Goodbye.

I'm sorry but I won't be writing or finishing any more stories. I've decided to commit suicide later tomorrow evening. I don't wanna get all into the details of why cause it's not really important. I know it may seem bad from the other end but I hope you'll understand.

Goodbye.
(12/27/02 - 2/19/18)
Seohyun-forever 6 years ago
Hey... I hope you're fine...
shywol
6 years ago
@Park_Taerin I can't. There's nothing about me to love.
[deactivated] 6 years ago
@pockytaemin *hugs you tightly*
E veryone has something. You have your self atleast. Love yourself
shywol
6 years ago
@Park_Taerin I don't have an anchor. I don't have anything.
[deactivated] 6 years ago
Sweetheart leaving this life is not a solution. Find your anchor. Mine is my best friend.
Grackie
6 years ago
Suicide doesn’t ever erase pain...it just transfers it to other people. That’s the only reason why my sister is still alive. Praying for you
Riparian
6 years ago
i hope you find your solace in someone.
[deactivated] 6 years ago
Hey there! Though I am a complete stranger, please take my words into account..
Cause a haste decision cant be reversed.. Maybe you feel totally surrounded by dark clouds and no one to lein on but please dont give out just yet.. There might still be a sunshine ready to shine on you the next moment.. This is why you have been born.. I am sorry for being rude.. Thank you for listening friend..
Wish you take a wise decision.. Take care
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[deactivated] 6 years ago
Hey! Do you remember me? Well, here we are again. Both of us, still alive. What a coincidence, am I right?

How have you been though? Nothing much has improved, as far as I can tell. Me too. Well, I'm in a bit of a stagnant phase. I don't know how to explain it; I guess it's because not many people go through that so I didn't think you had, but it's kind of like having a bad day, except the day never ends. So, yeah. That's kind of the situation I am in right now. Bit of a drag. I didn't think it possible, but man does it get worse. Not many people talk about that too, have you noticed?

The possibility of things getting better sure is there, but don't forget about ol' Devil, too. We ought to be prepared out here.

If you're decided, I guess there's not much I can do about it. I mean, I can't even fix my own life, so who am I to talk? Let's just remember things, I guess, for old time's sake. Even if we've never met before.

In retrospect, it's probably been a good life, excluding all the nights when we had to cry ourselves to sleep, or had to physically hurt ourselves so we don't feel the pain inside our head. Man, that was tough. We really deserve some rest. But still, it's a good life. I never had to worry about the food I will eat or the place I will sleep in. I specifically love remembering the times when I can dream. Not like, dreaming of a better future, but literally dreaming/making things up. I guess, when you die, you can't really do that anymore. I'm especially going to miss that when I'm no longer here.

But have you ever wondered what's really out there? It's nice to find out, right? As for me, since I'm still alive, all I can do is wonder about it, since obviously it's not yet the right time for me to find out. I hope there's a way to like record all the possible adventures and compile them, then send it back here. Or maybe we can just go on adventures in this life, before it ends, since we're still here after all. I don't know. It's a big world.

Sometimes I wonder, if there's an afterlife, would it be as hard as the life I'm living right now? God, that'd be a double-whammy, would it? Like, what did I do in my past lives to deserve this? Was I Hitler?

Considering that, I guess you have to be extra tough before you choose to take your own life. I mean, you gotta know you're going to experience even more confusing things, maybe equally as painful, maybe even worse than what you had to go through right now. It's practically the "unknown." What is out there? Heck, I don't even know what to expect. Probably nothing, or probably nothing I can ever imagine.

Anyway. It was a good talk (I hope). I don't know if I can still be anything useful at this point, but know that you're strong for having been able to take all this pain. I know I am. No one can take that credit away from me.
BTS_ARMY_4_EVA
6 years ago
Please remember this: a suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I know this probably isn't what you need right now, but, if you feel like this, talk to someone you trust. I nearly did the same thing until I spoke to my family and friends, and I still sometimes think about it now. Your situation is probably worse than mine, but suicidal actions can lead other people who love you so much falling into depression from losing you, because you are special. Unlike anyone else. You are not alone in this. Sorry if I am being nosy here, but please don't.
Oreoyumyum304
6 years ago
@pockytaemin Just remember this: "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." I have had a rough life from the time I was born till now, but I found things to help me ease my pain, things like: Art, my writing, etc. Yes I still hurt a lot from time-to-time, but I manged to find things that help distract me.
Hyerificfics
6 years ago
no
Hyerificfics
6 years ago
no
shywol
6 years ago
@Oreoyumyum304 Don't worry I'm fine
Oreoyumyum304
6 years ago
@Marlene52 I am really concerned for this person, they have not replied to any of the comments here. Looking at their account is way more concerning.
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Marlene52 6 years ago
Hey! Please don't mind me being a stranger and please read.
I Know that many things may seem hard and some things may not be so bright, I get how that feels as do many others, but please and I'm begging you please think about the good things that are going on. You may think that there's not many or that they're too small to be considered important, but every small thing counts, and if you think about them you'll see that it's not that bad.
Being depressed and having to deal with all the things that are thrown at you day by day IS hard and I won't deny it. I'm also not telling you to forget about all the things that make you sad because being sad is normal and crying out one's pains is also good for you. But what I am asking is to please not end your life like this. There are so many people that would give anything for you to remain alive, please look t us too!!
If you haven't been told this yet then I'll be the one to say it I LOVE YOU FOR YOU and would hate to see such a beautiful soul leave us.
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MissusE
6 years ago
We don't know each other
Nothing I say will probably change your mind
Maybe you're already gone
Who knows

But please, read everything else people have written in hopes of saving you
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[deactivated] 6 years ago
please understand that it may feel like you’re all alone at this but there are people out there who want to help you, who want you to be okay. There’s always a second chance and i know right now where you’ve hit rock bottom, it may not feel like it but i swear to god there’s hope . Please don’t do this because the world still wants you and the world still needs you.
[deactivated] 6 years ago
hey, I understand what you may be feeling right now because I have been suicidal too. last year was hell for me, and at one point, I thought I would not make it to the new year. but somehow, I survived.

sometimes, we don't even know when things are getting better. we assume that we'll remain at the bottom of a dark hole forever. but trust me, you can climb out of it. I know it's cliche, but the saying is true: once you feel like you have hit rock bottom, there is nowhere to go but up. everything will be okay in the end.

if you really feel like you can't bear the sadness, the numbness, whatever you may be feeling or experiencing any longer, I still ask you to sit down for a minute, take a deep breath, and think of anything--anything in this world--that gives you even the slightest, smallest desire to live. Maybe it's that last piece of chocolate in the fridge. maybe it's your pet or your family or your best friend. Maybe it's the thought of not being able to see the blueness of the sky again that gives you pause. anything, anything. Just think of anything, write it down even, make a list if you can, that makes you want to live. read that list to yourself, even if it's just one word, and cling on to it. dying can always wait until after you've eaten that piece of chocolate, after you've cuddled your cat or called your best friend or hugged your mom.


You can survive. There will be a light at the end of the tunnel, as cliche as it sounds. You will survive.

here are some resources you can use:
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
http://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/
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PrincessJin4Life590
6 years ago
Heyheyheyhey
Hi
oh my goodness ><
Ik we don't know eachother, but me, along with the rest of us in this AFF community are here
Doing this... it will not solve anything
I understand things can be really hard, I know, but please, there's always light at the end of the tunnel
I can't change things from here, but I just want you to know that if you ever need anything, PM me, please
I really hope that you don't stick to this descision, I really do
You really must be an amazing person, it'd be awful to lose just a beautiful light in the world...
<3
dolligore
6 years ago
Excuse me, but if you need someone to talk to then, feel free to let out your feelings please. I understand, it may be a HUGE deal with personal information, but really, you shouldn't do this. I hope that you do understand, that you're not only hurting yourself, but also the others around you. I'm sorry to say that but sweetie its true, I've been told that plenty of times. I know we're different people dealing with different problems... but I just want you to understand that you're not alone on this. There are people here willing to help you and talk to you, on your problems. We may not all be professionals on talking to others and trying to make them feel better, but most importanly we're by each others side on what we have to do with each other. If you ever have the chance, I advise you now please go to this website as soon as possible, [ https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org ] I'm hoping that this website is wiiling to work or help, please do not do this, I'm being honest here, I'm being really serious, someone will really contact people to come and talk to you, because that usually happens when someone feel suicidal, depression or any type of mental illness, mainly suicidal thoughts. Again, if you need a shoulder to cry on, talk about your feelings, share anything that comes to mind, I'm really offered to help you. I hate to see people this way, I feel bad. Please I want to help, others want to help. Please don't do this now lovely :(
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[deactivated] 6 years ago
Talk. Talk it out. Let all the pain out. Get help. Reach out and hold onto something. You owe it to yourself. Please don't kill yourself. You deserve to live a better life, and you deserve to make that life for yourself. Please. Don't give in to the pain
[deactivated] 6 years ago
You deserve to live on and find a better life for yourself. You owe it to yourself to live and make your own life.
LilMinMinniexx
6 years ago
Also... take it from someone who has done just about every type of suicide out there... Pills, cutting, rope, ect ect. The last thing you think about just before you die is "I don't wanna die, help me." every time as I started to get to the point where I could barely breathe, or feel, or the pain in my lungs is so bad, I would try to reverse whatever I did and the last thought is "Help, I don't want to die." I'm one of the lucky ones with so many attempts to die, and still being here. Trust me when I say... whatever you're going through isn't worth that final ounce of pain I've felt over and over.