a minute and a half.  You’re hard to read as they say, but then they also say you’re somehow different when I’ around. I do hope it’s a GOOD kind of different.

I remembered the first time I made you laugh, I was so fidgety I wasn’t sure how you’d react. I remembered the first time you made me laugh over that silly racist joke of yours. I remembered the way your eyes looked at me; it was as if they were eager to get a glimpse of my laughter. I remembered this one night when we were together. It was just another one of those nights we would have enjoying every second as you and I would be situated in the intimacy zone (0-18inches distance). The cutest part of the night was when you looked at me then suddenly you were unable to concentrate in your arm wrestle with the boys. The sweetest part of the night was when you waited for me before you took off,  while the best part of the night was when you I caught you looking at me and you were already smiling. I want to figure out what’s with the smiles we both we give to each other that seemed to have a deeper meaning, or maybe my mind is playing tricks on me.

I remembered the first time I was disappointed in you, it broke my heart and brought tears to my eyes; tears that I’ve never given just to anybody. But I guess my heart considers you as someone of importance that my eyes suddenly decided to cry. I remembered how stunned I was because I never thought you were capable of doing such things; I must never forget not to judge a book by its cover. The irony of it all was in a snap you erased the disappointment with a smile and an assurance I got worked-up for nothing.

I love that you make me laugh and smile instinctively, I love the challenges you put me against to test myself and I love the efforts you give to be with me. My heart prays that all of these things that you do are because of me and not because it is who you are with everybody else. I like the way you look at me because I love seeing those happy eyes of yours as our gazes would meet. I love hearing you talk about anything that pops in your head once you see me because it’s one of the few moments that I feel connected to you and I love how your voice makes my heart melt. Most of all, I love the way you laugh when we are together because the thought of you enjoying every moment we spend makes me happy. I love the fact that we keep on doing the same things when we spend time together, just sitting down singing to our favorite tunes, trash talking about people, simply talking about whatever comes to mind and of course laughing about what happened to us before we were by each other’s side. You always make another ordinary day the best day of my life.

All the heartaches I had in the past don’t measure up to the happiness I have right now. Meeting a person who has the ability to give somebody else so much happiness makes me hold-on to every hope left in my heart that one of these days it would be my turn to be happy, and I want to be happy with you. The past made me wiser and stronger but it made me doubtful and fragile, which has hone me to be hopeful and patient but then it turned me numb and scared. You make me so happy effortlessly; without a need for any explanations. I hated missing a chance to be with you; a chance to know you better, a chance just to be with you and just let time pass us by.  I’m already used to the thought that no matter what happens to my day, as the sun slowly descends from the sky I know I‘ll be okay because I know I’ll be beside you and that is all I need to get through the day.

I love the way you make me smile, somehow I have a different smile when I’m with you, and a smile I’ve never shown before. I love the feeling I get when I’m with you, I can feel your warmth crashing down on me and when I’m  with you I don’t need to do anything since it’s you who does everything to make me want to stay longer with you. When you’re not around I find myself silenced by boredom, everything else around me turns dull. The way you make me smile when you look at me, the way you make me laugh when we are together, the way you make me happy when you want to be with me and the fact that you do listen to what I say when you act like you don’t are the things I’m attached to you in the seventy-seven days I’ve known you. My eyes and my heart tells me for some reasons I can’t explain, that in the slightest way possible you do feel the same and I pray it’s true because I think I’m falling for you. At this moment I thank God for allowing me to cross paths with my “INSPIRATION.”

 You sure are different Banana Cake, for the first time in my life you made me realize that there is still so much more I need to discover about myself, because when I’m with you I tend to drop everything else and focus on you and the moment we have. With you, I always find other sides of me. I hope I made you happy as well. They say that happiness is not something you experience but it is something you remember which makes every second count. My memories with you had been the happiness I have been dying to feel. Thank you for making me happy. Thank you for always bringing out the best in me even at my worst days.

With love,

ice candy