You Don't See It

Description

It's not what you look at that matters, it's what you see.

You don't see it
You never did
You never will
I'll promise to never feel

Foreword

As I was driving near the sea shore on that lonely day.
I stopped the car near the cliff, I sill remember, I got out and sat on top of my car.
The tears wouldn't stop flowing, I looked up...
Not only because I wanted to stop my tears but also because I looked at the stars...and they somehow made me feel better.
Those tiny little dots burning millions of light years away.
I still remember how you looked at me, I still remember how you smiled.
I still remember the way your lips moved as you said your last goodbye.
Love...Affection...
How come you saw right through me, you saw and knew everything about me.
And yet you never noticed this.
I loved you Kim Taeyeon and there wasn't a day where I wasn't mildly saddened and annoyed by the fact that you never noticed it.
It's like you're looking at my feelings and purposedly covering your eyes.
I wish I was courageous enough to grab your hands, put them down and look you in the eyes.
I wish that I could tell you all I feel about you so I can get rid of this lump that is constantly on my throat.
All I want is for my chest to feel lighter.
I want you to know how I feel.
Or at least I wanted...
I looked at the horizon and I wondered if even now as you were travelling to a place so far away from me you still thought about me...
I wondered.

I drove you to the airport, I sat with you at one of the coffee shops.
You grabbed my hand.

"Yuri..." You said with those beautiful lips.

I remember I put a finger on your lips and I nodded a no.
We got up and walked in silence, you walking in front of me.
Suddenly you stopped. This was it, behind it was the boarding gate.
You turned around and looked at me, and I can still remember as half of your hair covered your face, you looked lovely.
More beautiful than ever before.

"Bend" You said.

I did as you said and looked you right in the eye.
You streched a bit and kissed my forehead.
I opened my eyes in surprised.
You were about to walk away and I grabbed your hand.
I wanted to say it then, I needed to say it then...but I didn't...

"Call me"

Those were the stupid words that left my mouth.
I can't believe myself.

The moon peeks out of a cloud, the reflection of it on the sea.
So beautiful. I was driving at night because I can't sleep, I can't rest, everytime I try to all that comes to mind is you.
Even no, I failed miserably at my attempt to try and not remembering you.
I'll perhaps never recover from this...
Or maybe I will.

I love you Kim Taeyeon
But you don't see it
You never did
And now you'll never know.

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Taengislove89
#1
This is lovely if only you can continue this lovely fic.

Thanks for sharing this.